"You cannot prevent the birds of sorrow from flying over your head, but you can prevent them from building nests in your hair." Chinese Proverb
Four days flew like a whirlwind. Am back in KL again. Spirit up to continue my journey where I put it on pause four days ago. I was terribly homesick. Missed my parent's nest ; its like craving for cheese cake. Your taste buds won't rest until you have it. My sister followed us back, it was an easy ride ; fun and relaxing.
My nephew is already 1 year old. Handsome boy, I must say. A bit pampered and my parent just going with the flow. I knew they are tired, at that age they supposed to put their fit up and rest. Being parent, how can they turned down own child request to take care of the grandson. They are not complaining, I rather took pity in my own way. Well, life goes on. They seems to enjoy the company of this little boy in a way. My mother's favorite statement " I have lots to do but just can't do anything". I told her, don't think of what you can't do mom, think of what you are doing now. You have time to rest, rest then before things change and you get busy. Telling parents of what to do is like teaching old person a new trick. She is 60 years old; don't think it will go positively into her mind but well...I've tried.
My dad, as always ; man with a few words. He ensure the fridge are stocked up with food. My mom told me that, my dad was busy running around shopping for groceries and fresh fish and chickens when he learned that we are coming home. We chat and spend time talking about things. He was busy thereafter,
finishing his room extension project before Eid comes. All of us going to come home this Eid and there ain't enough room. I can't wait to go home again. He did raised up some concerned over family issues. I don't take sides, diplomatically put my legs where it belongs. Family life is like that, even when one person showed off unwanted talent...the rest team up to fix it. We don't replace it with another member that's for sure. Parent's advise or siblings words can be poison and antidote at the same time. That what makes us family after all.
Second night home, I cooked spaghetti and with chicken sauce. My dad said 'Can do laaah, I still prefer my rice." I just grinned, he had two plates of it am sure.
Had a long chat with my mom too. Discussed current affairs of life, from my sister's to mine to what happened around us. Mom told me her dream way of spending retirement. Though not that different but still it was not what she imagine it would be. My comment was, the least your retirement fund is good. None of you have to work till the end. At times if we think we have not lived the way we want it, but we are much much better than those people out there. I have seen with my own eyes, a person at 65 years still struggle to make ends meet. Being neglected by children. Everyday before his sleep, his prayers was...Dear God, take me to you. That's a sad life. Its all started during younger days, we failed to think that..we will grow old. During younger years, we failed to see through whats our ending is.
It is said that the best thing that a father can do is to make his children love their mother. My mom couldn't agree more. Its not that she is not grateful. She is a person who has walked a very tough life. Tougher than what I've walked. Education just enough to make her read and write. She ensure none of us go through it. She took over the financial control of house hold needs from my father and saved up till today. The strongest pillar support of my family is her. Often she said that, when there are extra cash to spend, my dad will tug her to purchase anything expensive that she desired, she refuse and rather settle for something simple. Save up every dollar and cent. To her there are other important things to save that money rather than spending on expensive branded things. We can afford it yes but why waste it. Once a while it is fine.
We normally spend our younger days trying to be away from parent. Then as our aged catched up, we grew matured (in some cases) we realize their time are getting shorter. Their life span are ending. Then we feel there are much need to spend our time with them. I can't go back to changed what has been done, but I can hell sure what I m gonna do with the remaining time that's left.
Am I prepared to walk the path without my parent? Of course not. But we just have to accept the truth, I will cross that bridge when the time comes. A friend of mine from UiTM days always reminded me again and again...enjoy the time with parent while I still have the chance. She has walked the path of losing a father. Her mom has not been well since. Things are not the same anymore. Life goes on.... yes no doubt but its like missing a piece in the whole jigsaw puzzle. Incomplete. Smile is not as sweet as it use to be and laughter is not as ticklish as it used to be...its a lesson learned, ensure that our own next generation share the feelings and understand what parenthood is. It is definitely more that just being a father and a mother.
There are so many things in my mind lately. Anger and frustration over things that had happened. People say it is easy to pint point at someone just to blame on something. The truth is...it is not. I've tried to blame a person over things that happen to me recently. I did not feel happy or relief, it felt just not right. But when I turn the blame and anger to myself....the feeling is different. It is relief and I am able to have question and answer within myself. Am angry on myself for allowing another human to bully and taking advantage of me until I am ruin and deviated from what I've worked so hard on. Then my inner self gave solutions, positive thoughts that I can build it again. I have walked that journey....I knew every corner and curves. Do it better this time. Its bitter but yet sweet. Am gonna make myself a reminder..it is not going to happen again.
On the way back to KL, I stop and visited an old friend of mine. We had nice time chatting and wished that it would be longer. So many things to catched up with. Hopefully next time, we are able to sit down and have a heart to heart talk. My mind travel and wander back in time to 15 years ago. Shan actually snapped me out of it when I almost missed the junction where we supposed to turn to. I smile to myself and thanked HIM that I am glad that good circle remain and it is not worn out in time.
Tomorrow is a brand new day. Let see what awaits for me. We make our own journey and carved our own path. We plan, we dream, we pray, we make it into reality....success or failure ...as long as we give it hell of a fight before it is called a failure...its already a satisfying moments because we did our due diligence and we leave it to HIM.
Wounds heal and leave behind scars as a reminder...a good reminder....if only we learned from it. Some people enjoy the scars like tattoo...ain't gonna happen to me sister ! naa aaaa... :)
It scares me too of not knowing whats coming tomorrow, day after and the day after...have faith and have something to believe on. There are things in this world that are worth fighting for. If I don't crossed it then I never knew about it forever. If it is good...its good....if it is not..lesson learned ..don't take that horrible path. Put Universe as your limit....soar !
"Never allow anyone to rain on your parade and thus cast a pall of gloom and defeat on the entire day. Remember that no talent, no self-denial, no brains, no character, are required to set up in the fault-finding business. Nothing external can have any power over you unless you permit it. Your time is too precious to be sacrificed in wasted days combating the menial forces of hate, jealously, and envy. Guard your fragile life carefully. Only God can shape a flower, but any foolish child can pull it to pieces."
~ Og Mandino
Birthday 2011...another awesomeness !!!...Wonder where is Dev Anand...
21st June came and left. Leaving behind such a memorable birthday of my life. One of those moments in life that I shall never forget. Double the awesomeness ! Not so much on hardcore party...its the list of well wisher......I have to charge my Blackberry twice today. Wishes poured through Facebook....its amazing ! I am so so so bless...to have such a wonderful people around me including my family.
The celebration start off in my office on 20th June 2011. My colleagues made surprised...cake and birthday song..then the rest well wisher just poured ..flowed like river.
The day end with my dinner with Shan. Simple celebration only...we had dinner at Kenny Rogers as I don't know what to eat. As for the present ..I got to crack my head now ...what do I want from him...got my Blackberry phone early this year already ; thus can't demand much. He redeemed a electric oven and coffee maker from Bonuslink for me...as I mentioned I need to start baking again. What more could I want then...having him is such a bless already.
Among those well wisher message today, some really make me grin ear to ear..some left with teary eyes. I will share some here.
Looking back, these wonderful people around me come from every corner of the earth. From Germany, Greece, Bahrain, Dubai even Australia...these are those who came into my life and left their foot print into my heart...shall remain forever..Apart from that, friends from my last company, friends during my college days...and of course those which newly found.
When I said that I'VE BEEN AROUND THE WORLD...I really meant it. It is my WORLD...connected at heart.
Above all...I am really blessed to have live till today. Gonna color the future rainbow like. Passing dark clouds let it come as a shelter..it will pass for sure. I have no words to describe my feeling honestly. It has been a sweet day...
My spirit really lifted up. I have plan to make ...get back on my feet to keep in touch again with my friends. All of sudden I felt time is my worst enemy..am racing against the sun to keep up with so many things that I need to do...then I can't help to feel bless and happy....its really unexplained. When I looked at my diary today..am like fully booked till mid July 2011....I love my life...thank you dear God ! Amen !
From my boss : ~ Brian Bululion Ong
"It's POSSUMMMMM DAY!!! Aku tunggu sampehhhh 12 to wish u georgette!!! Hope u will have a blast & may all the happiness find you :)))) xoxoxo"
From my Lanun sister : Joanna
Happy Birthday kakak, sorry adik mgs late...Smalam tido...Pagi tadi wake kejap pastu tido balik. Hiks...skang nak siap gi kejew...haihx..:(
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Anita Arfman ~ ex colleague in Holland (minah salleh ni suka ckp Melayu)
Happy Birthday my far away friend! Rindu awak... Love from Holland :)
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Thank you my dear Anita...muah! I miss you too....so much...:) hugs...
Anita Arfman There will be a day I'll go back to KL... Then we'll meet again! hug back...
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Hahaha...yeah hun....:) hye I've message u here my house address....:)
Anita Arfman yeah.. got ur address.. thanx dear! I need to sleep now, but tell me all about ur Bday soon okay? bye xxx
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor I will....hehheh...gud nte..:) take care yeah
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College Days
My dear Sister ~ Roszalina Abdul Rahim
Assalamualaikum dear little sister... I still remember how u used to come over to my room to look for that colorful famos amos popcorns and here you are - Still standing! Happy birthday girl! May Allah bless u :)
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor
Waalaikum salam my dear sister...hahaha..you are my comfort of heart as always....till today your words still soothes. Thank you Kak Nai....May Allah bless you and your family...:)
Roszalina Abdul Rahim
Tipu! Tipu! Tak caya! Balik Pekan, tak call I pun!!!! Tak caya!!! LOL
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor
Hahaha....mana ada balik lagi...this time mesti col nya....hugs!
Milla Jamil ~ Favourie gak nih... :)
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!! Sorry terlambat wish by mere minutes....Wishing you many happy returns of the day & whole year thru. Take care & enjoy life dearie. XOXOXO!
p/s: Bila nak kahwin nie?? Hehehe...
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor
hehe..thank you ...:) its ok..no worries.. ;) Insyallah if all goes well..next year hopefully..
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YTL - Shikin Ahmad
Dear Gorgie..Happy birthday to you..,may this day always be a special one to remember..dan sentiasa dirahmati Allah swt aminnnnn
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Amin....tima kasih kak shikin....insyallah
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AE - Ryan Ibrahim
happy birthday gie...ngeeee :D
Sorry lambat sket wish...u lahir pn tgh hr kn dulu...so, i wish tgh hr lar...hehehe...
dengan izin Tuhan...semoga semua nyer lbh baik dr tahun2 yg lepas...enjoy the day...coz today is ur BIG day...mah turun KLCC belanja i sempena birthday u ni...hahahaha...sekian ~ur CELCOM bear~ :P
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Hahahha...tima kacih ted...sayang you...keep the belanja dulu...I will claim in July nanti...will send the date for gathering...dah rindu gila kat u all....syg ted...keta smpai ti bawak I jalan2 tau
Ryan Ibrahim i mean u lar turun KLCC belanja i...hehehe
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Cipet....chelcom bear...;)
Ryan Ibrahim muahahahahaha...that's me :P
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Still I lap you....
Ryan Ibrahim i know...lalalalalalala
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Agoda - Camy Khamis (Sultan yang kejam)
Camy : lorrrr.. bday ke arini?? meh dtg midvalley blanje aku mkn.. akekekeekk..
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Yelah....besday aku...ala bagi la can...sultan ler belanja rakyat sekali sekala
Camy Khamis sultan mn ader blanje rakyat jelata.. ko penah nengok?
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Ko mula kan dulu lah....hehhehe
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Jillian Chong ~ Ex Boss ..wonderful person
May all your dreams come true for you, happy birthday G!
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Thank you Jill, your guidance is part that made what I am today....:)
Jillian Chong Wow, such nice words, thank you thank you...
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor :) its true.....I appreciate it from my heart Jill ..you did not abandon me when I need you...:)....
Jillian Chong Who can abandon a sweet girl like you?
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Heheheheh.....thanks Jill....:)..one thing for sure I took time to heal and choose my future path wisely....wounds healed..only left scars as a good reminder....:) and you gave me a chance to stay as friends.....:)
Jillian Chong We are FF - friends forever, Georgie.
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Yes we are....will catch up for a drink soon...:)
Jillian Chong Soon soon please...
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Will do for sure....:) thanks Jill n have a great day ahead
Jillian Chong You too, have a good time celebrating your birthday, tata...
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These are 10% from the list of well wisher that I can share here....I wish I can put them all in. Each of have thousand of meaning for me.
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About astrology and palmistry: they are good because they make people vivid and full of possibilities. They are communism at its best. Everybody has a birthday and almost everybody has a palm.
~ Kurt Vonnegut
The celebration start off in my office on 20th June 2011. My colleagues made surprised...cake and birthday song..then the rest well wisher just poured ..flowed like river.
The day end with my dinner with Shan. Simple celebration only...we had dinner at Kenny Rogers as I don't know what to eat. As for the present ..I got to crack my head now ...what do I want from him...got my Blackberry phone early this year already ; thus can't demand much. He redeemed a electric oven and coffee maker from Bonuslink for me...as I mentioned I need to start baking again. What more could I want then...having him is such a bless already.
Among those well wisher message today, some really make me grin ear to ear..some left with teary eyes. I will share some here.
Looking back, these wonderful people around me come from every corner of the earth. From Germany, Greece, Bahrain, Dubai even Australia...these are those who came into my life and left their foot print into my heart...shall remain forever..Apart from that, friends from my last company, friends during my college days...and of course those which newly found.
When I said that I'VE BEEN AROUND THE WORLD...I really meant it. It is my WORLD...connected at heart.
Above all...I am really blessed to have live till today. Gonna color the future rainbow like. Passing dark clouds let it come as a shelter..it will pass for sure. I have no words to describe my feeling honestly. It has been a sweet day...
My spirit really lifted up. I have plan to make ...get back on my feet to keep in touch again with my friends. All of sudden I felt time is my worst enemy..am racing against the sun to keep up with so many things that I need to do...then I can't help to feel bless and happy....its really unexplained. When I looked at my diary today..am like fully booked till mid July 2011....I love my life...thank you dear God ! Amen !
From my boss : ~ Brian Bululion Ong
"It's POSSUMMMMM DAY!!! Aku tunggu sampehhhh 12 to wish u georgette!!! Hope u will have a blast & may all the happiness find you :)))) xoxoxo"
From my Lanun sister : Joanna
Happy Birthday kakak, sorry adik mgs late...Smalam tido...Pagi tadi wake kejap pastu tido balik. Hiks...skang nak siap gi kejew...haihx..:(
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Anita Arfman ~ ex colleague in Holland (minah salleh ni suka ckp Melayu)
Happy Birthday my far away friend! Rindu awak... Love from Holland :)
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Thank you my dear Anita...muah! I miss you too....so much...:) hugs...
Anita Arfman There will be a day I'll go back to KL... Then we'll meet again! hug back...
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Hahaha...yeah hun....:) hye I've message u here my house address....:)
Anita Arfman yeah.. got ur address.. thanx dear! I need to sleep now, but tell me all about ur Bday soon okay? bye xxx
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor I will....hehheh...gud nte..:) take care yeah
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College Days
My dear Sister ~ Roszalina Abdul Rahim
Assalamualaikum dear little sister... I still remember how u used to come over to my room to look for that colorful famos amos popcorns and here you are - Still standing! Happy birthday girl! May Allah bless u :)
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor
Waalaikum salam my dear sister...hahaha..you are my comfort of heart as always....till today your words still soothes. Thank you Kak Nai....May Allah bless you and your family...:)
Roszalina Abdul Rahim
Tipu! Tipu! Tak caya! Balik Pekan, tak call I pun!!!! Tak caya!!! LOL
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor
Hahaha....mana ada balik lagi...this time mesti col nya....hugs!
Milla Jamil ~ Favourie gak nih... :)
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!! Sorry terlambat wish by mere minutes....Wishing you many happy returns of the day & whole year thru. Take care & enjoy life dearie. XOXOXO!
p/s: Bila nak kahwin nie?? Hehehe...
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor
hehe..thank you ...:) its ok..no worries.. ;) Insyallah if all goes well..next year hopefully..
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YTL - Shikin Ahmad
Dear Gorgie..Happy birthday to you..,may this day always be a special one to remember..dan sentiasa dirahmati Allah swt aminnnnn
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Amin....tima kasih kak shikin....insyallah
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AE - Ryan Ibrahim
happy birthday gie...ngeeee :D
Sorry lambat sket wish...u lahir pn tgh hr kn dulu...so, i wish tgh hr lar...hehehe...
dengan izin Tuhan...semoga semua nyer lbh baik dr tahun2 yg lepas...enjoy the day...coz today is ur BIG day...mah turun KLCC belanja i sempena birthday u ni...hahahaha...sekian ~ur CELCOM bear~ :P
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Hahahha...tima kacih ted...sayang you...keep the belanja dulu...I will claim in July nanti...will send the date for gathering...dah rindu gila kat u all....syg ted...keta smpai ti bawak I jalan2 tau
Ryan Ibrahim i mean u lar turun KLCC belanja i...hehehe
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Cipet....chelcom bear...;)
Ryan Ibrahim muahahahahaha...that's me :P
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Still I lap you....
Ryan Ibrahim i know...lalalalalalala
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Agoda - Camy Khamis (Sultan yang kejam)
Camy : lorrrr.. bday ke arini?? meh dtg midvalley blanje aku mkn.. akekekeekk..
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Yelah....besday aku...ala bagi la can...sultan ler belanja rakyat sekali sekala
Camy Khamis sultan mn ader blanje rakyat jelata.. ko penah nengok?
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Ko mula kan dulu lah....hehhehe
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Jillian Chong ~ Ex Boss ..wonderful person
May all your dreams come true for you, happy birthday G!
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Thank you Jill, your guidance is part that made what I am today....:)
Jillian Chong Wow, such nice words, thank you thank you...
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor :) its true.....I appreciate it from my heart Jill ..you did not abandon me when I need you...:)....
Jillian Chong Who can abandon a sweet girl like you?
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Heheheheh.....thanks Jill....:)..one thing for sure I took time to heal and choose my future path wisely....wounds healed..only left scars as a good reminder....:) and you gave me a chance to stay as friends.....:)
Jillian Chong We are FF - friends forever, Georgie.
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Yes we are....will catch up for a drink soon...:)
Jillian Chong Soon soon please...
Daveen Anne Marie Luthor Will do for sure....:) thanks Jill n have a great day ahead
Jillian Chong You too, have a good time celebrating your birthday, tata...
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These are 10% from the list of well wisher that I can share here....I wish I can put them all in. Each of have thousand of meaning for me.
About astrology and palmistry: they are good because they make people vivid and full of possibilities. They are communism at its best. Everybody has a birthday and almost everybody has a palm.
~ Kurt Vonnegut
I have a simple philosophy: Fill what's empty. Empty what's full. Scratch where it itches ~ Alice Roosevelth Longworth
My wish list was a bee line....time passed and when most of it already being granted...I need to sit down and
review back. Those list need to be review or renew or improvise. At times...the best solutions might not be the best way. Have to twist and turn a little..add on a bit spices to it...or rather give that wish list of mine an energy booster...I won't say the remaining items are not achievable or impossible..its not a priority as for now.
June 2011....mid year, t is good to review our achievement and our failure, specially at this point of the year. Whats my achievement ?...the biggest I've felt so far is that I removed my fear, remove the inner 'NO' and put up a good fight with obstacle and challenges. Failure...well...none new that's for sure..fixing the old one that's all. Still making my way through on how best to solve those self-invented failure without having to carry it to the grave.
It is not going to be a wish list anymore...re branding ... :) List of Possibilities. See, I feel lift up already. Shall I succeed or not ? that's another issue, am not gonna care about it till I walk through it. Dev Anand is my loyal fan of this blog of mine.....thank you from the bottom of my heart sincerely. He said I should be a writer...hmmm that shall go into the List of Possibilities.
Last night I got a unexpected 'Hi' on my hotmail. Its from my long lost friend during AE days. His name is Bala. One of the person in my good friend list. We've come along way that's for sure. Lost contact almost about 3 years. I thought about him often lately, wish that we could be in touch again somehow. My wish is answered well this time. Glad that we found each other again. He is one of the person I want to keep in
friendship for a long time. I guess good circle always comes around in time. This reminds me of the 'Dance Floor'.
It is now Sunday 19th June 2011. Took me several day to publish this post...time coz of time. A bit tight up and ideas just run dry. Don't wish to repeat the same thing over and over again ; that's nagging I guess or rather self-comfort.
Things have been great for the past weeks. Dev Anand called me up yesterday ; he is back in town. So nice of him. Yesterday was a super lazy day for me. I was so so sleepy after breakfast. Doze off from 10am till about late 1pm. Thereafter, cooked for dinner and make tea time snacks. Shan came around late afternoon just nice for tea time. Spend good quality time, discuss several issues and hope to have it settle in time.
Last night I was in chat with one of my friend. She has a stirring heart due to so many series of unfortunate event since last year. She was used by her boyfriend to apply several bank-loan worth RM40 over thousand, then that man gone missing....left her debted. She has no choice to confront the parent...and manage to get help from them. After that, she broke a news that found someone and its a bit fishy to me from beginning as this new person willing to assist her to settle the debt. I was like ...hmmm...huh ? still exist haaa this kind of person...must be very rich then. Lucky she took hard lesson learned, manage to investigate, this guy is another con man. Though did not manage to 'shave' her money or what but damaging enough cause this new guy is a womanizer. Stories passed around and in the end she was in for it again. Her parent was rather furious and upset. All the said and done....now she is so down because her parent is pestering her to settle down. Proposal after proposal ..she just felt like cornered and desperate. Lost in her own world of judgement , can't seems to decide what to do.
What I share with her was rather brief. She need a break at least about 1 year to heal. Now is not the right time to make decision. Sit down and talk with parents nicely, tell the truth that you need a break...need a breathing space. I have walked in that path of being paster to settle down. Can't remember how many time that quarrel with my mother (in my younger days). Lucky for me, my parent did introduce me to any 'suitable' candidates..otherwise ..the war should last longer than.
Once of these days got to see that girl for a coffee...poor girl. Not so much becoming a consultant or what. Its good to catch up too.
As aged pass through I do understand the parent's concern about having kids to settle down. Its a very sensitive issue to touch, have to handle with care...seriously. You just can't look at one side of each. It very much at times narrow down to custom and tradition.
I don't have many friends but it is more than handful of course. We might not be in touch everyday but we sure know whats happening around. Teddy told me the other day that one of our friend down south diagnose with anxiety. Teddy felt sad for being ignorance and rarely asked how her friends are doing. Just because we all are on FB..she felt she took for granted that everything is ok. She even felt that towards me.
Well, one thing for sure...if I am in trouble I shouted for help. Come what may, call me drama queen or whatever I don't care...to me is like am not alone here in this world. I need help means I need help..better be there. As for this friend of us, she is struggling to cure now.
I share with Teddy, am not surprised this comes to her at the end. Cause of her path from younger days were not address properly. She really has one hell of a bumpy journey, but life goes on. I do hope deeply that she would be able to make it through. I've told my dear Teddy as well, don't feel bad that much cause you never asked how your friends are doing. Lesson learned, ensure next time round be alert a bit.
To know more about this disorder click this link : http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001915/
Just received email from Dalia another friend of mine in Syria. I emailed her couple of weeks back. Concern about the situation there after watching the news. She is alright but worry as well since it will soon spread to the capital city. Even Internet connection is not that stable. Pray hard that all will be ok and things will get back to normal. If one really wants to know what peace means, travel to one of these stirring countries. Or rather take a trip to formal war country. I can only imagine yet the pain is right through, it gives sort chill on my spine.
Its 19.15pm...an hour to go and am home. Tomorrow just another day and off for two days. I teased Shan on whats my birthday present going to be. He remain sealed on it...oh well. Nothing else matter rather than having a good life, good health and be thankful that I am already living for 35 years of age.
Going back to my parent soon..homesick like mad already...I need to be home...home sweet home...
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review back. Those list need to be review or renew or improvise. At times...the best solutions might not be the best way. Have to twist and turn a little..add on a bit spices to it...or rather give that wish list of mine an energy booster...I won't say the remaining items are not achievable or impossible..its not a priority as for now.
June 2011....mid year, t is good to review our achievement and our failure, specially at this point of the year. Whats my achievement ?...the biggest I've felt so far is that I removed my fear, remove the inner 'NO' and put up a good fight with obstacle and challenges. Failure...well...none new that's for sure..fixing the old one that's all. Still making my way through on how best to solve those self-invented failure without having to carry it to the grave.
It is not going to be a wish list anymore...re branding ... :) List of Possibilities. See, I feel lift up already. Shall I succeed or not ? that's another issue, am not gonna care about it till I walk through it. Dev Anand is my loyal fan of this blog of mine.....thank you from the bottom of my heart sincerely. He said I should be a writer...hmmm that shall go into the List of Possibilities.
Last night I got a unexpected 'Hi' on my hotmail. Its from my long lost friend during AE days. His name is Bala. One of the person in my good friend list. We've come along way that's for sure. Lost contact almost about 3 years. I thought about him often lately, wish that we could be in touch again somehow. My wish is answered well this time. Glad that we found each other again. He is one of the person I want to keep in
friendship for a long time. I guess good circle always comes around in time. This reminds me of the 'Dance Floor'.
It is now Sunday 19th June 2011. Took me several day to publish this post...time coz of time. A bit tight up and ideas just run dry. Don't wish to repeat the same thing over and over again ; that's nagging I guess or rather self-comfort.
Things have been great for the past weeks. Dev Anand called me up yesterday ; he is back in town. So nice of him. Yesterday was a super lazy day for me. I was so so sleepy after breakfast. Doze off from 10am till about late 1pm. Thereafter, cooked for dinner and make tea time snacks. Shan came around late afternoon just nice for tea time. Spend good quality time, discuss several issues and hope to have it settle in time.
Last night I was in chat with one of my friend. She has a stirring heart due to so many series of unfortunate event since last year. She was used by her boyfriend to apply several bank-loan worth RM40 over thousand, then that man gone missing....left her debted. She has no choice to confront the parent...and manage to get help from them. After that, she broke a news that found someone and its a bit fishy to me from beginning as this new person willing to assist her to settle the debt. I was like ...hmmm...huh ? still exist haaa this kind of person...must be very rich then. Lucky she took hard lesson learned, manage to investigate, this guy is another con man. Though did not manage to 'shave' her money or what but damaging enough cause this new guy is a womanizer. Stories passed around and in the end she was in for it again. Her parent was rather furious and upset. All the said and done....now she is so down because her parent is pestering her to settle down. Proposal after proposal ..she just felt like cornered and desperate. Lost in her own world of judgement , can't seems to decide what to do.
What I share with her was rather brief. She need a break at least about 1 year to heal. Now is not the right time to make decision. Sit down and talk with parents nicely, tell the truth that you need a break...need a breathing space. I have walked in that path of being paster to settle down. Can't remember how many time that quarrel with my mother (in my younger days). Lucky for me, my parent did introduce me to any 'suitable' candidates..otherwise ..the war should last longer than.
Once of these days got to see that girl for a coffee...poor girl. Not so much becoming a consultant or what. Its good to catch up too.
As aged pass through I do understand the parent's concern about having kids to settle down. Its a very sensitive issue to touch, have to handle with care...seriously. You just can't look at one side of each. It very much at times narrow down to custom and tradition.
I don't have many friends but it is more than handful of course. We might not be in touch everyday but we sure know whats happening around. Teddy told me the other day that one of our friend down south diagnose with anxiety. Teddy felt sad for being ignorance and rarely asked how her friends are doing. Just because we all are on FB..she felt she took for granted that everything is ok. She even felt that towards me.
Well, one thing for sure...if I am in trouble I shouted for help. Come what may, call me drama queen or whatever I don't care...to me is like am not alone here in this world. I need help means I need help..better be there. As for this friend of us, she is struggling to cure now.
I share with Teddy, am not surprised this comes to her at the end. Cause of her path from younger days were not address properly. She really has one hell of a bumpy journey, but life goes on. I do hope deeply that she would be able to make it through. I've told my dear Teddy as well, don't feel bad that much cause you never asked how your friends are doing. Lesson learned, ensure next time round be alert a bit.
To know more about this disorder click this link : http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001915/
Just received email from Dalia another friend of mine in Syria. I emailed her couple of weeks back. Concern about the situation there after watching the news. She is alright but worry as well since it will soon spread to the capital city. Even Internet connection is not that stable. Pray hard that all will be ok and things will get back to normal. If one really wants to know what peace means, travel to one of these stirring countries. Or rather take a trip to formal war country. I can only imagine yet the pain is right through, it gives sort chill on my spine.
Its 19.15pm...an hour to go and am home. Tomorrow just another day and off for two days. I teased Shan on whats my birthday present going to be. He remain sealed on it...oh well. Nothing else matter rather than having a good life, good health and be thankful that I am already living for 35 years of age.
Going back to my parent soon..homesick like mad already...I need to be home...home sweet home...
Health is not valued till sickness comes ~ Thomas Fuller
Down with terrible cough and flu. When I cough..felt my brain vibrates....sign of aging.
Had a good rest till am so fed up of it..I need more outing...but what can I do, health does not permit.
To date am still speaking through my nose, ain't gonna sit around and wait for it to cure. I just have to take care of myself a little and leave the rest to heal by itself. Today from morning till late evening I spend time scrubbing every corner of my house. Dispose what is unwanted and re-arrange my stuff to give in more aura and positiveness. I believe in that..once a while you got to change your way a bit...it makes a different. For me my home is my sanctuary. I hope I can have my own ...my very own sanctuary one day....how I wish at times I can correct back the passed....
Overall...I had a great week...great days...lunch with my boss Brian Ong with also fellow colleague ..plus my lovely Klone ~ Ms Joanna Oh. Then on Friday I volunteer to become a runner for one case, purchase sky bridge ticket for KLCC Skybridge...came down to KLCC early enough to have a big breakfast at Dome. Damm I miss it so much...it has been a while since I really pamper myself like this. Home cook sure can't compare..its just not the same taste. Filled up my tummy ...every bit of it. Then of to ques for the tickets.
Feedback, I must say the way these Skybridge tickets purchase and tour day are just ridiculous...silly and stupid ! They will let the crowd ques to purchase tickets for the day..till about 10.30am (from 7am mind you!)...then only the counter is open for advance purchase..which one has to purchase 3 days prior to viewing day. Why can't the advance purchase counter open up as early as 7am and let all those who wish to purchase in advance get the tickets? Just open a separate counter ....put high up the signboard such as
ADVANCE TICKET PURCHASE COUNTER.... there...isn't it easy ???
That's not the best part yet...after the waiting time then the advance purchase is finally open. The person there told me that for Sunday tickets, its already FINISHED only have for Tuesday. Hmmm my vain now is on standby ...ready to snap...then I of course politely asked him....how can it is finish so early when the ADVANCE purchase is not open till 10.30am ? He said, it could finish during the ques earlier when patrons ques to purchase ticket for the day. I was like....errrr....if its to purchase the ticket for today tour..how can you sell for advance purchased? We are waiting her like STUPID then ??? He saw my lioness claw ...then he asked me to approach the counter directly. Which in the end...I manage to purchase all the 10 tickets....AND THE WORLD IS SAFE !!!..daaaaaa
It was so screw up the system. I saw an elderly white couple...also waited like me and my colleague...to purchase the advance tickets.....
While on ques...a lady behind me approached.. to cut the ques because she need to purchase the ticket for today tour...have been waiting since 7am...I was like Hello Sista ! You wait! It is my ques now...I don't care if you have been waiting since 5am....WAIT !...
Being the giant high mighty of the country...still unable to handle things like this. I guess its very much stupid as dialing into the so call emergency line 999...try for yourself..and you see what I mean. I would be dead by the time help arrive.
Well..whatever it is..at times we can change much on the situation by we can change our attitude. The least am not fuming of anger and verbally abusive as I used to be. Tame down a lot...
Tomorrow will working and I have a wedding to attend. Punjabi wedding...its gonna be fun and nice..am sure of it.
Had a good rest till am so fed up of it..I need more outing...but what can I do, health does not permit.
To date am still speaking through my nose, ain't gonna sit around and wait for it to cure. I just have to take care of myself a little and leave the rest to heal by itself. Today from morning till late evening I spend time scrubbing every corner of my house. Dispose what is unwanted and re-arrange my stuff to give in more aura and positiveness. I believe in that..once a while you got to change your way a bit...it makes a different. For me my home is my sanctuary. I hope I can have my own ...my very own sanctuary one day....how I wish at times I can correct back the passed....
Overall...I had a great week...great days...lunch with my boss Brian Ong with also fellow colleague ..plus my lovely Klone ~ Ms Joanna Oh. Then on Friday I volunteer to become a runner for one case, purchase sky bridge ticket for KLCC Skybridge...came down to KLCC early enough to have a big breakfast at Dome. Damm I miss it so much...it has been a while since I really pamper myself like this. Home cook sure can't compare..its just not the same taste. Filled up my tummy ...every bit of it. Then of to ques for the tickets.
Feedback, I must say the way these Skybridge tickets purchase and tour day are just ridiculous...silly and stupid ! They will let the crowd ques to purchase tickets for the day..till about 10.30am (from 7am mind you!)...then only the counter is open for advance purchase..which one has to purchase 3 days prior to viewing day. Why can't the advance purchase counter open up as early as 7am and let all those who wish to purchase in advance get the tickets? Just open a separate counter ....put high up the signboard such as
ADVANCE TICKET PURCHASE COUNTER.... there...isn't it easy ???
That's not the best part yet...after the waiting time then the advance purchase is finally open. The person there told me that for Sunday tickets, its already FINISHED only have for Tuesday. Hmmm my vain now is on standby ...ready to snap...then I of course politely asked him....how can it is finish so early when the ADVANCE purchase is not open till 10.30am ? He said, it could finish during the ques earlier when patrons ques to purchase ticket for the day. I was like....errrr....if its to purchase the ticket for today tour..how can you sell for advance purchased? We are waiting her like STUPID then ??? He saw my lioness claw ...then he asked me to approach the counter directly. Which in the end...I manage to purchase all the 10 tickets....AND THE WORLD IS SAFE !!!..daaaaaa
It was so screw up the system. I saw an elderly white couple...also waited like me and my colleague...to purchase the advance tickets.....
While on ques...a lady behind me approached.. to cut the ques because she need to purchase the ticket for today tour...have been waiting since 7am...I was like Hello Sista ! You wait! It is my ques now...I don't care if you have been waiting since 5am....WAIT !...
Being the giant high mighty of the country...still unable to handle things like this. I guess its very much stupid as dialing into the so call emergency line 999...try for yourself..and you see what I mean. I would be dead by the time help arrive.
Well..whatever it is..at times we can change much on the situation by we can change our attitude. The least am not fuming of anger and verbally abusive as I used to be. Tame down a lot...
Tomorrow will working and I have a wedding to attend. Punjabi wedding...its gonna be fun and nice..am sure of it.
Thank you Nuffnag !
for the early birthday present ...I've got 4 complimentary movie passes...
Happy .. :)
Happy .. :)
I've been around the world....
And this is part of my world......
Gadget .....can actually safe lives
The Pot Luck..again.....fun days... Malaysia + Food = Good Friend
Journey To The West......
Zil & Me...we both come a long way..trust me..
Vibrant !
My beloved Kak Erma.... :)
We do not remember days...we remember moments...
Awesome outing and tiring week or rather month for me. My birthday is just around the corner....a friend of mine; his was on 3rd Of June. He did emphasize that he just hate it at times to celebrate birthday cause it really makes him feel older.
Well..for me honestly I never did have that thought. So what if we aged ? every human aged..the least I am grateful enough that I manage to live up to 35 years of my life ; good or bad. Even if I manage to crawl up to 70 its damm a bless..with good health of course. I mean..just take a look at those who days are numbered due to illness and disease. The doctor informed you that you only have 6 months to live and your age is just 10 years old..how about that ? 10 years only and you are dying already....and here we are being worried about getting old. Nonsense! Be grateful and be wise...age is just a number...that's all.
2nd Of June 2011. I had my first outing with fellow colleague at The Social in Bangsar. It was a great outing I must say....the 'true' color of each of us just pop up like popcorn...I am just happy to blend into the craziness... my team is already in that 3/4 character..with my boss leading it...he is just too fun to be with....an addiction I must say. We miss him terribly if he not around..days are not the same without him around. The dinner starts at 8.30pm. I've stayed up to 11pm plus then Shan fetch me home.
The next morning..my alarm went of at 5.30am...bargained till 7am then only I woke up...its a disaster just to wake up. I m not use anymore to stay up that late though. Resulting I am down with fever and sore throat now. Can't wait till Monday....I m off till Tuesday...really wanna sleep like Hachiko...
What's my wish this year...let see....well..can't tell....its a jinx ! one thing for sure..I will soar....
Well..for me honestly I never did have that thought. So what if we aged ? every human aged..the least I am grateful enough that I manage to live up to 35 years of my life ; good or bad. Even if I manage to crawl up to 70 its damm a bless..with good health of course. I mean..just take a look at those who days are numbered due to illness and disease. The doctor informed you that you only have 6 months to live and your age is just 10 years old..how about that ? 10 years only and you are dying already....and here we are being worried about getting old. Nonsense! Be grateful and be wise...age is just a number...that's all.
2nd Of June 2011. I had my first outing with fellow colleague at The Social in Bangsar. It was a great outing I must say....the 'true' color of each of us just pop up like popcorn...I am just happy to blend into the craziness... my team is already in that 3/4 character..with my boss leading it...he is just too fun to be with....an addiction I must say. We miss him terribly if he not around..days are not the same without him around. The dinner starts at 8.30pm. I've stayed up to 11pm plus then Shan fetch me home.
The next morning..my alarm went of at 5.30am...bargained till 7am then only I woke up...its a disaster just to wake up. I m not use anymore to stay up that late though. Resulting I am down with fever and sore throat now. Can't wait till Monday....I m off till Tuesday...really wanna sleep like Hachiko...
What's my wish this year...let see....well..can't tell....its a jinx ! one thing for sure..I will soar....
Sham and Win Ie ..
The Place
Win Ie & Samridhi
Mr Yunus (Our Director of Assistant) & ME !
Island and stream...
Sham and Walter.... :)
Me and ....well....Sethu... :) sugar & Spice.....
Jay & Erma... sweet
Sam and my beloved bozz..muah !
Walter.....so call bored...... :)
Show off...errr..lion or lioness ?
Dare ?
If you remain sincere in your interactions with others, you will naturally come to find yourself surrounded by good friends.
As the alarm went off at 5am this morning...all that I remember is ....Nothing ! super late this morning. There goes my full allowance for day. Am use to leave the house by 6am to catch the bus and train. This morning though is only 7.30am I reached to town, the sun is up ; that makes me feel more late than ever.
One thing for sure that irritate and annoy me to the max today was attitude of our people. Upon boarding a bus or train..I do not know what is it that makes these so called human ...stand and crowded that the door. Everyone just cramp up while there is so many space inside. Addition to it..the priority seat in the train. Don't dream that someone gonna get their ass up to give place for pregnant mom, elderly person or even disable..they just glued their ass to the seat and pretend to sleep. Though this attitude are not all the time..but one thing for sure it fit the scales of MAJORITY while only minor are courteous.
Life is good life is great...come what may ..walk tall and hurdle through it.Weeks passed with all sort of beautiful things happened. People come and go..lesson learned and new chapter open everyday.
Few weeks back, I was force to attend a Self-defense class conducted by our HR. Reluctantly I was...since lots of things to do on the alarm floor. But I still go ahead to attend, put aside the NO syndrome. Turned out the be...it was damm useful. Its like I have to swallow my own words and felt a little embarrass of myself for being such a withdraw earlier.
I had in mind these vivid image of some kungfu or defense skill, but it was rather more on prevention way before hand. Things around us and step that we can take to prevent such horrible things like rape, robbery or snatch to happen. It make me realize how alert one person must be. We never knew who is watching. Being a target of such horrific incident is not all alone about being sexy or beautiful. Anyone can be a victim.
How alert we are when we step out from the house right till we come back home.
Useful tools that we can use as basic security measure plus tools that we can purchase at DIY shop which are much much cheaper. I guess very basic rule is that, be alert of your surroundings. Stay guarded all the time of yourself. Its ok to be called snob or self-fish..that's the best self defense one person can do to themselves.
Our spoke person shared with us the statistics of crime involving women since 1980s. Its heartbreaking to see those cases including those high crime profile. Bottom line he said...anyone can be a victim. Always remember to stay alert and
Our spoke person is an independent activist. He gave talk and self defense training to all levels from schools to ministry department. At the end it was a great lesson.
I have been totally busy, juggling between shift and my personal life. Being wanting to go back ; visit my parent ...that ain't gonna happened till July I guess. Addition to it....I m starting night shift soon. 3rd of July to be precise. Happy with the progress am making here, how I wish that I have this right attitude from younger days...probably I am somewhere now..higher I mean.
Naaah.....if that happen most probably I would be less appreciative and I wouldn't love my life as this much now.
I told my dear lover over last weekend, we have to find time..sit down and planned our wedding soon. Time fly so fast yo !..That very night of Saturday we went out for clubbing...resulting leg, body and every where pain....I tired till today. Too old for this already nowadays....or rather am not keeping up with it (denial)...
19.30hrs now here....counting time to go home...am gonna sleep like a dog tomorrow. Have outing to attend with my colleague at Social in Bangsar. I decided to make the effort to go along as I m done sitting at home on my off days..time to spread the wing and fly again.
This month my shift is a bit hectic...3 days shift back to back with only one off day in between....hell of tired must be. A friend told me..I will be super exhausted as I have set in my mind that its gonna be tiring. Shan told me of that day when I tried to compare the hurdle of journey I went to get to work ...wrestle with bus and train while he only drive. It struck me ...I by right cannot compare..its personal preference...he has walk mile of hurdles way before me. I have sit in my comfort zone..flying sky high....take a ride at the back of taxi to everywhere...refuse to take a bit of hassle. Just because I have to struggle now..its not right for me to compare. Sorry for that.
I guess over these two years that I've develop to be appreciative about everything...I always end up putting my struggle now into everyone shoes. While the truth is...they come from the hard path ...and settle now in comfort zone...and me on the other hand...from comfort zone..failure to value it....and the rest is history...
Its a valuable lesson...and I am taking every step to the fullest.
I remove my fear... I remove my reluctant...I remove my NO....put all these into where it belongs and that is when it comes to my SAFETY....if its a new positive thing that comes along....BRING IT ON !!!....and the result is AWESOME !!!!!
One thing for sure that irritate and annoy me to the max today was attitude of our people. Upon boarding a bus or train..I do not know what is it that makes these so called human ...stand and crowded that the door. Everyone just cramp up while there is so many space inside. Addition to it..the priority seat in the train. Don't dream that someone gonna get their ass up to give place for pregnant mom, elderly person or even disable..they just glued their ass to the seat and pretend to sleep. Though this attitude are not all the time..but one thing for sure it fit the scales of MAJORITY while only minor are courteous.
Life is good life is great...come what may ..walk tall and hurdle through it.Weeks passed with all sort of beautiful things happened. People come and go..lesson learned and new chapter open everyday.
Few weeks back, I was force to attend a Self-defense class conducted by our HR. Reluctantly I was...since lots of things to do on the alarm floor. But I still go ahead to attend, put aside the NO syndrome. Turned out the be...it was damm useful. Its like I have to swallow my own words and felt a little embarrass of myself for being such a withdraw earlier.
I had in mind these vivid image of some kungfu or defense skill, but it was rather more on prevention way before hand. Things around us and step that we can take to prevent such horrible things like rape, robbery or snatch to happen. It make me realize how alert one person must be. We never knew who is watching. Being a target of such horrific incident is not all alone about being sexy or beautiful. Anyone can be a victim.
How alert we are when we step out from the house right till we come back home.
Useful tools that we can use as basic security measure plus tools that we can purchase at DIY shop which are much much cheaper. I guess very basic rule is that, be alert of your surroundings. Stay guarded all the time of yourself. Its ok to be called snob or self-fish..that's the best self defense one person can do to themselves.
Our spoke person shared with us the statistics of crime involving women since 1980s. Its heartbreaking to see those cases including those high crime profile. Bottom line he said...anyone can be a victim. Always remember to stay alert and
Our spoke person is an independent activist. He gave talk and self defense training to all levels from schools to ministry department. At the end it was a great lesson.
I have been totally busy, juggling between shift and my personal life. Being wanting to go back ; visit my parent ...that ain't gonna happened till July I guess. Addition to it....I m starting night shift soon. 3rd of July to be precise. Happy with the progress am making here, how I wish that I have this right attitude from younger days...probably I am somewhere now..higher I mean.
Naaah.....if that happen most probably I would be less appreciative and I wouldn't love my life as this much now.
I told my dear lover over last weekend, we have to find time..sit down and planned our wedding soon. Time fly so fast yo !..That very night of Saturday we went out for clubbing...resulting leg, body and every where pain....I tired till today. Too old for this already nowadays....or rather am not keeping up with it (denial)...
19.30hrs now here....counting time to go home...am gonna sleep like a dog tomorrow. Have outing to attend with my colleague at Social in Bangsar. I decided to make the effort to go along as I m done sitting at home on my off days..time to spread the wing and fly again.
This month my shift is a bit hectic...3 days shift back to back with only one off day in between....hell of tired must be. A friend told me..I will be super exhausted as I have set in my mind that its gonna be tiring. Shan told me of that day when I tried to compare the hurdle of journey I went to get to work ...wrestle with bus and train while he only drive. It struck me ...I by right cannot compare..its personal preference...he has walk mile of hurdles way before me. I have sit in my comfort zone..flying sky high....take a ride at the back of taxi to everywhere...refuse to take a bit of hassle. Just because I have to struggle now..its not right for me to compare. Sorry for that.
I guess over these two years that I've develop to be appreciative about everything...I always end up putting my struggle now into everyone shoes. While the truth is...they come from the hard path ...and settle now in comfort zone...and me on the other hand...from comfort zone..failure to value it....and the rest is history...
Its a valuable lesson...and I am taking every step to the fullest.
I remove my fear... I remove my reluctant...I remove my NO....put all these into where it belongs and that is when it comes to my SAFETY....if its a new positive thing that comes along....BRING IT ON !!!....and the result is AWESOME !!!!!
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