Where to begin ...I always mentioned how time passed like a whirlwind Flew across our faces while we are busy with life. Seems that we are always rushing somewhere and making time for something. By the end of the day still that 24 hours just not enough. A year just end like monthly thing. Imagine how that 24 hours just passed like a snap.
I believe this feeling of 24 hours a day is not sufficient does not apply to everyone. There are still think its a long day to end. It depend on how well you plan your time ahead. To be honest, until end of October 2011, I know where and what am I to do. It helps a lot when you plan you time and days ahead. Keep you focus and it does sharpen ones mind too. My memory often fail me, this is how I train to make sure I do not slip on things or event too often.
Our work schedule are pretty tight this time around. Not enough staff to rotate, thus our off days are just barely enough for us to rest ourselves. No more luxury to have more than 48 hours off days except of one or two occasions per schedule. Am not complaining. Its a team effort after all. Five fingers are not the same, let alone dealing with human which is known at times to have zero tolerance of others. We are trying our level best to balance it up. Help is always around and hope in time to come we are back in our comfort zone of plentiful play time.
My second sister gave birth to beautiful baby girl. Both mom and baby are doing fine. My mother said, this grand daughter of her are very polite and calm. Cried a little, move a little and very gentle in her own way. Unlike my nephew, every time he cried our house get earthquake on certain magnitude. He is after all a boy..I guess that's what boys do. Loud and clear, this one especially. My mother now have to juggle between these two. Taking care of my sister for post natal period. My nephew already 1 year and half, he is more independent and behave. Smart and genius. Kids nowadays are super fast in mind development. Now everyone awaits my turn. Its fun and nice to have my family which came over to visit my second sister. Made me missed home than ever.
Got to plan my holiday leave. Recently I accompanied my friend for USA Visa application interview. Ever since 911, the Americans need to know every detail of who and who entering their soil. Well its their right to do so. To speak, my friend fail the interview..not because he look like Bin Laden..he is Indian by the way. Can't help to laugh and make fun of it...he failed ? I can't believe it either. I do believe he was not being asked fairly. He did go online of US Green Card lottery which like seven years ago..for fun sake. Little that he knew it is all recorded and its in their database. I told him, second round the interview..if they asked you why you failed the last time. Just said because you don't have memory of an elephant.
Its not a big deal for him, but it did made us puzzle and ponder for a while. He kind of reluctant to travel to States this time but still to fail that Visa interview is unexpected. For me, I am reluctant to go yes, but I still want to passed that interview...it kind of ridiculous. Hope he gets in second time round. Its fun teasing him.
Envy him at times, ever since from WDC he flew around the world work wise. Then when I myself taste that work related travelling..me no like. It just tire you at some point. I just hate the waiting hours for flight. Nonetheless now I miss travelling...this time it has to be holiday related.
I do feel like a tabby, who nowadays likes to sit on warm cosy chair..rain or shine.
Woke up late this morning. Late night, spend time cleaning my sanctuary. Then sit around and catch up with movies. I had a good sleep overall.
While having my brunch, said hi to an old friend. Regret I did that. This one still have that love/heart issue which I thought she is now healing herself and moved one. Little that I know it just get worst. Not wanting to waste my time. I just share with her my thought at a minimal tune. She told me that I don't understand her situation..she tried and she just can't get over it. I shook my head in despair.
Laugh to myself a bit,......geez...if I don't understand, how is that possible I can climb up to this level now where Love/Heart is just part of life. How on earth that I now feel that I cannot related any sad love song to myself anymore cause I felt stupid. How did I manage to put myself as priority above all and how in the blue that I love myself so much that I am hunger for greater challenge as this victory throw bore me big time.
She is seeking an answer of why she is rejected while others can live happily with their love one. My eye brow raised....smile and said to myself.. am not gonna waste my time answering this lame question.
I am more worry that I can't give my best to myself that I do feel am not doing enough to nurture this soul of mine. We have only one body and one soul. It is not like there are spare parts sold out there.
At that point of time, I thought enough is enough. You cannot fill a cup which is already full. That's the reason we always have to see our cup half full. So there are room for improvement and room of being silly from time to time. It just balance up.
Be light by checking and changing at the same time. When something goes wrong, check if you are able to find your own weakness in that situation. Also after finding that weakness in yourself, check if you are getting disheartened. If you only check, but do nothing to change yourself you will find yourself becoming heavy. As soon as you find a weakness, make sure you make out a plan for yourself so that you can bring about the necessary changes immediately to overcome that weakness. In this way you will be able to remain light even when you find your weakness.
Watch how many things you do during the day are dependent on how you imagine the other sees you: your husband, your friend, your child, your cousin, your aunt, your boss, the secretary or whoever. You imagine how they are going to look at you and, as a result, you mould yourself accordingly. If you depend on the look of the other, inwardly you will always feel fear. You want to please the other so that they continue to see you as you want. Because of the dependence that we have on the other to appreciate us, value us and not to reject us, we want to please them. If, in spite of doing everything possible, they do not appreciate us or are not happy, how do we feel? Cheated.
After having done everything out of wanting to please them! Inside, you want to please them because you want them to keep on loving you, or you don't want them to sack you from your job, or you are afraid of being different or not being accepted. That kind of dependency takes us away from our true authenticity. If you look at yourself well, in the end, others will look at you well and the one who does not look at you well will perhaps teach you something, but your value and self-esteem do not depend on the look of the other. In this state, you are open because you trust yourself and you have personal security.
Instead of thinking of the situation, think of your own stage. When you find yourself questioning the things that are happening in your life, ask yourself if your own stage is good. The situation might be bad, but check if your own stage is good and if you have the power to face the situation. The reason for losing the stage in a negative situation is because of negative thoughts. In order to finish such negative thoughts, remind yourself that you are learning from the things that are happening so that you can improve your own stage.
It’s extremely rare to find a successful person who whines, complains, and frets about his circumstances. This is despite the fact that he may have overcome great obstacles to achieve his level of success. On the other hand, it’s extremely common for struggling individuals to continually blame their circumstances for their lack of joy and happiness.
The real question is: what came first – the attitude or the success? The answer, in virtually all cases, is that the winning, positive attitude came first, followed by a lifetime of success.
All it takes is a simple decision; the decision to stop yourself from falling into the habit of complaining about your circumstances. At first it may be difficult – even funny – to observe how often you complain.
Habits can be hard to break. But in this case, it’s well worth the effort. As an excuse of complaint comes to mind, gently shoo it away. Don’t worry about it too much. You’ll quickly get used to the nicer feelings that come from a life without complaints.
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