“Don't waste your time with explanations: people only hear what they want to hear.” ― Paulo Coelho

Night shift again. Did had kind of good rest. My courtesy broadband is out of capacity. Had to wait till 1st to be loaded up. It is free of charge anyway so I can't complaint much. I wished it to be upgraded but Mr Shan said....no..it is given by DiGi for staff and you are using it at no cost. In directly he is saying...just use it and zipped up darling!....

Till now I am still not done with updating cases. None stop since 1930hrs. Not so much on the cases but rather incident that cause my to broke down into tears today. The victory of it, I manage to bring an earthquake to this huge luxury plus prestige car brand here in Malaysia.

Escalation of one person's attitude in that organization will climb as high as it can get. I guest they also had enough of it.

Dealing with bad attitude person was never easy. We are based in a call center and provide assistance in delicate, professional and up to date manners. On site assistance is very important as well. If both party can't work hand in hand, nor look eye to eye...the end use which is owner's of these prestige car suffer the lost.

It is not their problem if they are not synchronization internally on how to coordinate assistance rendered. I can't be telling these end user our internal problem.

Our encounter with this person are numerous. Too many times until it is very hard for us to speak anything good about him. It sort overwrite and covered up all that he has done to assist. Refusal, llanguage and voice tone of him enough to put all of us at great deal of stress.

We voiced it out many times but escalation are at very minimal stage. The most our Manager said, just ignore him...he is like that. Don't let him get to you.Well, easier said that done. I am trying not to get it personal but when the other party made it personal...hell break loose of course !

Our tolerance level was up today. End up in war of words...I literally hang up the call. No point to speak to a person who is not helping at all. Out of anger and agitation, called up to my Manager just to advised him the situation.

Thereafter,  follow up call to provider I am already sobbing. Listening to my voice, our dear provider handed over my call to her husband. He just said, it is high time for us to do something about it. He assisted to escalate appropriately and call up to my manager as well. They also felt the pinch. It is very difficult from their end as well. 

I recall how my ears bleed listening to frustration let go from our provider ...again about the same person. Today it is our turn.  

The rest is history....long story short I end up emailing chronological of case for escalation. Due to this, our off duty technical advisor showed up at the office as well. My dear day shift did not leave till about 2200hrs.
Phone calls flew everywhere from top to toe of an organization.

Just because you grew with the company does not mean existing management has to tolerate what is going on. The day has come either you buck up or pack up !....

At the end of sending that email to my management, it is very much regret ...inner regret that I should not have lost it. Arguing with fools ..only make two of it. Always put myself in other's shoe..trying to understand their situation. It is after all people's rice bowl and end earning. Sadly..if repeatedly we are treated like a dirt...it is high time to fight back.

Man! What a night !.....morning approaches and I have two more nights to go. Just ease my path dear God!..thats is all I am asking. I am working very hard to meet ends need. Next few weeks also it is not going to be a holiday ride for me.

Just got key to my new house yesterday. Went to hardware shop today to pick up few things for the house. The neighbourhood is a real quiet. Puzzle me as well apart from all unit there has no safety grill/gate. I mean..is it that safe ?...My unit on ground floor some more...hmmm....no compromise. I am demanding for a safety grill/gate from the owner.

I am still unable to get date to go for house cleaning and prayers as well. One sister in Singapore, holidaying ..the other one in hospital...her son admitted at Gleneagles. Our trip to that hospital is record breaking this year...

Latest news, landslide at Bukit Setiawangsa. My sister's house is one of it located in the row. She might have to moved out temporarily, as for now they are on holiday. Let see how it goes.....

And then....finalizing the shifting date, cost for movers, things to buy, endless packing and last but not least my surgery dates. May all fall into places...Amin !...


“Keep your thoughts positive because your thoughts become your words. Keep your words positive because your words become your behavior. Keep your behavior positive because your behavior becomes your habits. Keep your habits positive because your habits become your values. Keep your values positive because your values become your destiny.”


― Mahatma Gandhi










Oublier cet orage éphémère....

Second night shift....journey of long battle until 5th January 2012. I am already half dead....did not sleep a blink two nights before.

That illegal car wash outside our condo compound is a real trouble maker. They are so spirit up no matter what festival it is. Fire works just boom out the entire night till early hours...so so inconsiderate. I ended up sleeping in ER makeshift room...it was the old store room...too sleepy and disturbed.

That is why for my new house I carefully choose the neighbourhood. Two years...long enough to suffer the different class of mentality surrounding. As it is said, you can take people from the bronze but you cannot take the bronze from the people....what lies ahead of this new place, I do not know but the least I am faced towards those upper side of the scale.

Tried so hard to sleep as cover up for night shift. Failed big time. Few phone calls ..just made it even more better. A close friend just landed from Phuket, asked if it is worth it to buy perfume from duty free. As for now, we got it directly from US..its far cheaper even with delivery cost. Not worth it...I bought that Elizabeth Arden Green tea for less than RM80..

I was reading an entry from a friends blog. He asked to give a name of one person ; the one that truly can standby your side should the table of life turn unexpectedly. What flashed to my mind was, my parent....since they are still around, but thereafter...honestly I do not know..can't find anyone that can fit in to that description and category. Maybe there are none for me though.

The current surrounding I have maybe they can but rather not put expectations. If it does not happen...the world shall fall apart. Expectation often leads to disappointment. I do pray that my faith shall not go into that loop. If it does....accept it when open heart. It is written that way....

As I remember, I have only two best friends since. BFF as they put it. Both are parted away due to inconsolable differences. One was during college days and one more during working period. That college friend just exist in FB page. Spoken to her once after 10 years...nothing has change on her, attitude wise. I on the other hand already a different person. I want it that way..remain in each other good book.

The other one however, I am still finding peace with myself to forgive her....can't bring myself up to it till today...two years has passed. I am still in that grey zone..just don't come to my sight.

All I know that, during your hardship...that bitterness of it only we are alone to taste. By this time you will know who will remain at your side. From that path I've walked before....None ! its not their fault ...it is mine to served as I did not choose quality over quantity.

Who and who is in our life can very much determine who we are. Which level of life we are at. For now, I am always loved and surrounded by nice people. All are very dear to my heart...ccarefully choose who I want to mix around with. Close friends are only handful. That one also, have to walk through different path and thorny roads. We settle our differences in many ways possible. There are always a cooling period, like kiss and make up. Just a matter of time....

Spoke to my mom today morning. Just shared with her my stormy heart about a little obstacle that I faced in this shifting house. By late afternoon it is all cleared. That is how powerful parent's prayers and blessings are. Finally all fall into places and I am excited !

Today also that irresponsible ex-housemate of mind contacted Shan for the fate of his stuff. He asked a timeline till end of this month as if it is few weeks more to it....Chest pain !...its like few days down the road will be month end already..Hello !...I told him, need all the information like nowwwwwwww....2nd January 2013 will be the moving day...I have no time to wait for you. After a week message sent as reminder...only today you responded. Can afford to bargain some more. It is a very valuable lesson for me..sincerely...very very valuable.  After this through fire, storm or blizzard..be it flooded...No more housemate !






If I were a boy.....




Casablanca.....


I fell in love with you watching CasablancaBack row of the drive-in show in the flickering lightPopcorn and cokes beneath the starsBecame champagne and caviarMaking love on a long hot summer's night
I thought you fell in love with me watching CasablancaHolding hands 'neath the paddle fans in Rick's candle lit cafeHiding in the shadows from the spiesMoroccan moonlight in your eyesMaking magic at the movies in my old Chevrolet
Oh, a kiss is still a kiss in CasablancaBut a kiss is not a kiss without your sighPlease come back to me in CasablancaI love you more and more each day as time goes by
I guess, there are many broken hearts in CasablancaYou know I've never really been there, so I don't knowI guess our love story will never be seenOn the big wide silver screenBut it hurt just as bad, when I had to watch you go
Oh, a kiss is still a kiss in CasablancaBut a kiss is not a kiss without your sighPlease come back to me in CasablancaI love you more and more each day as time goes by







Temple of The Kings....



I miss this guy so much....he is my very own personal trainer once. Well, we did assist each other in getting fit and healthy. He is a good trainer. I was physically fit, muscled up.

Towering at 6 ft 4 inches height, he is one huge 'mat salleh'.  Woke up at 4am...Yup ! 4.00 in the morning daily for a routine run....be it rain or shine. We start off from our Condo, to PWTC, round up Chow Kit, then Pekeliling station and home...solid 1 hour 30 minutes..daily.

Of course there are days that either one of us abandoned the other...sleeply and tiredness...I miss the fun...

I wish I can do it again....maybe our path crossed again my dear Reint ... pretty sure it will...