There is a need of a change for sure. What have I done so far ...well not much. It is not nothing but not much effort to it. Basically I have not push it to the limit for all the changes, wishes and dreams that I want.
I used to love what I do for a living. The good old days is drifting away.
Does power makes people mean ? Oh yes it does. Link : http://edition.cnn.com/2013/10/24/business/does-power-make-you-mean/index.html?hpt=hp_c5
We have walked the horrible days of a leader, I guess it will come to that soon. Need a change badly and I am working on it. Should nothing satisfying swing by..just tie a knot and hang on.
Last week I had a visitor. Friend of a century..he is a friend, admirer, devil and angle. We fought, we scracth, we cried, snuggle and cuddle...name it. At the end we still together. The only thing about me and this guy is...divided we stand but united we fall. Loving him as a whole but living with him is another story. We can stand on same floor not more than two days.
Collected my Kim Kardashian - Gold Perfume plus some other goodies he bought. He is always been my perfume contributors. I envy his life at times. Travelling and circling the globe like nobody's business. He has completed more than half of the continents. Left South America and Africa that has not been conquered yet.
Among the conversation that we had that night was about loneliness. I told him that I am very lonely at times with no one to be call a true friend by my side. Apart from my lover, I don't have much of a friend to be call friends.
He said, in our own circle there are people who dying to have our life. Yet we are a loner.
We are a loner not because there is no one to be friends with, we are a loner because we set up a standard or par, who to be with and who not to be. If that person unable to reach to our level or thinking, attitude or even react then he/she is not fit into our life. Whilst these people accept us the way we are plus they enjoy our companion. So who is the screw up now...we or them. (I hate him if he is right)
On top of all these, he labelled me a snob. Always been a snob I am it seems. Oh well I did not notice that! (I hate him more... :-) Snob or not I am my father's daughter. My siblings behave the same. We are not a blonde in house of bunny that's for sure.
One story after another...we end up sleeping at 0600am. Damm! I was so Panda the next morning! Over all I realize that he is much more lonelier than I am. Being used to him over 20 years ...I just let it be. Bottom line I knew he meant well whatever the issue was.
At the point when we thought we are screwed...just pause and have a look around. Nothing much I can say about it...as I said...Loving him as a whole but living with him is another story. We have walked heaven and hell to be where we are now. He is having a life time fun and experience in travelling.
Experience where most of us just can afford to dream about it.
We bid farewell and reality cast upon us again.
I am back into the huge mansion and he is back to his family. We had a good time yes. When shall we see each other again..well god knows! I want to make a point to travel to States with him once. While he is still having the previleges..
Yesterday afternoon while I was taking a nap, a phone call came in. I have no idea who the guy was. What kept me going was when he mentioned we went to same school. After few minutes of teaser, he reveal himself. Oh man!...this year is so a year of lost and found. Ahmad Suhaimi Rashid. Legendary one of our gang member.
Then a phone call from another school friend ; Hafiz. He said lost my number and can't seems to find a way how to get it back. Then he remember my dad...he call him to get my number. Unbelievable! Funny and witty as usual.
On the other hand, my old flame - no more on FB. His wife block me out. Whatever...I am snob anyway! He call me once a while to say hi. I said too bad your wife did that but just leave it as it is. Woman can be complicated. Don't start a war cause it will be a battle you can't win.
Chatted with my new found school mate, he asked me to join ex SMDMM 1989 to 1993 page on FB. Many of us are in there. True enough..entire battalion is there. The next alumni I will put my leg in for sure. It is unbelievable how we are in our 3 series now.
The good old days. 0745am to 1300hrs daily Mon to Fri. Took same bus to and from school.
Well known in the school. I got to dig the old school album..wait! It will be right up in that school FB page..
I am still looking for the football team captain. He is still missing. No one knows where is he. Like vanish in the thin air. Everyone seems to be around but not him. We are divided into few groups in a way. Not all get along well.
Generally everyone is good to each other. Just the click is different...
My phone has not stop since then...friend request pouring in like mad. Whatsapp message..the worst was I don't really know most of them. Felt like Rachel Green from Friends. They knew me...my bad!
Then a message came in from one of the girl Nina...there is on person whom holding her by the knee for my number. I m speechless...who could that be...?...Turn out to be another of my close buddy also...Rajisman Ali. Number exchanged and I felt like crying.....20 years man....!! He was also looking for me high and low. Off the record...during school time my boyfriend don't really like him...hehehe..
He is now with DRB Hicom.
Mission soon will accomplish...I need to find that Football Captain and few girls is next on the list... My parent can remember them by heart until today. Just mentioned to them one name - they quick to know what happen to each and everyone of this school batch of mine.
The best time of my life was during school....nothing replace it..absolutely none.....
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