A year later... part II

Friday 9th December 2016...I welcome a new baby into the family. We got our hands full since Monday last week. Run up and down ..babysit my niece, packing for my sis confinement later..all sort.Thankfully everything went smoothly. Name wise...still figuring it out.

In between anxiously waiting for the baby arrival, my immediate manager her mom passed away peacefully. She fell ill for almost a year already. Me and the team did went to the funeral parlor to pay last respect. Everything was done and settle over the weekend too. She is back to work on Thursday. Staying at home also nothing much can be done.

That is the problem about losing our love ones. Life goes on yes, but things will never be the same. Our routine changed...we will never see that person again. Everything has to be re-adjusted. It will take a long time and sometime a life time too. A friend of mine once tell..it took her years and years to be able to let go after her father's passing.

Going to work in December...everyday feel like 31st Dec. Office is half empty, everyone is going on leave. Me on the other hand enjoying my office hour job.

We recently had Secret Santa give exchange. Everyone is so excited yet worried when our HR put give value not more than RM20. Seriously ? What to buy on that amount ? I guess what is small to me is big to others. I have to respect that. I got to be secret santa for one of my lunch buddies, I bought her Body Shop shower cream gift set.... and my CEO is my secret santa... he gave me Body Shop shower cream. It is like "Body Shop" day..get what I give kinda of situation.

Ever since I started working, this Secret Santa games has been a tradition in every company that I worked with. Mind you the gift can be very 'trashy' or 'shitty'. Not every human being has that sincerity in giving. I remember seeing gifts like nail clipper, key chain... solar flower decoration, stack of plastic container... even worst the gift is a 'free gift' promotion items. It is so low man!

People say it is the thought that matters... yes of course and it works both ways. The giver too must have sincere and good thoughts to begin with. You want something nice ..yet not wanting to give. Anyway all done is done..we proceed to have dinner at Hilton Sentral.

Food was delicious and I just realize I am not that good in buffet as I used to be. On the way home I throw out almost everything. I guess it was the food combination..something just went wrong somewhere. Arrived home, shower and slept off. Thankfully it ended there.

The rest of the week went smoothly ..with a litle bumpy rides here and there. A colleauge of mine almost got con by a scam. She received message about her credit card being charged amount xxxx. Please call this number if you did not perform this transactions. She does not have any credit card with this particular back. Being a good Samaritans, she call the number and spoke to the 'officer' of the bank. She was told that her data has been compromised. It then lead to a report to so call 'Bank Negara'.

One thing trigger her was the 'officer' from Bank Negara cannot converse in English properly. The next day she sat for about an hour or so with that bank negara officer and when the life cut off...again she said very troublesome to speak to this guy. Cannot speak English. Then my other colleague was saying it cannot be ..because bank negara officer speak efficient English.

I quickly google up the Bank Negara Helplink and passed to her. Just to check and confirm if the officer really work there. Then she got another call and she asked me to check with BNM.

When I make a call to BNM, the officer calmly said it is a scam. The sms was from a scammer, number appear is a scam number. BNM never did conduct or received report via phone. When it comes to investigation on fraud and scam...that is Police job..not theirs.

I walk up to my colleague and signal her to cut the call. This incident left us speechless. I mean we knew scam like this exist. Seeing warns by bank and BNM itself too many to count for. Little that we knew it will hit our own face one day. Lucky my colleague never share any information like IC copy and stuff.

Last weekend ... another chapter begin in my life. Sunday morning I went out to nearby cash & carry for some groceries shopping. Upon returning home as our car enter the condo compound, I saw a black cat sat in between the fence...there was a ginger cat busy clawing him.. territorial. I did not leave house thereafter. Then around 10pm, my other half said ..he saw the cat still at same place when he return home from shaving. I was like what ???... oh my.

Immediately I put on my jacket and drag him along to the fence location again.  My fear is the car is injured, paralyzed..broken bones. To my surprise the cat still there at that hour. Late evening it rains ..lucky was only a for a short while. When we walk up to him..it did not run just I saw him shivering in fear. Quickly scoop him up and wrap with my jacket.

I told my other half to march home on the double, fetch one of the cat carrier. I walk slowly. It is a male..black color about 6 7 months old. He got cut at his nose and lower lips. I believe he was tossed out from a car. How cruel human can be. Skin and bone thin also.

Took him home and take a good look in case there is other injury. Thankfully none. He is so scared and refuse to drink or eat. I left him inside our smallest room with food and water. An hour later, he is more settle and ate all the food. That night..was a nightmare..he woke up like 3 4 times. Very restless.

I have not decided then whether to keep him or not. Earlier I wanted to adopt a cat from my colleague. My two sons is very very territorial. I fear for that cat's life. Well.... here I am got another one in hand.

Monday came.. I cannot concentrate at work at all. Did the best I could and rushed home. That night I gave soft introduction to my two sons. Hell break loose a bit but it was alright.

Early morning on Tuesday ..power trip at my condo. I cannot sleep whole thereafter. Migraine started by the time power came back. I can tolerate not enough sleep but ..headache ..that is another story.

to be continue...








A year later..... part I

Whenever and where ever….I got something to pour. Looking back at the last update on this blog goodness gracious…last year!!.. I talked about blogging again one too many times until I stop because why bother saying things when you know it will never happen.

A friend of mine said…it will come. Just matter of time. Well, this is it I guess. December 2016. Three weeks into the New Year.

I can't recall much 2015...all I know is my childhood school friend Hafidz Helmi passed away few days before 2016. Blood cancer. He is one of the most wonderful kind hearted person I ever know. 

How was 2016 for me… a very exciting year of coursed. I finally manage to move forward from shift work into normal office hour job. It was a very difficult decision to make. After 5 years routine, to move on I felt a bit scared. Fear of the uncertainty,in case anything happen I will end up jobless.

After much thinking I decided to take the offer. I will be working from home. It is a USA based company – Zoom Video Comm Inc. Malaysia is just a support team. Who doesn’t want to be at home..work and get huge pay check. My work starts at 6am to 2pm from Monday to Friday.

I left in January 2016. When I tender my resignation.. the weight just lift up from my shoulder. The feeling that you finally moving to something else…it was a huge relief. My boss asked to reconsider which I did not of course. Subsequent to my resignation, another two colleague in same senior position also resigned. It is not something to be proud off but I felt all of us had enough.

It was a good learning ground. I learned so many things especially when it comes to dealing with human. I do believe till today …if the government want to continue with National Service, please include a programme to be a customer service, volunteer, animal lover..etc.. It will sure make our young generation a better human with integrity plus respect.

I have to served two months’ notice. I thought then it will be the longest two months of my life.  When the final day came I was on night shift schedule. It hit me then… when I woke up at 3pm that day I realize it is my last routine… last routine for everything..after nice shower and pray I head out to the office. Stop by for a meal. My shift starts at 8pm. The night went smooth too. Bid farewell to my team and that was it! The end of five years… beginning of new episode.

My farewell was a teary one. The team did a note book with tons of well wishes. I was so touched. Each of my colleague words is very personal. All I can say is I am so loved and cherished.
That new job working from home did not last long. The company decided to have an office. Above all places they chose Cyberjaya.  I manage to work from home till mid-April. Travelling up and down was a big issue.

Honestly, with such a small support team no one in clear state of mind will open office in Cyberjaya. Unless your company wanted MSC status or huge enough like customer service etc… sigh!I had some family matters to attend as well, since distance was a huge challenged and I decided to scout for another job.

A close friend told me to stay and walk through the obstacle. Face the challenge. Well, easier for him to say. I told him off that I am the kind of person who will look at all angles. Weight the situation carefully. Caused and consequences…after effect and stuff. I am far from being a quitter. He is not the one who looks into my cat’s eye and see how lonely they were… he is not the one who felt the house is empty without my presence… why bother battle when finding solutions is easier. Pick your battle so you will win on the long run.

Like an answered prayer I got opportunity to work in KL back. Working with the government this time, a whole new episode …again. This job is a totally brand new chapter in everything for me. I had to delete my Facebook account and open new ones. Too much political comments back then. Well… who doesn’t right. Especially when the situation is so obvious.

Then I learned a very great lesson for not becoming one of the keyboard warriors. Why not look at things in the different perspective.  What is your contributions to the world ? To your amily…friends, country.. lashing out frustration indeed easy..but does that make you a better person ? Things will not change overnight but we can make a different overnight…

During my working period with that US company…I realized that we are so far behind in this world. The huge world out there already move forward and faster… what we are now indulging to …its like sooooo yesterday for them..

Nonetheless, I did enjoy my tenure and meet wonderful people too. For that short period of time, my team still did a farewell. Cupcakes with cat’s decorations…so so sweet of them.
In this new company we have a small team here and all senior level in working experience. I am enjoying every moment now. Weekends…public holiday and annual leave. Meet new people again… in short period of time I have so many new faces in my life.

I do however still have that flash back moments. Especially weekends at 3pm. It is the time I usually wake up and get ready for night shift work. Like PTSD…

I’ve waited for opportunity to come..I mean in changing my job. Every time that I visited my parent, they are getting older by the day. Here I am still busy with work and chasing I am not sure what. So I say to HIM that I want to spend time with my parent. Give me that chance to be at their service before it is too late.  As we get older, we tend to realize how important parent is. Some may not be so lucky to have them.

~ Every phase of your lives demand a new you ~

To be continued….