My heart beat still has not settle. All sort of things that happen since Monday ; I am restless. Though its a very positive change and I got what I wished for ; too many things at one time make my head spinning.
I am holding patience as a Saint right now. Too short time and million of things to be done.
Being an employee, leaving in short notice is a definite chaos. Although there will be compensation on that matter due to short notice; the whole process can be very lenghty. Add on to it, if the person you dealing with are from level 7 of HELL. I hate it when nobody can give certain answer of question arise ; especially when it comes to legal matter or employee's right. Being a down liner of course there is needed to refer to superior but to me simple basic enquiry ; one should be equip enough to give information at first hand.
When we went higher to the superior, different lane all together. This person usually be the most difficult person to deal with. Mood swing is part of it. I am even being told...be careful ; can't predict the mood today. I was stunt of it. Here we are as an employee being told to adapt to positiveness/professionalism and work our ass out for the company. Any small/major issue is far from being taken professionally.
Me on the other hand is not very good in holding my temper specially on matter that I find I am not wrong. Even so, I do believe that every issue/problem has its way out as long as that issue/problem arise does not involve legal matter.
If there is benefit as compensation for both parties ; I don't see why it should be taken unprofessionally. At the end of the day ; proper document and proper communication approach has been done.
Failure to adhere to it professionally ...will result to emotion injury for both party.
Why can't everyone behave nicely ? If everyone adapt to the policy of don't do things that you do not want others to do to you..isn't it better ?
Gypsy Bone - Eat, Pray and Love
Had a great weekend. Friday was a laze around day. Saturday went to one of my friend's house. She help Eid lunch & gathering. I went with Shan of course. Meet up with lots of old friends too. Had a fantablous time. Then I went to Neez's house...chat for a while. Aida join there after..spice up the whole conversation.
Leave Neez's house almost 6.00pm. Stuck in terrible traffic jam. Took alternative route ; end up in Kampung Baru. Had Shan to try the famous Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa. His rating was NOTHING GREAT ...i laugh all the way. Yes it is..nothing great about it; we've tasted much much delicious than this. But of course one a while..the crave for it will be there.
Yesterday...i just laze around ..did my laundry, watch tv. I watched the making of EAT,PRAY and LOVE - new movie by Julia Roberts. She still above all the American's Sweetheart.
Its based on true story of an author Elizabeth Gilbert. Chronicles memoir of the author's trip around the world after her divorce and what she discovered during her travels. As of August 2010, the book has remained on the New York Times Best Seller list for 187 weeks. According to Metacritic, it has received mostly favored critical reviews. The movie rights for the memoir were purchased by Columbia Pictures.
One of her statement that goes like this. Not everyone is gifted to born with 'gypsy bone'. Should you are one of it...you will never stop travelling...until you find what are you looking for.
Hmmm..i wonder where does my 'Gypsy Bone' located ; or has it lost against time as am already staying put nowadays. But the itch to exhale, wander and do crazy things still in me though. I often had a thought that I just wanna pack up and travel round the world for a year. Touch all 7 continent. From Asia to Europe to Africa...or South America. Its my life time dream to do this. I believe one day I can do it.
What keeps me going till today is very much the 'Gypsy Bone'. Never to quit and keep to wander for something better.
"Stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone ought to be" - Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)
Got this via my SUPER POSITIVE friend... Ms Illy Ariffin (My Lady)
This gurl...Illy Arifin..she is SUPER POSITIVE.....her aura keeps me going. I am happy to spread it around. Being with her really does keep the spirit alive....
the next time you have a bad day....watch this...it does help...
the next time you have a bad day....watch this...it does help...
Sob ! sob !....
To received this made my heart pain a bit. Can't help ....something just not meant to be. We are always a good friend. No matter where and what have we become...13 years its not a short journey...i m glad that i know you over these years...
Lobo - Don't Expect me to be your friend
I stopped sending flowers to your apartment
You said you aren't home much anymore
I stopped dropping by without an appointment
Cause I'd hear laughter coming through your door.
Sometimes late at night you'll still call me
Just before you close your eyes to sleep
You make me vow to try and stop by sometime
Baby that's a promise I can't keep.
I love you too much to ever start liking you
So lets just let the story kinda end
I love you too much to ever start liking you
So don't expect me to be your friend.
I don't walk down through the village or other places
That we used to go to all the time
I'm trying to erase you from my memory
Cause thinking of you jumbles up my mind.
You always act so happy when I see you
You smile that way you take my hand and then
Introduce me to your latest lover
That's when I feel the walls start crashing in
Lobo - Don't Expect me to be your friend
I stopped sending flowers to your apartment
You said you aren't home much anymore
I stopped dropping by without an appointment
Cause I'd hear laughter coming through your door.
Sometimes late at night you'll still call me
Just before you close your eyes to sleep
You make me vow to try and stop by sometime
Baby that's a promise I can't keep.
I love you too much to ever start liking you
So lets just let the story kinda end
I love you too much to ever start liking you
So don't expect me to be your friend.
I don't walk down through the village or other places
That we used to go to all the time
I'm trying to erase you from my memory
Cause thinking of you jumbles up my mind.
You always act so happy when I see you
You smile that way you take my hand and then
Introduce me to your latest lover
That's when I feel the walls start crashing in
Without Prejudice !
This morning...I m late to work. Reach the main bus stop in town at about 9.20am. Walked as fast as I can towards my office building which is about 10mins only. My mind wander about my sunglass...seems missing then lots of other things also..this and that...
While crossing 1st traffic light...i sense someone at the back of me. I glance and its a foreigner ..from one of the African country. He act funny ; blabering and dancing all the way. Keep walking then I notice he is tailing me..Oh God !...I start to walk here and there ...to avoid him following me. I can hear him singging...'Hey baby..wanna know you"...then I stop..reverse my direction to cross the road over the otherside..that is where he came and grab my knapsack...chill grew over my spine...i ran into the shop ; seeking shelter. He waited outside...
Quickly I call my colleague and asked her to bring one building security to fetch me....that fellow still waiting outside. The shop that I walked in happen to be with full of Nepalis ; one of them asked me whats wrong..I point to that man...the Nepalis walked out to the door..he pretend to walk about.
My heart relief seeing my colleague came. Shaken up..sweating and my heart beat unable to come down till an hour later.
It is true that when we less alert, walking in day dream..thats is where we become prey. I kind of used being harrased by people from this part of continent. Usually, I put up a brave face and walk. Am always alert on surroundings and protective on myself. But this time..cause of my day dreaming..I am not prepare on whats coming. Panic....
Am sure to carry an umbrella after this...it may not be much of weapon but its better than bare hands. Lesson learn...hard way sadly. Thank god that I am safe and sound
While crossing 1st traffic light...i sense someone at the back of me. I glance and its a foreigner ..from one of the African country. He act funny ; blabering and dancing all the way. Keep walking then I notice he is tailing me..Oh God !...I start to walk here and there ...to avoid him following me. I can hear him singging...'Hey baby..wanna know you"...then I stop..reverse my direction to cross the road over the otherside..that is where he came and grab my knapsack...chill grew over my spine...i ran into the shop ; seeking shelter. He waited outside...
Quickly I call my colleague and asked her to bring one building security to fetch me....that fellow still waiting outside. The shop that I walked in happen to be with full of Nepalis ; one of them asked me whats wrong..I point to that man...the Nepalis walked out to the door..he pretend to walk about.
My heart relief seeing my colleague came. Shaken up..sweating and my heart beat unable to come down till an hour later.
It is true that when we less alert, walking in day dream..thats is where we become prey. I kind of used being harrased by people from this part of continent. Usually, I put up a brave face and walk. Am always alert on surroundings and protective on myself. But this time..cause of my day dreaming..I am not prepare on whats coming. Panic....
Am sure to carry an umbrella after this...it may not be much of weapon but its better than bare hands. Lesson learn...hard way sadly. Thank god that I am safe and sound
so sweet..its from my admirer...Is This Love by Bob Marley
what my dear shan say about it ?... "hmmmmm.." with one of his eyebrow up ..curious..
me laugh all the way. the song are simply sweetttttt... wish to say..thank you... i love this song.. :)
I wanna love you and treat you right;
I wanna love you every day and every night:
We'll be together with a roof right over our heads;
We'll share the shelter of my single bed;
We'll share the same room, yeah! - for Jah provide the bread.
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
I wanna know - wanna know - wanna know now!
I got to know - got to know - got to know now!
I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I - I'm willing and able,
So I throw my cards on your table!
I wanna love you - I wanna love and treat - love and treat you right;
I wanna love you every day and every night:
We'll be together, yeah! - with a roof right over our heads;
We'll share the shelter, yeah, oh now! - of my single bed;
We'll share the same room, yeah! - for Jah provide the bread.
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
Wo-o-o-oah! Oh yes, I know; yes, I know - yes, I know now!
Yes, I know; yes, I know - yes, I know now!
I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I - I'm willing and able,
So I throw my cards on your table!
See: I wanna love ya, I wanna love and treat ya -
love and treat ya right.
I wanna love you every day and every night:
We'll be together, with a roof right over our heads!
We'll share the shelter of my single bed;
We'll share the same room, yeah! Jah provide the bread.
We'll share the shelter of my single bed
me laugh all the way. the song are simply sweetttttt... wish to say..thank you... i love this song.. :)
I wanna love you and treat you right;
I wanna love you every day and every night:
We'll be together with a roof right over our heads;
We'll share the shelter of my single bed;
We'll share the same room, yeah! - for Jah provide the bread.
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
I wanna know - wanna know - wanna know now!
I got to know - got to know - got to know now!
I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I - I'm willing and able,
So I throw my cards on your table!
I wanna love you - I wanna love and treat - love and treat you right;
I wanna love you every day and every night:
We'll be together, yeah! - with a roof right over our heads;
We'll share the shelter, yeah, oh now! - of my single bed;
We'll share the same room, yeah! - for Jah provide the bread.
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
Wo-o-o-oah! Oh yes, I know; yes, I know - yes, I know now!
Yes, I know; yes, I know - yes, I know now!
I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I - I'm willing and able,
So I throw my cards on your table!
See: I wanna love ya, I wanna love and treat ya -
love and treat ya right.
I wanna love you every day and every night:
We'll be together, with a roof right over our heads!
We'll share the shelter of my single bed;
We'll share the same room, yeah! Jah provide the bread.
We'll share the shelter of my single bed
Flan ...what makes a good flan
the right ingredients...with variety of fruits all in one. I had a fun night with a bunch of friends which has been around with me for about 10 over years. We have walk through so many things...from laughter to tears.
Each time that we need a shoulder to cry on, no other people gives the best words of comfort. Four of us remain in SOS situation..as we are staying at the same place. Just a phone call away..
Sitting down with them today (except Ms Winn Ie)we had a good time. There is a new member to our group. Her name is Christina ; she is Janu's friend for almost 20 years. Lost contact of each other like 10 years. Miracle brought them back together ; Christina is standing on a point of no return.
Janu is sheltering her now. The least keep my dear sister company while all of us out to work.
When first time I saw Chris, she is totally lost. Her expression, emotion..neither here nor there. But today, she is totally a different person...love and care does millions of wonder. Though it may not a million dollar worth of shelter but..a friend in need is a friend in deed.
Janu use to share with me ; apart from me there is another one more girl name Christina. She is the best thing that every happen to me, Janu often said. Finally I met who is Christina.
No the circle of us its like complete ; suits our PM's wish...our bond of friendship - unbreakable. Only in this kind of circle where you can fight, argue and when things fall into places ; what happen in the past does not matter anymore.
Apart from them, of course I do have another bunch which has been around for more than 10 years. Technology keeps us together cause we don't see each other often..yet its has crossed many years.
I had good memories with all those in my good book. Some of it still very munch in flame...
Its like a flan...blend with variety of fruits..good ones yeah. Rotten fruits ain't gonna make a tasty flan. Wonder why I choose my friendship bond like a flan ?...i love it !...
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Each time that we need a shoulder to cry on, no other people gives the best words of comfort. Four of us remain in SOS situation..as we are staying at the same place. Just a phone call away..
Sitting down with them today (except Ms Winn Ie)we had a good time. There is a new member to our group. Her name is Christina ; she is Janu's friend for almost 20 years. Lost contact of each other like 10 years. Miracle brought them back together ; Christina is standing on a point of no return.
Janu is sheltering her now. The least keep my dear sister company while all of us out to work.
When first time I saw Chris, she is totally lost. Her expression, emotion..neither here nor there. But today, she is totally a different person...love and care does millions of wonder. Though it may not a million dollar worth of shelter but..a friend in need is a friend in deed.
Janu use to share with me ; apart from me there is another one more girl name Christina. She is the best thing that every happen to me, Janu often said. Finally I met who is Christina.
No the circle of us its like complete ; suits our PM's wish...our bond of friendship - unbreakable. Only in this kind of circle where you can fight, argue and when things fall into places ; what happen in the past does not matter anymore.
Apart from them, of course I do have another bunch which has been around for more than 10 years. Technology keeps us together cause we don't see each other often..yet its has crossed many years.
I had good memories with all those in my good book. Some of it still very munch in flame...
Its like a flan...blend with variety of fruits..good ones yeah. Rotten fruits ain't gonna make a tasty flan. Wonder why I choose my friendship bond like a flan ?...i love it !...
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hmmmm....
The most beautiful make-up of a woman is passion. But cosmetics are easier to buy. ~Yves Saint Laurent
something to share; got via email from a friend...
7 Ways to Make Love to Your Man's Mind So That He Falls Deeper in Love
Give him that sexy look from time to time. When you look at him, make him feel that you want to make love to him. It is all in the eyes. For example, when he is getting dressed in the morning and you are in bed, let him know that you are looking at him. Let your eyes make him feel that he is the hottest guy you know.
2. When you talk to him make let him know that you love him with all your heart. Speak kind and caring words to him -- they go a long way to open a man 's heart so that he can shower you with passionate love.
3. Support his passions. When you make your man feel that you "have his back", he will go to the ends of the earth to do anything for you. He will fall in love with all his heart and soul.
4. Make him feel needed. Invite him to participate in important decision that will affect your life. When you make him feel that he is an indispensable part of your life, he feels appreciated, and he will appreciate and love you in return.
5. Be affectionate. Touch him, kiss him, and hug him daily. The mind and body are connected. When you do things that make his body feel good, his mind will react positively toward you.
6. Always be ready to forgive and forget. When he does something that hurts you and he apologizes to you, don't hold his misdeeds against him. And most importantly don't shove it in his face at the slightest provocation. When you forgive him, he will love you even more.
7. Do not nag him. Your man will never do all things you want him to do when you want him to do them. So with that in mind, go easy on him when he forgets to do some things you asked him to do. When you go easy on him, he finds it much easier to overlook some of your imperfections and love you just the way you are.
Making love to a man 's mind is all about how you treat him from the time you get up until the time you go to bed. When you make love to his mind daily, he will bend over backwards to love you with all his heart and soul.
something to share; got via email from a friend...
7 Ways to Make Love to Your Man's Mind So That He Falls Deeper in Love
Give him that sexy look from time to time. When you look at him, make him feel that you want to make love to him. It is all in the eyes. For example, when he is getting dressed in the morning and you are in bed, let him know that you are looking at him. Let your eyes make him feel that he is the hottest guy you know.
2. When you talk to him make let him know that you love him with all your heart. Speak kind and caring words to him -- they go a long way to open a man 's heart so that he can shower you with passionate love.
3. Support his passions. When you make your man feel that you "have his back", he will go to the ends of the earth to do anything for you. He will fall in love with all his heart and soul.
4. Make him feel needed. Invite him to participate in important decision that will affect your life. When you make him feel that he is an indispensable part of your life, he feels appreciated, and he will appreciate and love you in return.
5. Be affectionate. Touch him, kiss him, and hug him daily. The mind and body are connected. When you do things that make his body feel good, his mind will react positively toward you.
6. Always be ready to forgive and forget. When he does something that hurts you and he apologizes to you, don't hold his misdeeds against him. And most importantly don't shove it in his face at the slightest provocation. When you forgive him, he will love you even more.
7. Do not nag him. Your man will never do all things you want him to do when you want him to do them. So with that in mind, go easy on him when he forgets to do some things you asked him to do. When you go easy on him, he finds it much easier to overlook some of your imperfections and love you just the way you are.
Making love to a man 's mind is all about how you treat him from the time you get up until the time you go to bed. When you make love to his mind daily, he will bend over backwards to love you with all his heart and soul.
Saunter
Crossed midnight, am still wide awake. Great weekend..relax and unwind. Breakfast was good, superb lunch and I made dinner on Shan's request. He wanted to have the same dishes my mother made while he was there last week. After all the cooking ; seeing the enjoyment of the meal eaten heartily ; nothing beats that.Tomorrow morning plan to make fried rice. Hope manage to wake up in time for it.
Spend the rest of time reading and surfing. I complete two stories
1) The Murder Artist by John Case - A father's journey in search of his missing twin son at fun fair ground. Gruesome tales of serial killers. His hunt went as far as voodoo ritual. Its a happy ending nonetheless
2) The No 1 Ladies Detective Agency by Alexander McCall Smith - Set background of Africa. This is one of my most read story...don't mind even reading it over and over again. Ambitious lady who fought against all odds to conquer the man's world of being an investigator. Though the case are not that challenging but it went as far as saving an innocent life which we often look pass through it. Moral and value of life.
Starting Monday gonna be full swing of getting things done. Really felt cornered and drowned. I can't see the path for me to step out yet. All door seems to remain close.
Shan told me..it will be alright, everything will fall into places. Don't alone see at the negative point ; view your achievement every since all the wish list came to live. Though it is all now seems to narrow down to the bottle neck, the way there after is as smooth as silk...hard to digest the there after cause am still at the junction of that bottle neck.
Unravel thoughts that have strangled and entwined your purity of being. Believe as a child believes they will be taken care of.
Spend the rest of time reading and surfing. I complete two stories
1) The Murder Artist by John Case - A father's journey in search of his missing twin son at fun fair ground. Gruesome tales of serial killers. His hunt went as far as voodoo ritual. Its a happy ending nonetheless
2) The No 1 Ladies Detective Agency by Alexander McCall Smith - Set background of Africa. This is one of my most read story...don't mind even reading it over and over again. Ambitious lady who fought against all odds to conquer the man's world of being an investigator. Though the case are not that challenging but it went as far as saving an innocent life which we often look pass through it. Moral and value of life.
Starting Monday gonna be full swing of getting things done. Really felt cornered and drowned. I can't see the path for me to step out yet. All door seems to remain close.
Shan told me..it will be alright, everything will fall into places. Don't alone see at the negative point ; view your achievement every since all the wish list came to live. Though it is all now seems to narrow down to the bottle neck, the way there after is as smooth as silk...hard to digest the there after cause am still at the junction of that bottle neck.
Unravel thoughts that have strangled and entwined your purity of being. Believe as a child believes they will be taken care of.
Leilani - Heaven's Flower
The world suffers a lot, not because of the violence of bad people, but because of the silence of good people.
Ever since the local media published news about the gruesome high profile murder case of Datuk Sosilawati with 3 others..I had a very uneasy feeling. Upon reading about it the first time..my mind flew instantly about their children. Eid approached ; not knowing whereabouts are they gives a chill to my spine.
I have parents ; I mean we all do have love ones. Husband, wife, children...every festival is the time of togetherness..celebrations and time to forgive and forget.
I sincerely can understand how pain it is to lost love ones. My own best friend too ; having lost her parent when she was 19 years old being now at 40 years old ; she said..its just not the same when parents is no around. There is a total silent and emptiness..unable to explain by words. No matter how much money we have, how large is our new family, still the one thing we miss the most the THE GOOD OLD DAYS.
Some may comment, all those victim is probably ain't doing good business or income. To me...regardless, no human deserve to die in such a way. No human has the right to brutally taken away others life...human or animal. Wonder at times why does this kind of people exist and walk around freely.
When the news confirmed about their death ; my heart sank deeply. This world has enough suffering...addition to it ; made it like its an impossible world to leave in.
All these brutality that happen around us that we know about it ; probably just a small percentage. The news makes money from it...I m sure the goodness is still around ; we need more this news...there must be balance of it. Too much negativity drained our soul.
That is why we need always to stay positive. No matter what happen around , in and out ; keep our head high. Never ever do something that we do not want others to do to us..cause what goes round comes around. Nowadays...its like cash on delivery ;
what you do instantly will hit your back.
Bottom line...stay positive and we do need more positive and news on good sarmatians around...if one person received news/email about good things..spread it around...cause it will keep the aura in you while you spread it to others...
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Cosmetics millionaire's slaying grips Malaysia
By JULIA ZAPPEI,Associated Press Writer - Wednesday, September 15
KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia –
Malaysians have been captivated this week by the slaying of a self-made cosmetics mogul whose remains were disposed of on a poultry farm owned by two lawyer brothers with an alleged history of shady land deals, according to police.
Sosilawati Lawiya and three of her aides went missing late last month; her BMW sedan was later found abandoned outside a Kuala Lumpur apartment building.
It wasn't until earlier this week, however, when police announced that all four were probably murdered, their bodies burned and the ashes discarded in streams near the lawyers' property that the case exploded into a full-scale media sensation.
On Wednesday, police combed a vast oil palm estate, which includes a poultry farm owned by one of the brothers, hoping to find evidence linking them to what appears to be a rare case of mass murder in Malaysia. A day earlier, investigators fished a knife from a muddy stream and seized computers from the lawyer's office in a nearby town.
The motive for the killings, police say, could be a land deal gone bad, and they are looking into whether the two lawyers may have been involved in other killings. The two have been detained for questioning, but authorities have barred the media from naming them until they are charged. Six farm workers were also arrested but not charged.
The case has dominated Malaysian media this week.
"Killer lawyers?" read Monday's headline in The Star daily. "Killed and Burnt," "Their Throats were Slit," proclaimed others. The case has also dominated news bulletins of state TV.
Even Deputy Prime Minister Muhyiddin Yassin has weighed in, saying he has been shocked by the case and condemns "the inhuman act."
"These are unbelievable things that took place in a quiet neighborhood," said Denison Jayasooria, a social scientist and honorary fellow at the National University of Malaysia who attributes the outsizes media attention to the "personalities involved, the victim and also the circumstances of the death."
Sosilawati, a 47-year-old mother of six, was small-town girl from a humble upbringing in Malaysia's southern Johor State who started off selling cosmetic products door-to-door.
In 1998, she founded her own company, Nouvelle Beauty Care, opening several stores and developing the Nouvelles Visages cosmetics line, which sells facial wash, creams and other products across the region.
She left her house on the outskirts of Kuala Lumpur on Aug. 30, according to police, headed for the town of Banting, near Malaysia's western coast, to discuss a land deal with the brothers, one of whom carries the state title of "Datuk," given to citizens with a history of service to the community.
Sosilawati was accompanied by her driver, Kamarudin Shamsuddin, 44, financial adviser Noorhisham Mohammad, 38, and her lawyer Ahmad Kamil Abdul Karim, 32, all of whom are also missing.
Her BMW was found a week later in Kuala Kumpur. Another luxury car belonging to Ahmad Kamil was later found nearby.
Local media reports have speculated that one of the brothers may have been handling a land deal for Sosilawati in the northern state of Penang. The deal apparently went sour, and Sosilawati may have gone to his farm to demand her money back.
But police are also reportedly investigating whether the two main suspects, both ethnic Indians, may have killed others, including a businessman from India who went missing after coming to Malaysia to meet the brothers.
Both were prominent lawyers who were disbarred last November following a complaint over a property transaction. They are appealing the decision.
Indians make up 8 percent of Malaysia's 28 million people and are frequently stereotyped as criminals, laborers or lawyers. Jayasooria warned against drawing any such conclusions based on ethnicity.
In an opinion piece Wednesday, The Star, Malaysia's biggest daily, called on police to investigate the slayings competently without "lapse or bungling in police procedures that will lead to embarrassment or worse, no conviction later on."
"We do not need more lives to be brutally and senselessly lost," it said in an opinion piece, adding the killing had "all the makings of a chilling blockbuster."
An Email from Syria..a long lost friend
Its a good and positive day today. I've walked the aisle of changes..hope the answer is positive. Even if its not ; put my head high and walk tall. Another door will open nonetheless. Never ever give up. If the rope already end..tie a knot and hang on...another rope will swing by for sure.
A week back I did mentioned in one of my post..that I got back all those long lost friend. They are from all over the world. What makes me happy is...I found back this girl which is in Syria. She worked with travel agent before then moved on to a financial institution. Lost her for about 2 years.
The very first email I received from her..brought me to tears. She still remember me. We exchange email since ; she is very vibrant, positive and full of life. Her ideas and thinking is rather amazing at times. We share common interest of being a book freak and music lover.
Of course we never met each other ; though I hope one day it will happen. Being in middle east ; strict muslim country..things wasn't easy for her but it never did bring her down. Now pursuing her study.
When we talk about middle eastern ; the idea or image that pop in hour head often
prejudice. All thanks to the extremist. When I start to know Dalia ( thats her name)..it change my perception totally. She is very much alive...free spirit..modern
and rainbow like child.
We both now are so much into books and will start our first book mailing to each other. Sadly most of her favourite authors are published in Arabic, not many translated. Oh well...things change..time passed...it shall be one day I hope.
She love it here in this country..she came down here 2 years back but I was unable to meet her up. I had a thought of ..if only a person like her given a chance to stay here...she can do wonders.
Coincidence decides to whom you meet in life. Your heart and your mind decide with whom you want to stay in life. But only destiny decides who gets to stay in your life.
one of her email to me :-
Heeeeeeey,,
It always bad to get back to work after vacation,, I sent the eid on the beach,, of course its shame to call you it beach after I saw penang and langkawi,, but still it is better than the city,, we went a group of friends,, we enjoyed it a lot.. Though it is a little bit hot.
Anyway autumn is coming and this brings me a great joy, it's very romantic,, with little cold breezes.
Yesss dear I do read a lot .. but now I'm really depressed for I enrolled in this master of business administration and it needs a hell of time to study..
But still I can manage to read.. I read this amazing novel .. (name the devil) it got the booker prize for Arabic literature and unfortunately it is not translated yet into other languages,, (can you manage to read in Arabic?? For I wonder do you read Quran in arabic??). if yesss I will send it to you immediately and sure you will enjoy a hell of a time.. it is about religion as you can tell from the title (I think in this part of the world we are still consuming over subjects long forgotten by the world!!)
I read also Paulo coehllo's (eleven minutes is amazing). In addition to some other books related to science and revolution>> do you know that here in syria we don’t teach Darwin theory in schools!!! I think THEY decide in advance what we should think and believe!!!!
Tell me if you are interested in any of these subjects and you will find them knocking on your door!! And do you recommend anything to me??
A week back I did mentioned in one of my post..that I got back all those long lost friend. They are from all over the world. What makes me happy is...I found back this girl which is in Syria. She worked with travel agent before then moved on to a financial institution. Lost her for about 2 years.
The very first email I received from her..brought me to tears. She still remember me. We exchange email since ; she is very vibrant, positive and full of life. Her ideas and thinking is rather amazing at times. We share common interest of being a book freak and music lover.
Of course we never met each other ; though I hope one day it will happen. Being in middle east ; strict muslim country..things wasn't easy for her but it never did bring her down. Now pursuing her study.
When we talk about middle eastern ; the idea or image that pop in hour head often
prejudice. All thanks to the extremist. When I start to know Dalia ( thats her name)..it change my perception totally. She is very much alive...free spirit..modern
and rainbow like child.
We both now are so much into books and will start our first book mailing to each other. Sadly most of her favourite authors are published in Arabic, not many translated. Oh well...things change..time passed...it shall be one day I hope.
She love it here in this country..she came down here 2 years back but I was unable to meet her up. I had a thought of ..if only a person like her given a chance to stay here...she can do wonders.
Coincidence decides to whom you meet in life. Your heart and your mind decide with whom you want to stay in life. But only destiny decides who gets to stay in your life.
one of her email to me :-
Heeeeeeey,,
It always bad to get back to work after vacation,, I sent the eid on the beach,, of course its shame to call you it beach after I saw penang and langkawi,, but still it is better than the city,, we went a group of friends,, we enjoyed it a lot.. Though it is a little bit hot.
Anyway autumn is coming and this brings me a great joy, it's very romantic,, with little cold breezes.
Yesss dear I do read a lot .. but now I'm really depressed for I enrolled in this master of business administration and it needs a hell of time to study..
But still I can manage to read.. I read this amazing novel .. (name the devil) it got the booker prize for Arabic literature and unfortunately it is not translated yet into other languages,, (can you manage to read in Arabic?? For I wonder do you read Quran in arabic??). if yesss I will send it to you immediately and sure you will enjoy a hell of a time.. it is about religion as you can tell from the title (I think in this part of the world we are still consuming over subjects long forgotten by the world!!)
I read also Paulo coehllo's (eleven minutes is amazing). In addition to some other books related to science and revolution>> do you know that here in syria we don’t teach Darwin theory in schools!!! I think THEY decide in advance what we should think and believe!!!!
Tell me if you are interested in any of these subjects and you will find them knocking on your door!! And do you recommend anything to me??
Zealous, eat, sleep and FUN
Its Tuesday....14th of Sep. I got back to KL yesterday. Had a WONDERFUL time, though its not at fun as it used to be like years before but I am happy as all of my siblings are here with my parent this year.
Anne left on Sunday itself with Adny..left my crying half a day. She took care of my nephew for 3 months..days and night ; definately the pinch is there. Me and Phoebe hide behind the pillar and was quick to ran away cause we are cyring too. I spend my days while at home baby sitting him...i can understand how my mom felt. Just hope everything will be alright.
The champion above all was my lover...spend his time laze around, relax, eat and sleep. He really did had a good time. Sit around with my parents and sisters..though its a bit tired to mend him but I guess thats part of holding that status.
This year Eid, we don't have much visitors as we used to have. My dad did not make Lemang this year..he is too old already, to spend half a day by the burning fire ; gonna drain him. That Eid morning we had Nasi Dagang, Rendang, Ketupat pulut and Nasi Impit with kuah kacang. Everyone eat heartily.
2nd day of Eid my mom made Nasi Minyak..hmmm..eat and eat again. Later that afternoon..none stop visitor. Both of my sister went to town and did not comeback till late evening. I so drain from making drinks and washing the dishes. That night i put my legs up and laze around.
I left for KL at about 11am and reach almost 2.30pm. Meet up with Kakak for a while then slept off.
Very few people in the office today...feel like to go home and sleep. I got big day tommorow at 4pm. Hopefully everything will go well.
Eid Mubarak !
Its almost a month ; Ramadan will end in couple of days..I m going back home
to my parents tommorow just right after morning breakfast. My routine still on...at 4am..missed it few days.
Overall, this Ramadhan is a wonderdul and blessing. Found several long lost friend. And this morning I bump into someone that I long wanted to meet up. The last I saw her was 10 years ago...we hug and cry together in the bus. It was while I m going to work today. I am blessed that all those that known to me still treat me well even
it has been donkey years missing in action.
This year raya gonna be wonderful as all 3 of us sisters is back. Both Anne and Phoebe will be arriving on Thursday only. Me and Shan will be tommorow.
I made whole list to do since I did not pack anything yet. My luggage is also 'somewhere' in the house..got to go and hunt for it.
I M SO EXCITED !...hope this Aidilfitri bring new chapter for me, my family and of course all those who loved me...
Worth Reading....
This post was at the early stage of my blogging moment. Still bring tears to my eyes...
I pick this up from one of the email sent to me, read it before years back as I can recall it...and its worth sharing. Even for a moment something good that we do makes a different in anyone's life ; that alone is a blessing.
At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves children with learning disabilities, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its
dedicated staff, he offered a question:
'When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does, is done with perfection.
Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do.
Where is the natural order of things in my son?'
The audience was stilled by the query.
The father continued. 'I believe that when a child like Shay, who was mentally and physically disabled comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.'
Then he told the following story:
Shay and I had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, 'Do you think they'll let me play?' I knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but as a father I also understood that if my son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.
I approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, 'We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.'
Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. I watched with a small tear in my eye and warmth in my heart. The boys saw my joy at my son being accepted.
In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three.
In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as I waved to him from the stands.
In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again..
Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.
At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game?
Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.
However, as Shay stepped up to the
plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact.
The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed.
The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.
As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.
The game would now be over.
The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman.
Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.
Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates.
Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, 'Shay, run to first!
Run to first!'
Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base.
He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.
Everyone yelled, 'Run to second, run to second!'
Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base.
B y the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball . the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team.
He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.
Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, 'Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay'
Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, 'Run to third!
Shay, run to third!'
As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, 'Shay, run home! Run home!'
Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team
'That day', said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, 'the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world'.
Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making me so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!
I pick this up from one of the email sent to me, read it before years back as I can recall it...and its worth sharing. Even for a moment something good that we do makes a different in anyone's life ; that alone is a blessing.
At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves children with learning disabilities, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its
dedicated staff, he offered a question:
'When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does, is done with perfection.
Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do.
Where is the natural order of things in my son?'
The audience was stilled by the query.
The father continued. 'I believe that when a child like Shay, who was mentally and physically disabled comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.'
Then he told the following story:
Shay and I had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, 'Do you think they'll let me play?' I knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but as a father I also understood that if my son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.
I approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, 'We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.'
Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. I watched with a small tear in my eye and warmth in my heart. The boys saw my joy at my son being accepted.
In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three.
In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as I waved to him from the stands.
In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again..
Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.
At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game?
Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.
However, as Shay stepped up to the
plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact.
The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed.
The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.
As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.
The game would now be over.
The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman.
Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.
Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates.
Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, 'Shay, run to first!
Run to first!'
Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base.
He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.
Everyone yelled, 'Run to second, run to second!'
Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base.
B y the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball . the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team.
He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.
Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, 'Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay'
Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, 'Run to third!
Shay, run to third!'
As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, 'Shay, run home! Run home!'
Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team
'That day', said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, 'the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world'.
Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making me so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!
Something Fun !
Took one quiz on whats important to me symbolize as follows :-
Animal ..arraged by my favourite...
1) Tiger - Pride
2) Horse - Family
3) Sheep - Love
4) Cow - Career
5) Pig - Money
- no wonder am poor... :)
Who and who in my life symbolize by color ...ironicly TRUE
1) Yellow - Someone You never forget @ My God father ; Daddyji
2) Orange - True Friend ; Janu
3) Red - Lover ; Shan is Shaun
4) White - Twin soul ; Anne..my sister
5) Green - Someone you always remember ; Dev Anand
Life symbolize by animal....
1) Dog to me is CUTE - thats ME...
2) Cat t ome is CUTE - that my lover which is true...
3) Rat to me..i HATE it - That my enemy if ever i had one...or two
4) Coffee to me is NICE - Thats the intimacy ...hmm..it is fantablouls...
5) Sea to me is SOOTHES - Thats how my life is...again its true...
Me, him, HIS MOM and Steamboat - Supprise ! Supprise !
Celebrating 53 years of Independent on Tuesday. Its public holiday here....did my morning routine by 4am. Pain the whole body again...but it was good run.
Got up late, laze around and he took me to his mom. Which to my surprise cause I honestly did not aspect him to do so. When i wind about going to his place...its was more about to wander cause i never been there before.
But all went well, am glad in a way. The least now its known and we can move forward better. Its not so much of me being myself as I carry myself very well. I stand strong on the ground of being a good and humble human. The major issue of course stands on our religion. I don't even want to go deeper into this matter. All I can say at this moment is...to wait and see. If there is a second visit soon then thing should be alright. Should it does not turn the way we want it, then ...hmmm....I will cross the bridge when the time comes. All I know this man love me to my bone...me as a daughter while he as a son..both of us have to HANDLE THIS MATTER WITH CARE.
His mom is really beautiful and I can see she is kind hearted person. Simple and humble. Hard life makes her wiser and cautious. I mean so does my parent..hard life made what they are today...settle and happy. Cause they have huge umbrella for rainy days...which at times..we also come for shelter when its our rainy days...
The back log on things that I should be doing is still there. I am being denied my right to get what I suppose to get as a citizen. At times this country really screw up seriously...had to fight my way to get things done...wrestle the logic out of them and things are still THERE...i hate it..
Last night me and him went to a steamboat restaurant. Tasty Pot Restaurant BBQ Buffet Steamboat, located in Sunway. Its super good..i love that place...cool of my burning heart a bit. We ate heartily...and me just love the mud crabs, prawns, scalops..god..name it ..over 150 items to choose. Even the sesame chicken wing is nice too...had 2 cups of ice cream..a pot of chinese tea. Its very affordable..and good spot for family gathering too.
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