Ms Egoism

That's what I m called today. This come from series of anonymous comment on one of my Blog Post - Godspeed. Makes me a very sad lioness today.

I have no slight idea who this person is, but obviously I have done something that upset him...and I upset him BIG TIME, that force him to go in hiding and give such comment under ANONYMOUS. One thing for sure, this person are not my close friend..or those who really know me, walk my path. If he/she have walked with me on my journey..these comment won't exist.

...well u "preach but don't practice"
......u have full of ego all over your body
......you are ruining your life under your attitude.
.......ask not what i have done for you but ask what u have done for me.
.......you will fail one day soon with your own selfishness attitude.
.......don blow your own trumpet.
...I'm not hiding but you made me to hide....ask yourself how Ms. egotism

Everyone has their ups and down of life...its not a bed of roses all the time. So does my life...till today I m still trying to fit in. I failed so many times, so many times. Still I have to get up and go.

What I am today is totally a different person comparing to who am I 2 years ago. I do hold such a rebellious character but it is not as much as what I am now. My rebellious now is all about me protecting and shielding myself.

All because, over the years I m tired of being used, lied and get into broken despair with the reason I failed to love myself first. Always others come into my life first. Not even my family come this close either. I m chasing something that is not there...at the end its a huge failure, humiliation..wounded so many soul.

I took one year to find my own soul, who I am really. What I do wanted for this life. The most that i got in this one year was...I LOVE MYSELF..i finally got the lesson in me. I do really LOVE MYSELF, hence the shield is build...defensive.

When we are high in the sky, everyone is with us..but once we are down below..only
me myself and I..that's all.

I rise from a lamb into a lioness, taken from the wild but she still have the wilderness in her.

I don't owe this ANONYMOUS anything, even if I did also...he may come forward and claimed it from me, reason out with me. What I want to say here is, walk in my shoes first before passing remarks.

For my follower here and on email...those who know me for 10 years more...he/she would know better who am I.