Where to begin ...I always mentioned how time passed like a whirlwind Flew across our faces while we are busy with life. Seems that we are always rushing somewhere and making time for something. By the end of the day still that 24 hours just not enough. A year just end like monthly thing. Imagine how that 24 hours just passed like a snap.
I believe this feeling of 24 hours a day is not sufficient does not apply to everyone. There are still think its a long day to end. It depend on how well you plan your time ahead. To be honest, until end of October 2011, I know where and what am I to do. It helps a lot when you plan you time and days ahead. Keep you focus and it does sharpen ones mind too. My memory often fail me, this is how I train to make sure I do not slip on things or event too often.
Our work schedule are pretty tight this time around. Not enough staff to rotate, thus our off days are just barely enough for us to rest ourselves. No more luxury to have more than 48 hours off days except of one or two occasions per schedule. Am not complaining. Its a team effort after all. Five fingers are not the same, let alone dealing with human which is known at times to have zero tolerance of others. We are trying our level best to balance it up. Help is always around and hope in time to come we are back in our comfort zone of plentiful play time.
My second sister gave birth to beautiful baby girl. Both mom and baby are doing fine. My mother said, this grand daughter of her are very polite and calm. Cried a little, move a little and very gentle in her own way. Unlike my nephew, every time he cried our house get earthquake on certain magnitude. He is after all a boy..I guess that's what boys do. Loud and clear, this one especially. My mother now have to juggle between these two. Taking care of my sister for post natal period. My nephew already 1 year and half, he is more independent and behave. Smart and genius. Kids nowadays are super fast in mind development. Now everyone awaits my turn. Its fun and nice to have my family which came over to visit my second sister. Made me missed home than ever.
Got to plan my holiday leave. Recently I accompanied my friend for USA Visa application interview. Ever since 911, the Americans need to know every detail of who and who entering their soil. Well its their right to do so. To speak, my friend fail the interview..not because he look like Bin Laden..he is Indian by the way. Can't help to laugh and make fun of it...he failed ? I can't believe it either. I do believe he was not being asked fairly. He did go online of US Green Card lottery which like seven years ago..for fun sake. Little that he knew it is all recorded and its in their database. I told him, second round the interview..if they asked you why you failed the last time. Just said because you don't have memory of an elephant.
Its not a big deal for him, but it did made us puzzle and ponder for a while. He kind of reluctant to travel to States this time but still to fail that Visa interview is unexpected. For me, I am reluctant to go yes, but I still want to passed that interview...it kind of ridiculous. Hope he gets in second time round. Its fun teasing him.
Envy him at times, ever since from WDC he flew around the world work wise. Then when I myself taste that work related travelling..me no like. It just tire you at some point. I just hate the waiting hours for flight. Nonetheless now I miss travelling...this time it has to be holiday related.
I do feel like a tabby, who nowadays likes to sit on warm cosy chair..rain or shine.
Woke up late this morning. Late night, spend time cleaning my sanctuary. Then sit around and catch up with movies. I had a good sleep overall.
While having my brunch, said hi to an old friend. Regret I did that. This one still have that love/heart issue which I thought she is now healing herself and moved one. Little that I know it just get worst. Not wanting to waste my time. I just share with her my thought at a minimal tune. She told me that I don't understand her situation..she tried and she just can't get over it. I shook my head in despair.
Laugh to myself a bit,......geez...if I don't understand, how is that possible I can climb up to this level now where Love/Heart is just part of life. How on earth that I now feel that I cannot related any sad love song to myself anymore cause I felt stupid. How did I manage to put myself as priority above all and how in the blue that I love myself so much that I am hunger for greater challenge as this victory throw bore me big time.
She is seeking an answer of why she is rejected while others can live happily with their love one. My eye brow raised....smile and said to myself.. am not gonna waste my time answering this lame question.
I am more worry that I can't give my best to myself that I do feel am not doing enough to nurture this soul of mine. We have only one body and one soul. It is not like there are spare parts sold out there.
At that point of time, I thought enough is enough. You cannot fill a cup which is already full. That's the reason we always have to see our cup half full. So there are room for improvement and room of being silly from time to time. It just balance up.
Be light by checking and changing at the same time. When something goes wrong, check if you are able to find your own weakness in that situation. Also after finding that weakness in yourself, check if you are getting disheartened. If you only check, but do nothing to change yourself you will find yourself becoming heavy. As soon as you find a weakness, make sure you make out a plan for yourself so that you can bring about the necessary changes immediately to overcome that weakness. In this way you will be able to remain light even when you find your weakness.
Watch how many things you do during the day are dependent on how you imagine the other sees you: your husband, your friend, your child, your cousin, your aunt, your boss, the secretary or whoever. You imagine how they are going to look at you and, as a result, you mould yourself accordingly. If you depend on the look of the other, inwardly you will always feel fear. You want to please the other so that they continue to see you as you want. Because of the dependence that we have on the other to appreciate us, value us and not to reject us, we want to please them. If, in spite of doing everything possible, they do not appreciate us or are not happy, how do we feel? Cheated.
After having done everything out of wanting to please them! Inside, you want to please them because you want them to keep on loving you, or you don't want them to sack you from your job, or you are afraid of being different or not being accepted. That kind of dependency takes us away from our true authenticity. If you look at yourself well, in the end, others will look at you well and the one who does not look at you well will perhaps teach you something, but your value and self-esteem do not depend on the look of the other. In this state, you are open because you trust yourself and you have personal security.
Instead of thinking of the situation, think of your own stage. When you find yourself questioning the things that are happening in your life, ask yourself if your own stage is good. The situation might be bad, but check if your own stage is good and if you have the power to face the situation. The reason for losing the stage in a negative situation is because of negative thoughts. In order to finish such negative thoughts, remind yourself that you are learning from the things that are happening so that you can improve your own stage.
It’s extremely rare to find a successful person who whines, complains, and frets about his circumstances. This is despite the fact that he may have overcome great obstacles to achieve his level of success. On the other hand, it’s extremely common for struggling individuals to continually blame their circumstances for their lack of joy and happiness.
The real question is: what came first – the attitude or the success? The answer, in virtually all cases, is that the winning, positive attitude came first, followed by a lifetime of success.
All it takes is a simple decision; the decision to stop yourself from falling into the habit of complaining about your circumstances. At first it may be difficult – even funny – to observe how often you complain.
Habits can be hard to break. But in this case, it’s well worth the effort. As an excuse of complaint comes to mind, gently shoo it away. Don’t worry about it too much. You’ll quickly get used to the nicer feelings that come from a life without complaints.
The only people who find what they are looking for in life are the fault finders. ~Foster's Law
Second shift. Did not sleep even a minute. I felt that my eyes has two hanging sand bag just keep pulling in down but sadly unable to doze of at all. My fingers still typing and source for information on all cases in hand now. I collected three more cases. In short my two colleagues on day shift (coming in another 4 hours time) will 'die' standing or rather boiled.
13 hours of our shift time is not enough to handle all cases if the volume are high. At times cases are not that much but tedious enough to glue our butt on it through out the day. Especially if we faced or dealt with human that half a brain but posses as though he or she knows everything. There are human in this world who are ignorance enough, shallow knowledge but act as thought as they are Albert Einstein and we are just Frankenstein.
I remember a dialogue from ICE Age 3 - Dawn of Dinosaur. Manny the Mammoth quoted that 'We all should have our brain check once a while'. Which is true.
At this wee hour in the morning, still I received phone call from unrelated matter absolutely. Ever since I dived myself into 'Customer' communication line, I turned into somewhat an alert person. Think twice before I want to dial a number for enquiry. Most of call center nowadays are out sourced services. Meaning to say they hire third party to handle their product. To consumer, they do not know this ..just dial and the one who answer the call must have enough knowledge to be a problem solver.
Ignorantly, still got human who just press any number right away; not even bother to listen to the option provided. Resulting, wrong department. We as the customer service first of all have to apologize to the caller because unable to provide the information and seek permission to transfer the caller to the correct department. If we are lucky, the caller agree at one go...if not..guess what we got scolded because we are wasting his/her time. Come to think about it, you in the first place coconut enough not to listen carefully. Blame on us just because its only voice and not face to face.
If counter service, another story. The person's face behind the counter will either be as fierce as lioness with cubs or sulking face. We the end user have to be at their mercy to get what we want.
Its all about attitude and mentality. Million fish in the ocean, rainbow like or toxic spilled....still is a huge world out there. Gazillion character.
While on the way to work today, I usually took public transport cause its convenient and cheaper. Plus traffic can be horrendous. Being a Malaysian, boarding public transport in Kuala Lumpur can be quiet an 'international' experience. You can either be in Jakarta, Dhaka or Islamabad. Immigrant are flooding everywhere. A friend of mine commented if in NYC how does it go then . I said, thats even major global circulation. You can travel from Rome to Mexico or Dubai.
Now when I look at my surrounding, I felt like Pauline Hanson (google it up if you do not know who she is).
We the locals have to squeeze ourselves among them.
Its 5am and am dam sleepy. Friday will be our company annual dinner. I need to go and get the masquerade.
Dev Anand called me up yesterday morning. He will be leaving to US soon. Better come back and see me Dev san. Who knows if death do us a apart...I see you in Hell next to Michael Jackson. If you can't find me, look for Bob Marley. I should be there...reggae! miahahahahaa
I don't like to commit myself about heaven and hell - you see, I have friends in both places.
Mark Twain
13 hours of our shift time is not enough to handle all cases if the volume are high. At times cases are not that much but tedious enough to glue our butt on it through out the day. Especially if we faced or dealt with human that half a brain but posses as though he or she knows everything. There are human in this world who are ignorance enough, shallow knowledge but act as thought as they are Albert Einstein and we are just Frankenstein.
I remember a dialogue from ICE Age 3 - Dawn of Dinosaur. Manny the Mammoth quoted that 'We all should have our brain check once a while'. Which is true.
At this wee hour in the morning, still I received phone call from unrelated matter absolutely. Ever since I dived myself into 'Customer' communication line, I turned into somewhat an alert person. Think twice before I want to dial a number for enquiry. Most of call center nowadays are out sourced services. Meaning to say they hire third party to handle their product. To consumer, they do not know this ..just dial and the one who answer the call must have enough knowledge to be a problem solver.
Ignorantly, still got human who just press any number right away; not even bother to listen to the option provided. Resulting, wrong department. We as the customer service first of all have to apologize to the caller because unable to provide the information and seek permission to transfer the caller to the correct department. If we are lucky, the caller agree at one go...if not..guess what we got scolded because we are wasting his/her time. Come to think about it, you in the first place coconut enough not to listen carefully. Blame on us just because its only voice and not face to face.
If counter service, another story. The person's face behind the counter will either be as fierce as lioness with cubs or sulking face. We the end user have to be at their mercy to get what we want.
Its all about attitude and mentality. Million fish in the ocean, rainbow like or toxic spilled....still is a huge world out there. Gazillion character.
While on the way to work today, I usually took public transport cause its convenient and cheaper. Plus traffic can be horrendous. Being a Malaysian, boarding public transport in Kuala Lumpur can be quiet an 'international' experience. You can either be in Jakarta, Dhaka or Islamabad. Immigrant are flooding everywhere. A friend of mine commented if in NYC how does it go then . I said, thats even major global circulation. You can travel from Rome to Mexico or Dubai.
Now when I look at my surrounding, I felt like Pauline Hanson (google it up if you do not know who she is).
We the locals have to squeeze ourselves among them.
Its 5am and am dam sleepy. Friday will be our company annual dinner. I need to go and get the masquerade.
Dev Anand called me up yesterday morning. He will be leaving to US soon. Better come back and see me Dev san. Who knows if death do us a apart...I see you in Hell next to Michael Jackson. If you can't find me, look for Bob Marley. I should be there...reggae! miahahahahaa
I don't like to commit myself about heaven and hell - you see, I have friends in both places.
Mark Twain
“One's past is what one is. It is the only way by which people should be judged.” ~ Oscar Wilder
Spent sometimes browsing over Facebook. Peeped into something that I should not even take port about. As a result, it kind of stir my mind a little. I guess that is why they say; leave your past behind. Turn once a while, enough to make it as a reminder not go back there.
Human heart is full of curiosity. Somehow, there is an itch to still take a look at what the other party are doing. The truth is, deep down inside we are seeking for there downfall. Lets face it, often we wish our foes to have rock bottom life or few step lower than where we are now. It sort like a comfort of our own heart. When we learned that they are actually kind of above us or equally stand where we are, that alone create an aching heart.
I felt that aching heart these two days. Can't undo what I did. Still looking for remedy to get on my feet again. I fear nothing. Believe what ever decision that was made during that time is for the best. Result shown enough proof. But the thing that I don't understand is, why there is such a fear in my heart. Fear of something unknown. When I really fear nothing in reality.
On top of that silly thing I did, stumble upon a heartbreaking news of animal cruelty. One local pet shop called PETKNODE. These company take charge of cats for owner who is away with a small fees. Reality speak; they actually abandoned all those cats locked up in the shop for god knows how long. Upon discovered almost 200 cats died out of starvation and dehydration. Volunteers poured in to take shelter of those cats which owners are still abroad. Police report made, two culprit has been arrested. I cried my heart out watching the video of rescue. Many kittens died and some of the cats gulp over waters like they are lost in the desert. Got one of the cat, just lay motionless in the cage, skin and bone..her ribs actually shun out. Nothing much can be done for her anymore, awaits death.
In yesterday's paper finally the government decided to amend the act for tougher law enforcement on animal rights and abuse. Its a good move ; better late then never.
54 years of independence for crying out loud. Malaysia just hit rock bottom. Mentality still barbaric. Though is small percentage, but sooner it will spread. We are developing country this issue is small of course. I remember in one of Oprah show, there was a highlight about mass breeding of dogs. They are fighting to pass the act on tougher law enforcement. Can you imagine, one female dogs produce 17 puppies then being pregnant again and again and again. It gives me a goose bump. How can such cruelty exist in this world.
Let alone, the issue on whale hunting, fur hunting ...the list just go on....
I always believe people who have mercy on animal are nice person. These are really what we call human. I do have friend who hate or fear several species of domestic animals. It hurt at times to hear them just cursing on these helpless animals. To me, we are superior enough to let it be as they do not hold mind and able to think like us. Stay out of their way and do no harm...simple.
My biggest fear is cockroaches. God ! I can die for it. If I bumped into a ghost and a cockroach at the same time..chance are I will faint because of the roaches. I really can turn blue or white with these roaches. But then again, I don't do them any harm. Stay out of my way.
Anyway, hope with the amendment of animal act things will get better
"The greatness of a Nation and its moral progress can be judge by the way its animal are treated" ~ Mahatma Gandhi
Human heart is full of curiosity. Somehow, there is an itch to still take a look at what the other party are doing. The truth is, deep down inside we are seeking for there downfall. Lets face it, often we wish our foes to have rock bottom life or few step lower than where we are now. It sort like a comfort of our own heart. When we learned that they are actually kind of above us or equally stand where we are, that alone create an aching heart.
I felt that aching heart these two days. Can't undo what I did. Still looking for remedy to get on my feet again. I fear nothing. Believe what ever decision that was made during that time is for the best. Result shown enough proof. But the thing that I don't understand is, why there is such a fear in my heart. Fear of something unknown. When I really fear nothing in reality.
On top of that silly thing I did, stumble upon a heartbreaking news of animal cruelty. One local pet shop called PETKNODE. These company take charge of cats for owner who is away with a small fees. Reality speak; they actually abandoned all those cats locked up in the shop for god knows how long. Upon discovered almost 200 cats died out of starvation and dehydration. Volunteers poured in to take shelter of those cats which owners are still abroad. Police report made, two culprit has been arrested. I cried my heart out watching the video of rescue. Many kittens died and some of the cats gulp over waters like they are lost in the desert. Got one of the cat, just lay motionless in the cage, skin and bone..her ribs actually shun out. Nothing much can be done for her anymore, awaits death.
In yesterday's paper finally the government decided to amend the act for tougher law enforcement on animal rights and abuse. Its a good move ; better late then never.
54 years of independence for crying out loud. Malaysia just hit rock bottom. Mentality still barbaric. Though is small percentage, but sooner it will spread. We are developing country this issue is small of course. I remember in one of Oprah show, there was a highlight about mass breeding of dogs. They are fighting to pass the act on tougher law enforcement. Can you imagine, one female dogs produce 17 puppies then being pregnant again and again and again. It gives me a goose bump. How can such cruelty exist in this world.
Let alone, the issue on whale hunting, fur hunting ...the list just go on....
I always believe people who have mercy on animal are nice person. These are really what we call human. I do have friend who hate or fear several species of domestic animals. It hurt at times to hear them just cursing on these helpless animals. To me, we are superior enough to let it be as they do not hold mind and able to think like us. Stay out of their way and do no harm...simple.
My biggest fear is cockroaches. God ! I can die for it. If I bumped into a ghost and a cockroach at the same time..chance are I will faint because of the roaches. I really can turn blue or white with these roaches. But then again, I don't do them any harm. Stay out of my way.
Anyway, hope with the amendment of animal act things will get better
"The greatness of a Nation and its moral progress can be judge by the way its animal are treated" ~ Mahatma Gandhi
Families are like fudge - mostly sweet with a few nuts. ~Author Unknown
Eid came and go. Six days flew like a whirlwind. Resting and enjoying festive season in my parent's den is always wonderful. They say one should have breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like pauper...for me back home with my parent is like King's meal all the way through minus the snack bite in between. Its really a royal treatment. Even so, visitor from relative made it even more wonderful.
I am more being the dish washer after all guess left then being in the front row of welcoming guess to the house. Its fun and tiring at the same time. It really can be seen in my father's eyes, how happy he is.
To have all of us; his daughter with husbands and lover in one house. Its like one big happy family. I felt completed, calm and blessed. Both my brother in law can be categorized into very nice person. I made my mother feel bless enough to say that she is lucky to have only son in law as her children are all daughter.
My nephew has grown into super naughty baby. His mom took him back to KL for two days, smooth journey. He collected quite a packet of Angpau. How nice to be kids again.
Shan is the champion above all. Eat, sleep and laze around maximum. I made him do a bit of things helping around my dad put up wall fan. Keep him busy a bit.
A day before I left to KL, we went to the beach. Had a good time. My father had to go and purchase something thus he can't follow us. He reminded us to be careful and if the wave are high, do not proceed.
By the time we are done with our swimming and playing ; my father show up from no where. It made me wonder how fast did he drive to the shop and then make enough time to come back and observed us playing at the seaside. My mom told me that he is so worry about our safety.
Returning back to KL, I brought back stuff the same load as I came back home. My dad purchased some crabs for me and Shan. Its cheaper than KL definitely because he purchased it from the jetty upon arrival on local fisherman from the sea. Due to long journey for us to travel back to KL, my dad went and buy an ice box ; just to ensure our crabs are fresh and not rotten.
I left my parent with heavy hearts. My second sister left about an hour earlier than me while my third sister left a day early. Its painful to see the house is empty again. Left only them back to their daily routine. We on the other hand also flew back into our own build world here in KL.
I spend the whole day sleeping. Its like I am so tired. My second sister is due for delivery anytime this month. False alarm are scary but well that's what pregnant is all about. Am so excited to welcome this new family member. Everything will go smooth and well for her.
I am more being the dish washer after all guess left then being in the front row of welcoming guess to the house. Its fun and tiring at the same time. It really can be seen in my father's eyes, how happy he is.
To have all of us; his daughter with husbands and lover in one house. Its like one big happy family. I felt completed, calm and blessed. Both my brother in law can be categorized into very nice person. I made my mother feel bless enough to say that she is lucky to have only son in law as her children are all daughter.
My nephew has grown into super naughty baby. His mom took him back to KL for two days, smooth journey. He collected quite a packet of Angpau. How nice to be kids again.
Shan is the champion above all. Eat, sleep and laze around maximum. I made him do a bit of things helping around my dad put up wall fan. Keep him busy a bit.
A day before I left to KL, we went to the beach. Had a good time. My father had to go and purchase something thus he can't follow us. He reminded us to be careful and if the wave are high, do not proceed.
By the time we are done with our swimming and playing ; my father show up from no where. It made me wonder how fast did he drive to the shop and then make enough time to come back and observed us playing at the seaside. My mom told me that he is so worry about our safety.
Returning back to KL, I brought back stuff the same load as I came back home. My dad purchased some crabs for me and Shan. Its cheaper than KL definitely because he purchased it from the jetty upon arrival on local fisherman from the sea. Due to long journey for us to travel back to KL, my dad went and buy an ice box ; just to ensure our crabs are fresh and not rotten.
I left my parent with heavy hearts. My second sister left about an hour earlier than me while my third sister left a day early. Its painful to see the house is empty again. Left only them back to their daily routine. We on the other hand also flew back into our own build world here in KL.
I spend the whole day sleeping. Its like I am so tired. My second sister is due for delivery anytime this month. False alarm are scary but well that's what pregnant is all about. Am so excited to welcome this new family member. Everything will go smooth and well for her.
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