Talent is God given. Be humble. Fame is man-given. Be grateful. Conceit is self-given. Be careful.
John Wooden
With few more minutes into 4am, I just took a relief from work load. Still plenty to do at this wee hour. Rest my mind for a while. I guess it has become a habit lately that I only able to upload this blog during night shift.
It is not that I am running out of ideas nor things to say....just the timing during the day often clashed with something arise. The usual issue is I am too exhausted from the day to day job. Rest and run errand...that's it! I am at times racing against the sun.
Ever since I came back from that long medical leave, I am still adjusting myself into all those that once my daily routine. There are times I find it a bit hard to stand at the same momentum as I used to be before. The funny things is, certain things I am over the momentum and certain things I am a bit left behind. My memory fails me often too...apart from the hormone imbalance...I am losing hair like chemo still. It does not matter to me anymore...come what may. I will get my balance back.
Just taking one step at a time. It is not easy too. I have no answer to certain hick-up that happen as I cruise along. Be it work wise or daily day to day. I find myself a bit lost at times. Too many things in line with too little time.
The only gateway that I find to ease my stormy heart is prayers. Accept the challenge and obstacle with brave heart and move on from there. It is a bit disappointed at times when things that used to be your expertise become a challenge.
I am very reluctant to consume any medicines, unless the pain is unbearable then only I will take it. If not, I will rather stand it. Too much medication for the past two years. Even with this hormone imbalance, the doctor wanted to give hormone tablets to help regulate back whatever that has gone berserk in my system.
Well the news is, I have been on hormone pill ever since my medical condition. To be on it again...its like inviting that 'C' cell to populate faster. So, just bear with it and patience....
A few days ago, I went to visit my spiritual leader. He is doing ok. Health is also an issue for him apart from financial matters. As a healer and riding on the correct path of living, the challenge and obstacle does come to a point of unbearable. Business is slow for him. I told him that both me and Shan 'shaved' clean as well as the month end. Nothing extra nor affordable to spare. Just enough to sustain.
We chatted heartily too. Shared some stories from the past list of friends that we encounter. Gotten to know a few shocking incident too. People can really do anything in the name of dollar and cent. We just glad that these type of people are not in our path anymore.
Again, we don't have much grumble on this matter. Rather be grateful of what we have than what we don't have. Still there is food on the table and we manage to complete the circle of life without much hassle. The only problem is ...we only wish the financial balance either stay balance or increase.
The more we have the greater our commitment is. Life expand as we earned more and more.
My cast of prayers is for God to compensate all good things from all bad things. Abundance of blessing on all HIS giving rather than begging from others.
This month is my birth month. Few more years I am ending my 3 series era and venturing into the big 4. Age is just a number. Life goes on...with 20 years to retirement age I m sure I can make it. If however death cast upon, my only regret is, not doing enough to live to the fullest.
Moving forward, I want to take a step to reduce the sin of my tongue. I read an article about how to ease a stormy heart and why we often have such feeling. It is said that, we need to be mindful of our small little thoughts, words and actions that may seems to be harmless but still consider a sin in God's eyes. Its like an eye opener in a way. How little we thought about our daily doing. Often we focus on the bigger picture of evil and wrong doing. Small little devilish act does not take into consideration.
So much so on the spiritual matters. Most important is, be grateful of what we have. Life has changed me so much till what I am today. What used to matters ...does not matter anymore.
Forgive and let go....even if you are hurt the most. Time will heal it. Learned the lesson from it. There are something that money just cannot buy. Things like manners, attitude and integrity.
Take life as it goes. I will move on for sure if opportunity swing by. I miss travelling very much!
