The only person who acts sensibly is my tailor. He takes my measure anew every time he sees me. Everyone else goes by their old measurements ~ George Bernard Shaw.
Found this piece of 'punch to my face' line while browsing through the web page. Seeking idea on what to update on my blog this wee hours of time. Today is my last day on night shift, off of almost three days and am back for another two more nights...last leg of the night shifts.
Though I can read behind the meaning of above words...the truth I have that habit too ; I mean really I do have that. Every time that I visited my lady tailor, she would want to take new measurement which stubbornly I refuse. Ended hmmm unable to fit in most of the time....cause I refuse to accept the reality that my weight is like bouncing Yo Yo ! When its shredded it makes me happy but when I gained it back ..refusal to accept the fact gave my dear tailor a hard time
I guess as much as I m blowing my own trumpet on being positive, adopt changes and ready to take on life..there are small little things which often overlooked as small matter. While it is actually an important flaws that I need to overcome. Weight has been much of my self denial issue. It has become my routine complaint yet still no productive solution made.
Its me, myself and I...being the culprit of knowing the existing of issue yet feel comfortable sitting in it. At the end it still me, myself and I the one that felt frustrated and stress cause nothing has been done.
Something has to change either am gonna sit and enjoy being me or move over to be more productive and enjoy being me.
Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
Hard things are put in our way, not to stop us, but to call out our courage and strength
Second night shift in line. Sleepy as a bear in winter...damm! Unable to sleep that's for sure. Killing the wee hours by surfing on this slow network.
With these many off days I felt that am left out from work quite a bit. Am around in the office yes, at the same time am not around too. I guess shift hours works are like that. See how it goes, lets go with the flow.
Follow suit to the heat up rally that happen recently in this country, I had successfully removed several unwanted human from my social page network cause of racial issue. Then there was a nice email exchange between me and my old colleague. This guy is known for his jokes and never was a serious person as a friend. Knowlegeable nonetheless. We both worked well, then I left the company to pursue my carrier..from what I know years later he left too.
We both met again on this famous social web page. This guy can converse in Arabic language perfectly. In the good old days with that company, there are several other colleague of us who speaks Arabic. After 6pm, usually these boys will start to chat ; scene like all of us are in Jeddah. One of those great moment of us.
Back to the conversation we had, he did commented politely on my comments that I hate to see this social web page becoming a political battle ground and racial issue. He said, there is no victory without pain. Yeah, I agree on that, what transpired between us later was awesome !
"No racial issue here anymore. We fight for Malaysian, the time and world has changed. Thus, I was shocked and excited to see all races are in the rally. We don't want to wait until it is too late when there is no balance anymore. Rich will get richer and poor will be poorer all because of corruption. Looked what happen to Libya, Egypt etc. We do not want that to happen. We want to show to the government that they have to work for us and not we work for them. Is there any different between you and I as citizen ? We still have to work for our life here, for our food. I pay the same bill as you and life are getting tougher for all of us.
The one who spend our money is the one who is governing the country. I don't care who is the government, the point is they have to work for us not we work for them. We need our politic matured like UK, US whereby almost every 5 years the government is changing. See what their citizen harvest from it, their elderly are very well taken care off, their education system are free. You don't have to worry about police, courts are function equally. Either you are rich or poor, the same equality are there.
I am happy to see the youngster nowadays awaken already to the surroundings. I used to follow opposition then I stop and just listen from far. After 10 years I am working hard still I am paying damm high bill, then I start my own business now I could see that I have to work hard again. Felt the pinch of the bureaucrat, the difficulty even I am the main race here in this country. So I realize, 10 years and today am still the same. But live is getting tougher and suffer........ "
Whatever he wrote here, honestly everyone feel the same. There is a saying that don't trust what you see on TV or paper. For me it works both ways ; just need to know how to harvest from it. Our mind and soul can be blinded at times by what the politician are saying. But when we start to have to cut down lots of thing from food to spending...then reality speaks.
To date, my earning has increase heartily...still it is not enough to even start my own retirement plan. What I have is just enough for myself. Let alone if want to start a family.
I do felt to just pause and think again on what should be done next. To add up a life partner or stay this way as I have only myself to carry. Some might say that I am avoiding responsibility and fear on things of unseen.
When it comes to having additional person in your daily life, its already a foreseen thing. Just about how both of you going to handle it ; that remain unseen. Every marriage and every child there are blessing in it. Oh well ! I believe in that but it just not strong enough to remove the truth journey of life. No matter how much blessing a life can be, it take hard work to sustained it.
When they say life is not a bed of roses all the times, I guess it goes well with the blessing too...you gained or you earned this blessing thingy. It goes with what sort of person are you.
I can proudly say that my life is really bless cause of my parent, my sisters, my lover, my friends and of course my hard work and effort to ensure I have a good life. I love myself, I love my life and am not a bad person, that is already a blessing.
Even so, rest assure my life still not quiet from challenges, obstacle and what not sent by HIM. I guess it is amusing for HIM to just do that. Let see how she handle this......boom..it happen....crawled and battled out of it. Survived and am waiting in line on whats next.
Bearing in mind that what does not kill me make me tougher. Fall on my face even, get up dust myself and walk tall again.
Blessing is not permanently there with you always. It goes with the inner spiritual believe in you.
Bottom line, for me nowadays I work hard, very hard and so far it pays off. At this age, this new found world of sanity has been good to me. Even those foolished days of mine..well are pretty good as well, the least I enjoy and let loose myself.
Coincidence decides to whom you meet in life. Your heart and your mind decide with whom you want to stay in life. But only destiny decides who gets to stay in your life.
With these many off days I felt that am left out from work quite a bit. Am around in the office yes, at the same time am not around too. I guess shift hours works are like that. See how it goes, lets go with the flow.
Follow suit to the heat up rally that happen recently in this country, I had successfully removed several unwanted human from my social page network cause of racial issue. Then there was a nice email exchange between me and my old colleague. This guy is known for his jokes and never was a serious person as a friend. Knowlegeable nonetheless. We both worked well, then I left the company to pursue my carrier..from what I know years later he left too.
We both met again on this famous social web page. This guy can converse in Arabic language perfectly. In the good old days with that company, there are several other colleague of us who speaks Arabic. After 6pm, usually these boys will start to chat ; scene like all of us are in Jeddah. One of those great moment of us.
Back to the conversation we had, he did commented politely on my comments that I hate to see this social web page becoming a political battle ground and racial issue. He said, there is no victory without pain. Yeah, I agree on that, what transpired between us later was awesome !
"No racial issue here anymore. We fight for Malaysian, the time and world has changed. Thus, I was shocked and excited to see all races are in the rally. We don't want to wait until it is too late when there is no balance anymore. Rich will get richer and poor will be poorer all because of corruption. Looked what happen to Libya, Egypt etc. We do not want that to happen. We want to show to the government that they have to work for us and not we work for them. Is there any different between you and I as citizen ? We still have to work for our life here, for our food. I pay the same bill as you and life are getting tougher for all of us.
The one who spend our money is the one who is governing the country. I don't care who is the government, the point is they have to work for us not we work for them. We need our politic matured like UK, US whereby almost every 5 years the government is changing. See what their citizen harvest from it, their elderly are very well taken care off, their education system are free. You don't have to worry about police, courts are function equally. Either you are rich or poor, the same equality are there.
I am happy to see the youngster nowadays awaken already to the surroundings. I used to follow opposition then I stop and just listen from far. After 10 years I am working hard still I am paying damm high bill, then I start my own business now I could see that I have to work hard again. Felt the pinch of the bureaucrat, the difficulty even I am the main race here in this country. So I realize, 10 years and today am still the same. But live is getting tougher and suffer........ "
Whatever he wrote here, honestly everyone feel the same. There is a saying that don't trust what you see on TV or paper. For me it works both ways ; just need to know how to harvest from it. Our mind and soul can be blinded at times by what the politician are saying. But when we start to have to cut down lots of thing from food to spending...then reality speaks.
To date, my earning has increase heartily...still it is not enough to even start my own retirement plan. What I have is just enough for myself. Let alone if want to start a family.
I do felt to just pause and think again on what should be done next. To add up a life partner or stay this way as I have only myself to carry. Some might say that I am avoiding responsibility and fear on things of unseen.
When it comes to having additional person in your daily life, its already a foreseen thing. Just about how both of you going to handle it ; that remain unseen. Every marriage and every child there are blessing in it. Oh well ! I believe in that but it just not strong enough to remove the truth journey of life. No matter how much blessing a life can be, it take hard work to sustained it.
When they say life is not a bed of roses all the times, I guess it goes well with the blessing too...you gained or you earned this blessing thingy. It goes with what sort of person are you.
I can proudly say that my life is really bless cause of my parent, my sisters, my lover, my friends and of course my hard work and effort to ensure I have a good life. I love myself, I love my life and am not a bad person, that is already a blessing.
Even so, rest assure my life still not quiet from challenges, obstacle and what not sent by HIM. I guess it is amusing for HIM to just do that. Let see how she handle this......boom..it happen....crawled and battled out of it. Survived and am waiting in line on whats next.
Bearing in mind that what does not kill me make me tougher. Fall on my face even, get up dust myself and walk tall again.
Blessing is not permanently there with you always. It goes with the inner spiritual believe in you.
Bottom line, for me nowadays I work hard, very hard and so far it pays off. At this age, this new found world of sanity has been good to me. Even those foolished days of mine..well are pretty good as well, the least I enjoy and let loose myself.
Coincidence decides to whom you meet in life. Your heart and your mind decide with whom you want to stay in life. But only destiny decides who gets to stay in your life.
Politicians are like diapers. They both need changing regularly and for the same reason. ~Author Unknown
The day ended miserable. I am down with fever and flu ; my two best companion of all time. Though off late, these two does not 'visit' me that often..today is just one of those days.
I guess, the truth about my feeling today it is because of what had happen this afternoon in this country. I can't help to feel hurt ; the fire just keep spreading. When it comes to political issue ; I really hate to get involve.
Politics in general as I said above are like diapers. The one of stinking shit is the one who are in the position to change it, while the one wearing the diapers just 'flushed' it out happily knowing they do not have to clean it up.
The honest feeling I have inside me today is "No where". I said to my lover, you are born under one race ..generation by generation, you have sort of 'self belonging' to something. Its in the blood. Like me, unfortunately I am born under mixture of all the four major race in this country. My 'self-belonging' feeling is that I AM A MALAYSIAN...thats all. I can't be divided into any of the category as I carry them all.
Child like feeling when parent has to divorce. The inner feeling that torned, undecided, anger and kept wishing that all will be alright while in the reality speak. I simply cannot put my feet to support any of those racial, religion what ever it is as I CANNOT BE DIVIDED INTO ANY PART OF IT. Its the whole sum made one.
The social network Facebook was fired up with racial, religion and social sentiment. Can anyone imagine how misrable it is to be in my shoe ?
One comment I've received after expressing my dissatisfaction of the rally. My point was rather on the situation that leave of us the end user and middle class earner to face the challenged.
"Think your future. Think for your next generation. U have to suffer now for a betterment tomorrow. Unless u no longer bother about your next generation"
Voila !!! Suffer now for betterment tomorrow ? What are we ? Tunisia ? Libya or Syria ? Are we even close to that ? To me it is just another 'copy cat' thingy. Next year there will be new issue to fight about...a new Party or Association is formed...new rally in town. Its the same thing flushed out into the diapers earlier. To smell the stinking shit is still us.
Am not afraid of changes. At this moment I just cannot see anyone or any wings that is worth fighting for.
You want to play with fire ? Ensure your back up is an ocean. Even the made famous controversial blogger/writer ...answer me what happen to the fighting spirit of his ? Reality speak, words are twisted, stories amended and it is now not his call to do all those things that he did and said.
Again....the stinking diapers are loitering around our faces. Tomorrow is another day, another routine. Go to work, earned and coped up with all those diaper's users. Those diaper's user that have multi million Swiss bank balance. Very expensive user.
Then came along a cheap user diaper brand. These users are much more stinking than the existing one....WHO TOLERATE IT ?....................still us.
There are things in this world that are worth fighting for. Trust me...what happen today is not one of it.
I am a Malaysian. I belong to this country. This is an honest feeling of mine. I don't know how does it feel to be just one race because I am multi-racial. If anyone can come close to feel what I feel....my salute goes to them.
Those who dare to play with such fire sentiment really has not learned from what happen around us globally. To start the fire it is easy...but when the heat is on and huge...the person who light it up will just disappear in the darkness of politics.
My father used to say....you and I cannot be politician dear girl. We are not the type of people who can lie and cheated another human with empty talk through out the day and still be able to sleep soundly at night.
Politics, it seems to me, for years, or all too long, has been concerned with right or left instead of right or wrong. ~Richard Armour
Politics is the gentle art of getting votes from the poor and campaign funds from the rich, by promising to protect each from the other. ~Oscar Ameringer
I guess, the truth about my feeling today it is because of what had happen this afternoon in this country. I can't help to feel hurt ; the fire just keep spreading. When it comes to political issue ; I really hate to get involve.
Politics in general as I said above are like diapers. The one of stinking shit is the one who are in the position to change it, while the one wearing the diapers just 'flushed' it out happily knowing they do not have to clean it up.
The honest feeling I have inside me today is "No where". I said to my lover, you are born under one race ..generation by generation, you have sort of 'self belonging' to something. Its in the blood. Like me, unfortunately I am born under mixture of all the four major race in this country. My 'self-belonging' feeling is that I AM A MALAYSIAN...thats all. I can't be divided into any of the category as I carry them all.
Child like feeling when parent has to divorce. The inner feeling that torned, undecided, anger and kept wishing that all will be alright while in the reality speak. I simply cannot put my feet to support any of those racial, religion what ever it is as I CANNOT BE DIVIDED INTO ANY PART OF IT. Its the whole sum made one.
The social network Facebook was fired up with racial, religion and social sentiment. Can anyone imagine how misrable it is to be in my shoe ?
One comment I've received after expressing my dissatisfaction of the rally. My point was rather on the situation that leave of us the end user and middle class earner to face the challenged.
"Think your future. Think for your next generation. U have to suffer now for a betterment tomorrow. Unless u no longer bother about your next generation"
Voila !!! Suffer now for betterment tomorrow ? What are we ? Tunisia ? Libya or Syria ? Are we even close to that ? To me it is just another 'copy cat' thingy. Next year there will be new issue to fight about...a new Party or Association is formed...new rally in town. Its the same thing flushed out into the diapers earlier. To smell the stinking shit is still us.
Am not afraid of changes. At this moment I just cannot see anyone or any wings that is worth fighting for.
You want to play with fire ? Ensure your back up is an ocean. Even the made famous controversial blogger/writer ...answer me what happen to the fighting spirit of his ? Reality speak, words are twisted, stories amended and it is now not his call to do all those things that he did and said.
Again....the stinking diapers are loitering around our faces. Tomorrow is another day, another routine. Go to work, earned and coped up with all those diaper's users. Those diaper's user that have multi million Swiss bank balance. Very expensive user.
Then came along a cheap user diaper brand. These users are much more stinking than the existing one....WHO TOLERATE IT ?....................still us.
There are things in this world that are worth fighting for. Trust me...what happen today is not one of it.
I am a Malaysian. I belong to this country. This is an honest feeling of mine. I don't know how does it feel to be just one race because I am multi-racial. If anyone can come close to feel what I feel....my salute goes to them.
Those who dare to play with such fire sentiment really has not learned from what happen around us globally. To start the fire it is easy...but when the heat is on and huge...the person who light it up will just disappear in the darkness of politics.
My father used to say....you and I cannot be politician dear girl. We are not the type of people who can lie and cheated another human with empty talk through out the day and still be able to sleep soundly at night.
Politics, it seems to me, for years, or all too long, has been concerned with right or left instead of right or wrong. ~Richard Armour
Politics is the gentle art of getting votes from the poor and campaign funds from the rich, by promising to protect each from the other. ~Oscar Ameringer
Nothing makes the earth seem so spacious as to have friends at a distance; they make the latitudes and longitudes. ~Henry David Thoreau
3rd Of July 2011. My first night shift. 1930pm to 0830am on 4th July 2011. So far so good, its 3 minutes to 10pm. Still wide awake. Doing a little house keeping and updates. My project office project still has not completed yet. Need to work on it soon.
Friday 01st July 2011, my dear beloved darling Operation Manager - Brian Ong announced that he is leaving ; greener pasture ; carrier enhancement. That Friday ended with all of us with teary eyes. I could not hold myself together ; sobbing like baby. Stormed out of the office while Brian tailed along..its really funny when come to think of it.
We are all happy for him that's for sure. Why such a sadness then ? Well, the bond of friendship that we have build together in the team. The routine that we went through day to day. The pampering from him as a Manager towards us as a staff is amazing. The closeness that we have are beyond recall of daily life ; that much I can say. Everyday in the morning, we waited for him to come so that the Morning Case Transmission can start. Through out the entire work hours..the giggle, laughter..there is always something to laugh about. No matter how stress the day is..his presence is enough to get us through the day.
He is the one of invented my pet name ; Possum ! It stays though. Minus the 'bribe' of cupcakes. He even at times went all the way to pack lunch for us if the situation is such like not enough staff or it is just too busy.
Even though we are treated in such a pampering by him as Operation Manager ; none of us go over board ; climb on top of his head and abuse the privileges. Our team are independent enough. He just at times has to sit a bit further away from us because we are too distracting with nonsense of laughter and jokes. Can't concentrate. Any issued arise he handle it with care.
Oh well, words are just not enough to describe such angel sent to us here. He has an opportunity to grow further ; by all means go ahead. We are very happy. Going to miss him terribly that's for sure.
In our Director Of Assistant announcement of Brian's decision to depart us ; his words enough to make me start all over again:
"Brian has been instrumental in bringing the team, and the platform to the level that it is at today. Brian's strength has been his ability to interact with his staff and leverage of that for desired results. The reaction of his team is a testament to the type of manager Brian is."
Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos. ~Charles M. Schulz
Saturday was a good rest day for me. My eyes infection has ceased a bit. When I call the clinic to informed that I will be coming later ; Dr Jasbir jokingly asked which handsome man that I've watch too closely. My respond was " they watched me ; thus I got this" He giggled.
This doctor has been a friend, a father and advisor in lots of ways. I have been treated by him more than 13 years. He start off as join venture with the original owner of the clinic. Then that doctor left him high and dry to run the clinic on his own. Dr Jasbir then took over the clinic and run it till today.
Over the years, he has develop such a father figure towards me. During my downfall he was one of a shoulder to cry on. Usually when I came into his room , he will crossed his leg, seated back and relaxing. He will listened to my story and tales for the first 15 minutes then only asked why am I there. Unless of course if the situation is unbearable. He has been good to me all these years.
I wondher why ye can always read a doctor's bill an' ye niver can read his purscription. ~Finley Peter Dunne
On Friday, I found my long lost friend during college days. She is 1 year junior to me. We have lost contact almost about 10 years. She just recently blessed with a daughter after almost 10 years of marriage. Got to meet up with her soon. Apparently she is staying just a stone throw away from my current house. Closer to where my dear sister stay now.
I went to pick-up my two little fish from my sister's custody last night. Healthy and happy ; these two are really playful. Chatted with her heartily. She is spending Eid with my parent this year.
Come to think about Eid it is just a month and half more to go. July is ending fast ; soon August and fasting start. With all these happening in my life, I find that I am very much occupied. My calendar are fully marked with events and things to do. Soon this year is going to an end...I have plenty more to do.
“Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “I will try again tomorrow.”” — Mary Anne Radmacher
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Friday 01st July 2011, my dear beloved darling Operation Manager - Brian Ong announced that he is leaving ; greener pasture ; carrier enhancement. That Friday ended with all of us with teary eyes. I could not hold myself together ; sobbing like baby. Stormed out of the office while Brian tailed along..its really funny when come to think of it.
We are all happy for him that's for sure. Why such a sadness then ? Well, the bond of friendship that we have build together in the team. The routine that we went through day to day. The pampering from him as a Manager towards us as a staff is amazing. The closeness that we have are beyond recall of daily life ; that much I can say. Everyday in the morning, we waited for him to come so that the Morning Case Transmission can start. Through out the entire work hours..the giggle, laughter..there is always something to laugh about. No matter how stress the day is..his presence is enough to get us through the day.
He is the one of invented my pet name ; Possum ! It stays though. Minus the 'bribe' of cupcakes. He even at times went all the way to pack lunch for us if the situation is such like not enough staff or it is just too busy.
Even though we are treated in such a pampering by him as Operation Manager ; none of us go over board ; climb on top of his head and abuse the privileges. Our team are independent enough. He just at times has to sit a bit further away from us because we are too distracting with nonsense of laughter and jokes. Can't concentrate. Any issued arise he handle it with care.
Oh well, words are just not enough to describe such angel sent to us here. He has an opportunity to grow further ; by all means go ahead. We are very happy. Going to miss him terribly that's for sure.
In our Director Of Assistant announcement of Brian's decision to depart us ; his words enough to make me start all over again:
"Brian has been instrumental in bringing the team, and the platform to the level that it is at today. Brian's strength has been his ability to interact with his staff and leverage of that for desired results. The reaction of his team is a testament to the type of manager Brian is."
Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos. ~Charles M. Schulz
Saturday was a good rest day for me. My eyes infection has ceased a bit. When I call the clinic to informed that I will be coming later ; Dr Jasbir jokingly asked which handsome man that I've watch too closely. My respond was " they watched me ; thus I got this" He giggled.
This doctor has been a friend, a father and advisor in lots of ways. I have been treated by him more than 13 years. He start off as join venture with the original owner of the clinic. Then that doctor left him high and dry to run the clinic on his own. Dr Jasbir then took over the clinic and run it till today.
Over the years, he has develop such a father figure towards me. During my downfall he was one of a shoulder to cry on. Usually when I came into his room , he will crossed his leg, seated back and relaxing. He will listened to my story and tales for the first 15 minutes then only asked why am I there. Unless of course if the situation is unbearable. He has been good to me all these years.
I wondher why ye can always read a doctor's bill an' ye niver can read his purscription. ~Finley Peter Dunne
On Friday, I found my long lost friend during college days. She is 1 year junior to me. We have lost contact almost about 10 years. She just recently blessed with a daughter after almost 10 years of marriage. Got to meet up with her soon. Apparently she is staying just a stone throw away from my current house. Closer to where my dear sister stay now.
I went to pick-up my two little fish from my sister's custody last night. Healthy and happy ; these two are really playful. Chatted with her heartily. She is spending Eid with my parent this year.
Come to think about Eid it is just a month and half more to go. July is ending fast ; soon August and fasting start. With all these happening in my life, I find that I am very much occupied. My calendar are fully marked with events and things to do. Soon this year is going to an end...I have plenty more to do.
“Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “I will try again tomorrow.”” — Mary Anne Radmacher
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