It is said that a woman should once in their life at least fall for a wrong person ; to ensure we value the nice one that comes along after that. Hence, I've walked that lane..not once..but several time. Reason of failure in the earlier lane was..fail to love our self...thereafter once I let it the hunting for love ..the acceptance was even greater...I am at peace. Nothing matters anything rather than self happiness and self defense.
So to speak, one person arrived into my life...too good to be true at times but...there he is. Fit into what I want in a man...and that is to love, care and accept me as what I am. Its a God send..as simple as that.
Often my heart wonder..is this true or just temporary until...well I dunno what's our path going to be.
Am a chatter box as everyone knows it...from afar it does look like I am the dominant one between us. The truth is he rule our kingdom. We mend our flaws gracefully...together we become a better person everyday instead of changing each other to suit one another.
We walked through the tide bravely....then come along a huge wave. I froze..stand still and broke down into emotion while he was swipe away by the wave with unknown destination ....while I m busy tending my emotion time slip through ....gives me rude awakening that I got to swim fast to grab him back.
Wiped my tears away....through good and through bad..I m going to face this ...I am going to accept this fate with dignity. I had a good time with him....our life is wonderful. This wave is not going to last...storm will passed...I believe the sun will shine and the ocean will be blue again for us to paddle our way through.
One thing for sure..value what you have especially health. Don't count how much you have...count who you have when you are bed ridden.
My father use to said....he is old and he is healthy...he is not debt ..he is not making millions either. Live your life with clean heart. Always be happy ...get angry..get scared...and be brave enough to admit own mistake...love yourself and always always see things beyond our two naked eyes....see things from your heart...
I felt this burden of test from HIM is heavy..my love one is ill....but nonetheless I had carried heavier than this......tough time don't last...tough people do !
You know that saying, that when God closes a door he opens a window, well, sometimes out of nowhere he'll do you one better and he'll kick a whole wall down. ~Ryan Murphy, Brad Falchuk, and Ian Brennan, Glee, "Furt"
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