I am fully swing night shift after come back from long holiday. Went back home to my parent. My last trip was during my cousin's funeral. Thereafter only a phone call to my parent.
It is such a wonderful feeling to be home. All of us came back as well. Both my sisters flew down from KL. I took coach home on Wednesday, Shan tailed along by Friday. So is the rest of them ; 3 of my sisters.
My journey was a huge challenge in away. Coach did not arrive on time though it is schedule to leave 0830am. By 0900am the ticket counter staff informed us to board the double Decker coach that will leave by 0930am. I am so reluctant. I hate that double Decker coach.
0915am our coach finally arrive only to find out that it is a substitute coach. The executive could not make it. Driver was on MC or something. The replacement coach was shabby, old and stinky. Felt riding a fish market. I got my single seat...smelly and curtain dangle all over. I am holding a patience as a Saint by then.
Swear to God I am so pulling the RCP attitude. Shan reminded me, just hang in there. Things happen for a reason. Don't spoil your mood over things you cannot control. Just sit back, relax and think bright ahead that you are going home.
Settled, I changed my seat..put on some music and doze off for rest of journey. Ride home was easy then.
Upon arrival my school friend pick me up...ex-bf to be exact. 20 years I did not see him. We went for lunch. Dad call me once to check where am I. He send me home. Invited him in for a cuppa. Chat a bit with my parent and we continue to share lots of stories in between.
While on the way, I spoke to Zul. Told him I am coming home today. Hope to see him later as well. He came the same night. I was so delighted and happy. 20 years apart as well. He is a changed man. Life has really took him for a ride. He is married to far relative from my mom side. Hurmm...small world then.
One thing strange about this guy now, he seek forgiveness from everyone in our group. I mean, it is ok to certain extend by my heart sense there is more to it than just saying sorry. I m going to find that out soon.
Next in the list was another buddy of mine - Rajisman Ali. Little that I know, someone felt hurt by my photo updates. Suhaimi Rashid was so upset that I had no intention of meeting up with him. He was the one who found me via Hafizd and yet I did not acknowledge it at all. Oh my..oh my. Apologize deeply,..how inconsiderate I am. Too indulge into these three that I forgot him. We met the next day for a tea.
Friday was the arrival of my sweetheart and rest of the princess. My 2nd sister arrived on last flight from KL. Her luggage did not arrived. That has caused lot of inconvenient for her. All her baby stuff is inside the luggage. Filed report and seek assistance from my office. Lucky it arrives the next day. They came to deliver it.
Saturday, late afternoon I went to Kuantan for our school reunion. It was held at a bowling center. Met both of my school mate for the first time too in 20 years. Nina and Elly Halim.
Met up with rest of the team at the bowling center. It was a wonderful moment and finally I met Rajisman Ali. It was almost tearfully. Quick to pull me aside, we had a heart to heart chat. I miss him so. He said, 20 years he search for me. So many tales and stories. We are parted into our own path, 20 years vanish in the thin air.
Back to the group....tournament begin. I didn't join. My wrist injury prevent it. We had so much fun. This group of mine nothing literally changed. Married with kids ...but still kid at heart. We laugh so hard at each other..teased so hard. I had to leave by 0800pm. Could not join the dinner.
Two of my primary school friends came over for dinner to see me. I must be so absent minded that I forgotten, I m going home. They got a bit upset. Make up with them on Monday before me and Shan depart home. These two Effa and Azlina is a different level of people. With them I can share more of what I do for a living. Leveling with them is easier. Current affairs or even global revolving matters can be a good topic to talk about.
While the rest is merely for fun and hell break lose all the time. One of my friend said, hearing the tales of how funny and nonsense my school batch is...one can go cuckoo! Now you know..
Sunday was a lazy day. Went out late evening to meet up with another batch. These boys...nothing can ever changed them. Same old teasing attitude.
Reality check came soon after. Back to work...busy day. Sleeping like a dog...work and juggle my time to find a quality living.
Hit with a sad news. My manager is leaving. He is going back to music industry. Few of other colleague left.
Suddenly I felt so empty. My manager might be many things. He is not the superb manager but we get along well. Every time if I need to throw my tantrums over job issue, he will be the one to have to listen. Comfort zone...he is gone now.
With so many empty desk around the office, I felt strongly it is time for me to make a move too. I am trying hard for a better opportunity. Nothing positive came by yet. Hopefully soon.
Before I leave for my long holiday, attended my friend's sister engagement. Held at one Brahmin Hall Asst. In Jalan Ipoh. When me and Shan arrives its almost over, guest are having dinner. It catches my eyes that I saw my friend's father standing at the corner of the hall entrance....I sensed already something is not quite right.
Went straight in...say hi to the happy couple..took few photos. Met his mom and she quick to pull my hand aside...there was some turbulence earlier caused by her husband..well that explained it. I told her to calm down and hold their horses. Let the ceremony completed and the rest we settle outside. She seems very upset and annoyed by what happened.
I did not see my friend anywhere so me and Shan decided to fill our tummy first. Then I saw my friend..he was about to marched after his father whom keep causing trouble...his mom grab him then..
I said hi and calmed him down....not even second after a huge argument broke outside the temple. War of words....I walk to Shan whom is about to finish his meal...told him what happen. I said we better leave...its getting to complicated and it breaks my heart to witness this. He agreed...I went in to bid farewell to the couple. My message to her is...take care and hold your patience..no matter what. Puzzled...she said ok. The hall music is loud enough to shield the embarrassment outside.
Both of us make our way....feeling very disturb. Personally I knew this thing will happen...I have been in that family for almost 10 years. Its very delicate and complicated matters. Especially when it comes to family issue. It is a known problem.
Oldies can be beyond reason at times. They brought us up with morals, value and religiously manner. As they are getting old..they can be beyond help. We learned over the years...they can be a person that we should not look up for but rather a living example that we shall not end up as such. For some...they are lucky enough to have parents as role model.
I make my way to my God mother's house. Dear Donny is celebrating his birthday. Full house..everyone is there. We got together famously...chat..drink and cake cutting. Spend time to chat with almost all of them.
This family has been in my life for almost 7 years now...like every other family including mine..we are broken in some way but fast to mend it...so no matter what we stick together with all those scars and wounds. That what makes us stronger. There were days we clawed each other...of the many that we hug each other.
This pet brother of mine is the black sheep of the family. Big time trouble maker. Not much progress since. He live a day at a time...future plan..zero. Junkie in way..bottles his best friends. He has a heart of gold..only if his path is correctly set. A lawyer or at least a pilot he is I can say.
Despite the celebration..I went home with a huge hole in my heart. Reached home at 1am..showered and sleep.
One may enjoy being connected vis media social..others might be in person..while some spend time travelling around the world...no matter what we have our own way to stay connected..and finding purpose of living. Turbulence..stormy days came and go...make do with what we have the most.
This year of 2013, there has been too many departure. It sadden me to the level of numb. Today my dear colleague father passed away. I came in early for my shift to fill in.
I am so beyond bad news now. Upon hearing the lost ...be it sudden or numbered days...I don't even know how to react anymore....
When I said I am so so loved...it is also a mirror to those around me. You only get back what you give...simple! This love and being loved works both ways. Love and respect is earned...it will have to start internally..then only the rest fall into places.
Our attitude says a lot about things that happen in our life. If you can't find humor in what life throws at you then you have not reach the happiness level yet...be sad when you need to, be happy when you should...
Nobody is perfect....live life to the fullest. Life is really really so short.
