One day a man was walking along the beach when he noticed a boy picking something up and gently throwing it into the ocean. Approaching the boy, he asked,What are you doing?
The youth replied, Throwing starfish back into the ocean. The surf is up and the tide is going out. If I dont throw them back, they'll die. Son,the man said, don't you realize there are miles and miles of beach and hundreds of starfish? You can't make a difference!
After listening politely, the boy bent down, picked up another starfish,
and threw it back into the surf. Then, smiling at the man, he said
"I made a difference for that one"
We all knew about this story. How positive attitude and right state of mind changes gives an impact towards our life ; with or without us realizing it. We can do anything that we want to do as long as we believe in it.
It is true of course. We cannot change the world but we can change ourselves to make a difference.
Now, to stand in and be that person who wish to make a different is not one easy job. Nobody says its easy anyway. We carry that positive attitude, positive mind set and fighting spirit to keep us alive.
Mind you, we are one person against the rest of the world. That takes lots of positiveness.
How do we keep that positive energy alive? We look up to those who has done it successfully. We looked to a better place than our home country. We used our daily experience to set an expectations or formula ; if this is done this way ...its gonna be like this. If we failed, try again and again and again.
That expectations often become an illusion for you to keep going on. Soon one will create a world of its own.
When we looked up to someone or something we often see what we want to see. The reality at the back of us often being ignored because we believe is making the difference.
Dealing with human is as ever known as something pain rather than pleasure. Mental state and attitude takes time to evolved. We are the rare ones went ahead of the rest around us. Trying to be human and play God a bit here and there.
Lets take an example of average human attitude. Insurance policy holder ; how many of us here knew what is our entitlement or benefit are ? or what is the procedure should any emergency arise ? I can bet from only 10%. The balance 90% will wait until they are hit by a lorry or on death bed at ER to check the policy validity ; if this is covered under their purchased policy which probably has been for about 10 years ago. All they do is make payment monthly blindly without knowing anything about it.
The 10% that knew are all those who has an advance mindset.
Next is for premium credit or charge card holder. Banking product nowadays are very competitive. Premium product came with premium benefits. Now, for one to utilize a premium service it takes also a premium mind or mentality. Otherwise, the service provider to this premium benefits will often being abuse verbally or mentally because of this low class mentality of premium card holder.
The reason is ironic. I have money and I am the one who pay your salary. This superior money or richness class attitude happen is develop countries, especially in Asia. In the West, its a different story. They had achieve level of advancement where everyone knows their right. They are more independent and best of all their social plus welfare benefits are excellent.
Trust me, dealing with superior richness in Asia is pain in the butt. Ridiculous and often silly. Who on earth would want to use a premium benefits to source for Shopping Mall in Penang just because you want to use your premium card. Or what kind mentality stage are you when you are using the premium benefits to find you rental provider for Karaoke set. Let alone that these superior rich drove big and expensive cars but don't even know where the engine oil it.
Its like ...you are dumb its ok just don't infected it to me...
To move alongside with these advancement achievement we of course have to copy and paste. During the period of evolution from one level to another, there shall be cuts and bruises, trial and error. Averagely Fifty years down the road, only then it will achieved desired premium quality.
Why that long ? Its a Generation gap. I am from Generation X. Having to deal with mental attitude from Baby Boomers era is like slicing own skin and squeeze with lemon. It is undeniable fact that there are Baby Boomers who came out well and fine. Those are the ones that create such an advancement these days.
Lets go back to our local issue. Take for example our national carrier. Pride of the nation. Making losses as long as I can remember. Reason being, chronism, bureaucracy and politics interference. Who are those sitting on top ? Its a generation from after war whilst now we are welcoming generation Y. Its a difficult conflict that narrow down to attitude and mental state.
If we were to go into details measuring the mental state of our local authorities, you and I will end up in hospital due to blood pressure on the rise. Its not good for our soul to hold anger - so to speak ! Reality in front of our eyes is a different thing !..damm it at times all these are such a bluff.
People say that if we can't change people we change our attitude. Yes, that is correct. But did they also tell you that when we change our attitude to make a difference it comes with expectations ?
Did it tell you that you have to retain the level of this positiveness so that you will sink in despair ?
Did it informed you how to trouble shoot when you feel helpless standing against human attitude when you had exhausted all your level best and it is still not enough ?
It is also said that you do not have to proof yourself to anyone but yourself. Hell that's is what I am doing! I am proving to me, myself and I that I can make a different
But why on earth that there is such a damm pain in my heart when the sky is not as blue as it should be or the sun does not shine with my right attitude ? Why ?
Is it because I care too much ? NO I do not ! I am just one human trying to live peacefully in this world of yours ...the end !
Can I walked away and let things be the way it is because I can't do anything about it ? Yes I can but guess what, dealing with human through out this evolution process..its going to be the same over and over again until you rise to the top of food chain.
If you manage to rise otherwise all you can do is avoid it. Live in our own happy land, away from those negativity. If not why does it is said that positive attitude are contagious...are yours worth catching!
I do not want to be that boy who collect those star fish and threw them back into the sea...maybe not all the times. Because no matter how we put an effort to make a difference it is often aint' enough. There is no exact measurement of how much is much or how less is less.
Be selfish, continue living, take care of yourself, your love ones. Value those who value you.
If you need to find a new field to work and play, hell with it ! Just Do It ! otherwise you will end up pick up star fish all your life. Just ponder once in a while, if you are stranded is there a helping hand for you OR you had to kick your own but to get back into your own life...
Don't chase after success, chase after capability. If you are capable of anything, then success will be chasing you
Don't chase after success, chase after capability. If you are capable of anything, then success will be chasing you
Self motivator, need that quite a bit lately. Perhaps my friend were right, I had gone soft. It is really that I am sitting on comfort zone of victory or is it that I am actually building the comfort level for my own self all these while. Refuse to know or deal with those things or surrounding that I knew its gonna be pain at heart.
Thus, I choose to sneer lots of negativity as I call it. Maybe those negativity are actually challenge to make my path stronger. Human at heart, we always seek what comfort us the most.
It is true that too much self confident will turn into stage of denial. We are actually comforting ourselves on our action so its make sense or reason to our own self. Self assurance due to fear or regret or down fall.
After weeks battle of everything, I finally come to my senses. Breathing space finally, not much but it better than nothing. Self evaluate again..god knows how many times I have done this.
This self evaluation makes me realize how fragile I am. The least I am normal human, I am not a pretender. I can't pretend that all are OK and hide things in my heart as what it is before. If there is a need to breakdown..hell I will. Of course I will have to take a great pain and agony first before the shield shattered.
What the level of my limit? It has no barrier or measurement against anything because it me, myself and I. You can't compare an apple to an orange. Everyone has their own limit that's for sure. Its just how long can you hang in before it finally shattered.
Repair work in progress now. This shield almost shattered, now repairing the cracks. Can't make it like new of course, let that patches be a good reminder so that the next time a crack about to happen I will for sure stand as tough as I can..
..because I know for sure the shield will definitely heal as good as new when the victory is mine once again.
As I use to brag about it many times...Come what may I will give that challenge hell of a fight..bring it on !
Self motivator, need that quite a bit lately. Perhaps my friend were right, I had gone soft. It is really that I am sitting on comfort zone of victory or is it that I am actually building the comfort level for my own self all these while. Refuse to know or deal with those things or surrounding that I knew its gonna be pain at heart.
Thus, I choose to sneer lots of negativity as I call it. Maybe those negativity are actually challenge to make my path stronger. Human at heart, we always seek what comfort us the most.
It is true that too much self confident will turn into stage of denial. We are actually comforting ourselves on our action so its make sense or reason to our own self. Self assurance due to fear or regret or down fall.
After weeks battle of everything, I finally come to my senses. Breathing space finally, not much but it better than nothing. Self evaluate again..god knows how many times I have done this.
This self evaluation makes me realize how fragile I am. The least I am normal human, I am not a pretender. I can't pretend that all are OK and hide things in my heart as what it is before. If there is a need to breakdown..hell I will. Of course I will have to take a great pain and agony first before the shield shattered.
What the level of my limit? It has no barrier or measurement against anything because it me, myself and I. You can't compare an apple to an orange. Everyone has their own limit that's for sure. Its just how long can you hang in before it finally shattered.
Repair work in progress now. This shield almost shattered, now repairing the cracks. Can't make it like new of course, let that patches be a good reminder so that the next time a crack about to happen I will for sure stand as tough as I can..
..because I know for sure the shield will definitely heal as good as new when the victory is mine once again.
As I use to brag about it many times...Come what may I will give that challenge hell of a fight..bring it on !
"In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity." - Albert Einstein
"Yesterday is but today's memory, tomorrow is today's dream." - Kahlil Gibran
As complicated as it may sound...it is true though. Somehow things just go back and forth in between you are juggling with your daily life. Life itself is task, there is not guide book or LIFE for dummies out there. Its just what you made of it and how you walk through it that matters.
When I joined this great company, my ambition is really clear. Where I want to be and what I want to do. Every step taken carefully carved so the least it heads where it supposed to be. Hence, opportunity to return back to travel line passed by my doors like there is no tomorrow. Suddenly every other friends are looking for senior and experience personnel to assist their full hands. Hiring newbies is a challenge it seems.
Well the news is, my heart just fear to go back to the field where I knew in detail what is all about. My new field now is full of new things to learn and pursue.
Then in the mid when opportunity came, I am unfit to accept the offer. The task given to carry our national flag and travel abroad represent the nation had to be forgotten and let go. All because of my diagnosis.
My superior made that offer obviously of my capability. I am proud to be in the list selected. Exactly one year in the company I shine. All because of hard work. Hard work always pays off.
I had a deep thought and consult my doctor before any decision made. Its one of the hardest I must say. To let go a dream is not something easy to do. It takes courage and strong will power. I am blessed to have that strong love for myself. This shield of loving myself first, impact the decision one way or another.
Health is ones treasure. Money can buy health yes, but I am not in that rank. So to speak, I let go of this opportunity due to my health. As much as I want to chase my dream, I can't do it if I am not fit.
Yesterday was the day that I just want to stay in bed and lick my own wounds. I felt heavy and empty at the same time. Today was a better day. Grey in a way but I choose to heal the wound. Take a step to improve my health. I can stay wounded for ever but what good does it do. Shan took me out for dinner, he tries his level best to cheer me up. Even my clone Joanna tries to make me change my mind.
It is said that opportunity came knocking at the point you least expected. I believe life isn't that bad. There is always reason for everything. We might not get the answer now, the best it leave it as it is. Sooner or later we will know why it is not ours. Even if there is no answer to it,... let it be. Sometimes
things are best to left unanswered.
What tomorrow would be? I do not know. But I know what I am going to do and where I am gonna be. The rest is in HIS hand. I did not leave it to HIM to do the planning, I do have plan...that alone for me is good enough.
HE won't let me carry something that I can't bear. That is a certainty. If it is too heavy for me, all I have to say is...Dear GOD ! a little help here please...I can't carry this anymore.
As complicated as it may sound...it is true though. Somehow things just go back and forth in between you are juggling with your daily life. Life itself is task, there is not guide book or LIFE for dummies out there. Its just what you made of it and how you walk through it that matters.
When I joined this great company, my ambition is really clear. Where I want to be and what I want to do. Every step taken carefully carved so the least it heads where it supposed to be. Hence, opportunity to return back to travel line passed by my doors like there is no tomorrow. Suddenly every other friends are looking for senior and experience personnel to assist their full hands. Hiring newbies is a challenge it seems.
Well the news is, my heart just fear to go back to the field where I knew in detail what is all about. My new field now is full of new things to learn and pursue.
Then in the mid when opportunity came, I am unfit to accept the offer. The task given to carry our national flag and travel abroad represent the nation had to be forgotten and let go. All because of my diagnosis.
My superior made that offer obviously of my capability. I am proud to be in the list selected. Exactly one year in the company I shine. All because of hard work. Hard work always pays off.
I had a deep thought and consult my doctor before any decision made. Its one of the hardest I must say. To let go a dream is not something easy to do. It takes courage and strong will power. I am blessed to have that strong love for myself. This shield of loving myself first, impact the decision one way or another.
Health is ones treasure. Money can buy health yes, but I am not in that rank. So to speak, I let go of this opportunity due to my health. As much as I want to chase my dream, I can't do it if I am not fit.
Yesterday was the day that I just want to stay in bed and lick my own wounds. I felt heavy and empty at the same time. Today was a better day. Grey in a way but I choose to heal the wound. Take a step to improve my health. I can stay wounded for ever but what good does it do. Shan took me out for dinner, he tries his level best to cheer me up. Even my clone Joanna tries to make me change my mind.
It is said that opportunity came knocking at the point you least expected. I believe life isn't that bad. There is always reason for everything. We might not get the answer now, the best it leave it as it is. Sooner or later we will know why it is not ours. Even if there is no answer to it,... let it be. Sometimes
things are best to left unanswered.
What tomorrow would be? I do not know. But I know what I am going to do and where I am gonna be. The rest is in HIS hand. I did not leave it to HIM to do the planning, I do have plan...that alone for me is good enough.
HE won't let me carry something that I can't bear. That is a certainty. If it is too heavy for me, all I have to say is...Dear GOD ! a little help here please...I can't carry this anymore.
Regrets, I had a few...but then again too few to mentioned...
Armed with feather duster....dusting away this blog of mine. Been ages since any last update here. Time..just could not find the time to do this lately. Pretty occupied by changes and new challenge that just knock on my door recently.
Tough road ; very bumpy ride. Cut and bruises is a norm to me nowadays. It just keep piling up on top of what another.
I m standing strong and steady. Nothing can bring me down. I will tackle this with brave heart. Give those challenge hell of a fight.
Tough time at work nowadays, not because of the job but because of not enough staff. My working time table is back to back, really tiring at times. Lucky for me, our team bond are so strong. We rely on each other for support to the maximum. This wall that we have are solid, can be tougher if we blend together more. Nothing then can bring us down.
There is a recent invader in the office, drives us to the wall. I wonder at times how does people cannot realize their attitude so annoying. Collective respond and behaviour from many against one person ; still the own self did not realize ..you just don't fit it. Your attitude ain't right.
I told my superior just the other day...Wise person speaks because there have important thing to say. Fools speak because it is important for them to say something.
It is said that don't be a hater because when we judge someone, we don't define them but we define ourselves. Hmmm....try and stand on the same floor as we does with this one human character. Then we talk.
My health decline rapidly, with weight issue seems there is no boundaries of it. Pull up all the courage I went to consult a Gynecologist. Little that I knew, what ever problem that I have to date is related
from one another.
After diagnosis confirm, here comes the medication. I never received such tables in my life. One month supply of 90 over tablets. Once consume, this tablet kind of solve most issues that I have.
All these I take a baby step to do it. Of course I am ambitious enough to run on the treadmill everyday or swim every other day. But that kind of rush activity will only last short term. Its not easy to get a way from the norm. When people say determination, agony and pain...feel every of it then the victory is as sweet as it can get.
I am bless that it is not cancerous. Though it can lead to that in many years to come if treatment is not sought.
I feel much much better these days. Most important I start to eat right and watch my diet carefully. It feel good when results are showing. I am back on track to what I used to be.
Along the way as well, a friend introduce MonaVie juice to me. After taking it for about a week, I can say for the first time in months I slept well and woke up with high vitality.
The worst thing that happen resulting from all these was the medical bill. Sadly, it cost a bomb, beyond what I can afford as middle class range. There is no point to say how I wish I have this and that. It is of course not too late for the cure, it does help if prevention is taken at early stage.
Value health. It is the greatest thing one can have. Dollar and cent does not have value if we can't enjoy what we want to do.
I've come to a point where I am done seeing someones adventure. I want create my own adventure and going places again. The only way one can achieve that is by having an excellent state of health.
Tough road ; very bumpy ride. Cut and bruises is a norm to me nowadays. It just keep piling up on top of what another.
I m standing strong and steady. Nothing can bring me down. I will tackle this with brave heart. Give those challenge hell of a fight.
Tough time at work nowadays, not because of the job but because of not enough staff. My working time table is back to back, really tiring at times. Lucky for me, our team bond are so strong. We rely on each other for support to the maximum. This wall that we have are solid, can be tougher if we blend together more. Nothing then can bring us down.
There is a recent invader in the office, drives us to the wall. I wonder at times how does people cannot realize their attitude so annoying. Collective respond and behaviour from many against one person ; still the own self did not realize ..you just don't fit it. Your attitude ain't right.
I told my superior just the other day...Wise person speaks because there have important thing to say. Fools speak because it is important for them to say something.
It is said that don't be a hater because when we judge someone, we don't define them but we define ourselves. Hmmm....try and stand on the same floor as we does with this one human character. Then we talk.
My health decline rapidly, with weight issue seems there is no boundaries of it. Pull up all the courage I went to consult a Gynecologist. Little that I knew, what ever problem that I have to date is related
from one another.
After diagnosis confirm, here comes the medication. I never received such tables in my life. One month supply of 90 over tablets. Once consume, this tablet kind of solve most issues that I have.
All these I take a baby step to do it. Of course I am ambitious enough to run on the treadmill everyday or swim every other day. But that kind of rush activity will only last short term. Its not easy to get a way from the norm. When people say determination, agony and pain...feel every of it then the victory is as sweet as it can get.
I am bless that it is not cancerous. Though it can lead to that in many years to come if treatment is not sought.
I feel much much better these days. Most important I start to eat right and watch my diet carefully. It feel good when results are showing. I am back on track to what I used to be.
Along the way as well, a friend introduce MonaVie juice to me. After taking it for about a week, I can say for the first time in months I slept well and woke up with high vitality.
The worst thing that happen resulting from all these was the medical bill. Sadly, it cost a bomb, beyond what I can afford as middle class range. There is no point to say how I wish I have this and that. It is of course not too late for the cure, it does help if prevention is taken at early stage.
Value health. It is the greatest thing one can have. Dollar and cent does not have value if we can't enjoy what we want to do.
I've come to a point where I am done seeing someones adventure. I want create my own adventure and going places again. The only way one can achieve that is by having an excellent state of health.
Don't let people drive you crazy when you know it's in walking distance...
Lately, seems my think box are rather drain with idea on what to update or share in this blog world. Often ideas or sharing moments knock upon but it sailed away somehow. Suddenly you felt these ideas or thoughts of yours in not important as it is.
Maybe I was too much busy squeezing my brain to have more solid input or rather more public issue so this blog of mine can look more impressive. Thus, as result whatever I felt or gotten into as personal experience was more or less irrelevant to share cause I believe that this blog should not all the time be about me,myself and I.
Honestly I m kind a frustrated with it. I am just a face in a crowd. Day to day experience is enough to make my mind ponder. Ambitious to take this piece of life sharing to a new level.
Often it is left as ambitions, as I am not doing anything seriously, to take it to the next level. How it suppose to improve when nothing much is being done.
I am ambitious to write about politic, economy, global issue or if its just a comment of things that happen in our daily newspaper (Seriously, nowadays no need to watch any horror movies, just read the tabloid. You spine get the same chill). I do love to be a good commenter. Soon enough I hope.
To reach to that level, I myself need to make a positive difference first. I do know I am not doing it enough. Though is better than nothing still it can be excellent.
My passion is still writing or rather blogging. So to speak, I will still continue to input whatever it is that crossed my path, my life and those surrounding me. If I were to wait for more solid and public readable input, down the road I will need a broom and brush to clean this web from cob web...and dust. While my heart ache to write or let go what is inside my heart.
There.....I feel so relief ! I guess it is very much true, don't leave in the expectation of others. When you do, your heart just ache. Well mine is. Or I shall put it this way....
When we have ambitions and plan to do something for life improvement. Friends and love ones will support the plan with few input of improvise of course. The come along the expectations. You have plan...and..well where is it ? then came along excuses..well..hmmm..its in progress....then...blink blink nothing happen.
If it takes another several years before this blog become something, let it be. In the mean time, I will enjoy every bit of time I have before my mind fails me.
Changes is good, changes is bad...depend on how we see it. Either way, at one point everyone change. To paddle this boat of living or life there is not guide book on how to do it. Its yourself, people around you and some religious believe on the existence of HIM up there that makes what a person is. Most important is the believe that you have in you. Continue to walk on the path that you believe in. Of course if the whole world is against it, then better stop and have a good look on .
Just yesterday a chat friend of mine told me (twice) that he is lonely and bored which I give him a piece of my mind resulting he block me from his contact. Maybe I was too hard. All I said was, life is short..appreciate what you have rather than what you do not have. Complaining about boredom or loneliness won't bring you anywhere. It would melt some bimbo's heart and the news is am not one of it. I don't waste my time thinking how sad my life is cause I have nothing to be un-grateful about.
Just a few days ago, a close buddy of mine ; their relationship is parting away. Insecurity kills, not stable mental state also kills and too much suspicious also kills. There is no right or wrong in both of them, its the failure of both who fail to stay connected. If one person gives in all the time in hoping the other half will change to realize how great his love is...its just a waste of time. He or She is not ready to trust you, why bother. Leave each other peacefully. Hurt! yes but no one will die for sure. It is not Devdas stage even...far from it.
Just a weeks ago my ex college mate which is a sister to me wrote a message to her late father. This one is one hell of a cyber cry. Which later made me indulge into is so much since there was a storm in my family lately. To me parent is always parents. They can be pain in a butt at times. We spend all our youth trying to move away from them cause we want to paddle our own life. Then as we aged, we spend our matured life tyring to value them cause they were at the end of their life journey. Come what may when it comes to parents it just very complex issue though. Not like there is a spare parts sold out there as replacement.
Just a few weeks ago, I came across an angry taxi driver who frustrated with the government. Failure to get aid in terms of loans and government housing application. He felt cornered and victimize. Government is not doing good enough to protect our people. Standard of living on the rise, foreigners invasion and yet we all are still struggling to meet ends need. I heard all of these in great despair. Nothing much I can do except to feel sorry for him. I am also an end user like him. I don't born on silver spoon either. This was one of the longest ride home though its only 15 minutes from office to my house. Cab meter shows the same cost but I do honestly felt its very long ride. I don't feel sorry for myself of course. I makes me realize my life is much much better. May god has mercy on his soul and ease his path.
Just two weeks ago, new person came as a leader to replace our departed leader. Not a cool start I would say. I feel so frustrated as first impression already blown away. Imagine when you are in a sanctuary then all of sudden tornado came and hit. Suddenly you realize that you are not in Kansas anymore. The different is Dorothy has a pair of ruby slippers while I don't. Thus, put our head high and walk through this changes. If first impression is a burn mark then, better be careful so it will not burn twice. My friend said to me, don't abandon the ship cause of termite invasion, get a pest control. Show them who is in charge.
There is a saying. Two types of people....one will walk into a room and say 'Here I am' while another one will say "Ahh...there you are".
I am not ready to say goodbye to the previous leader yet. Its nice to see him around in my own world.
If I am happy for him why does there is a 'lost' feeling inside of me. The whole situation ain't the same anymore. Losing him is a bitter thing for all of us in the team. One unsubscribe feeling...its like someone just died....thats how close I dare to say.
Let go....let it go...things change and people grow..still am not ready to say goodbye yet....he is still around with us here. Not one day my heart did not ponder ....how I wish he is here...anytime we laugh our lung out...each of us will have the same wish....dammm it hurt !
Oh well...never take side on anyone, just stand on what is rightfully is. Bite when your tail are step on or if anyone kick your head. Bottom line fight when is it necessary.
Give everyone a fair chance on benefit of doubt. People come and go in a company. People grow and scout for greener pasture all the time. Who has left let it be that way. We remain in each other's good book. In this cyber world is not hard to keep in touch. We 'talk' more on Facebook, we text message more than reality of the virtual ability of speaking to each other.
In my work line, we are talking average 90% of the whole 13 hours of shift. Silent is a golden....while duck tape is silver, trust me. After hours you really need one...that duck tape I mean.
People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within. ~Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
Maybe I was too much busy squeezing my brain to have more solid input or rather more public issue so this blog of mine can look more impressive. Thus, as result whatever I felt or gotten into as personal experience was more or less irrelevant to share cause I believe that this blog should not all the time be about me,myself and I.
Honestly I m kind a frustrated with it. I am just a face in a crowd. Day to day experience is enough to make my mind ponder. Ambitious to take this piece of life sharing to a new level.
Often it is left as ambitions, as I am not doing anything seriously, to take it to the next level. How it suppose to improve when nothing much is being done.
I am ambitious to write about politic, economy, global issue or if its just a comment of things that happen in our daily newspaper (Seriously, nowadays no need to watch any horror movies, just read the tabloid. You spine get the same chill). I do love to be a good commenter. Soon enough I hope.
To reach to that level, I myself need to make a positive difference first. I do know I am not doing it enough. Though is better than nothing still it can be excellent.
My passion is still writing or rather blogging. So to speak, I will still continue to input whatever it is that crossed my path, my life and those surrounding me. If I were to wait for more solid and public readable input, down the road I will need a broom and brush to clean this web from cob web...and dust. While my heart ache to write or let go what is inside my heart.
There.....I feel so relief ! I guess it is very much true, don't leave in the expectation of others. When you do, your heart just ache. Well mine is. Or I shall put it this way....
When we have ambitions and plan to do something for life improvement. Friends and love ones will support the plan with few input of improvise of course. The come along the expectations. You have plan...and..well where is it ? then came along excuses..well..hmmm..its in progress....then...blink blink nothing happen.
If it takes another several years before this blog become something, let it be. In the mean time, I will enjoy every bit of time I have before my mind fails me.
Changes is good, changes is bad...depend on how we see it. Either way, at one point everyone change. To paddle this boat of living or life there is not guide book on how to do it. Its yourself, people around you and some religious believe on the existence of HIM up there that makes what a person is. Most important is the believe that you have in you. Continue to walk on the path that you believe in. Of course if the whole world is against it, then better stop and have a good look on .
Just yesterday a chat friend of mine told me (twice) that he is lonely and bored which I give him a piece of my mind resulting he block me from his contact. Maybe I was too hard. All I said was, life is short..appreciate what you have rather than what you do not have. Complaining about boredom or loneliness won't bring you anywhere. It would melt some bimbo's heart and the news is am not one of it. I don't waste my time thinking how sad my life is cause I have nothing to be un-grateful about.
Just a few days ago, a close buddy of mine ; their relationship is parting away. Insecurity kills, not stable mental state also kills and too much suspicious also kills. There is no right or wrong in both of them, its the failure of both who fail to stay connected. If one person gives in all the time in hoping the other half will change to realize how great his love is...its just a waste of time. He or She is not ready to trust you, why bother. Leave each other peacefully. Hurt! yes but no one will die for sure. It is not Devdas stage even...far from it.
Just a weeks ago my ex college mate which is a sister to me wrote a message to her late father. This one is one hell of a cyber cry. Which later made me indulge into is so much since there was a storm in my family lately. To me parent is always parents. They can be pain in a butt at times. We spend all our youth trying to move away from them cause we want to paddle our own life. Then as we aged, we spend our matured life tyring to value them cause they were at the end of their life journey. Come what may when it comes to parents it just very complex issue though. Not like there is a spare parts sold out there as replacement.
Just a few weeks ago, I came across an angry taxi driver who frustrated with the government. Failure to get aid in terms of loans and government housing application. He felt cornered and victimize. Government is not doing good enough to protect our people. Standard of living on the rise, foreigners invasion and yet we all are still struggling to meet ends need. I heard all of these in great despair. Nothing much I can do except to feel sorry for him. I am also an end user like him. I don't born on silver spoon either. This was one of the longest ride home though its only 15 minutes from office to my house. Cab meter shows the same cost but I do honestly felt its very long ride. I don't feel sorry for myself of course. I makes me realize my life is much much better. May god has mercy on his soul and ease his path.
Just two weeks ago, new person came as a leader to replace our departed leader. Not a cool start I would say. I feel so frustrated as first impression already blown away. Imagine when you are in a sanctuary then all of sudden tornado came and hit. Suddenly you realize that you are not in Kansas anymore. The different is Dorothy has a pair of ruby slippers while I don't. Thus, put our head high and walk through this changes. If first impression is a burn mark then, better be careful so it will not burn twice. My friend said to me, don't abandon the ship cause of termite invasion, get a pest control. Show them who is in charge.
There is a saying. Two types of people....one will walk into a room and say 'Here I am' while another one will say "Ahh...there you are".
I am not ready to say goodbye to the previous leader yet. Its nice to see him around in my own world.
If I am happy for him why does there is a 'lost' feeling inside of me. The whole situation ain't the same anymore. Losing him is a bitter thing for all of us in the team. One unsubscribe feeling...its like someone just died....thats how close I dare to say.
Let go....let it go...things change and people grow..still am not ready to say goodbye yet....he is still around with us here. Not one day my heart did not ponder ....how I wish he is here...anytime we laugh our lung out...each of us will have the same wish....dammm it hurt !
Oh well...never take side on anyone, just stand on what is rightfully is. Bite when your tail are step on or if anyone kick your head. Bottom line fight when is it necessary.
Give everyone a fair chance on benefit of doubt. People come and go in a company. People grow and scout for greener pasture all the time. Who has left let it be that way. We remain in each other's good book. In this cyber world is not hard to keep in touch. We 'talk' more on Facebook, we text message more than reality of the virtual ability of speaking to each other.
In my work line, we are talking average 90% of the whole 13 hours of shift. Silent is a golden....while duck tape is silver, trust me. After hours you really need one...that duck tape I mean.
People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within. ~Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
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A woman is like a tea bag- you never know how strong she is until she gets in hot water ~ Eleanor Roosevelt
Link : http://www.cnn.com/2011/10/07/world/world-nobel-peace-prize/index.html?hpt=hp_t2
Three Women's right activist share Nobel Peace Prize. Liberian President Ellen Johnson Sirleat, activist Leymah Gbowee of Liberia and right activist Tawakkul Karman of Yemen share this year's Nobel Peace Prize, the Norwegian Nobel Committee announced Friday.
"The Norwegian Nobel Committee said it hopes that the prize will help end suppression of women in many countries and to "realize the great potential for democracy and peace that women can represent."
The award, which includes a cash prize (10 million Swedish kronor, or about U.S. $1.4 million) will be shared in three equal parts among the winners, the committee said."
What is The Nobel Prizes ? Its an annual international awards bestowed by Scandinavian committees in recognition of cultural and scientific advances. Established in 1895 in the will of Swedish chemist Alfred Nobel, the inventor of dynamite. The prizes are in Physics, Chemistry, Physiology or Medicine, Literature and Peace, were first awarded in 1901.
Where is Republic of Liberia ? Wes Africa country, bordered by Sierra Leone on the west, Guinea on the north and Cote d'lvoire on the east.
Plenty to learn from these women. They have lots in common. One thing for sure, education plays a very important role. Higher mentality status of course plus the believeThese women are freedom fighters. They fight to make a difference in this world and of course their own world. It is the believe of doing the right thing. Not an easy path to voice out against dictatorship of 14 years civil war, nonetheless these women did it.
It takes courage and strong believe in what you are doing to achieve this. These women are fearless, they willing to die in what they are fighting for. Leading demonstration, being in and out of jail, fighting of freedom of speech...the list is endless.
I am searching for so bowl of courage.
Reading this article sure make me feels puny. Looking back at my own, whatever wave of changes am going now is minor in comparison. I do love changes, good ones I mean. However, reality speak it is difficult to remain positive when the truth show otherwise.
To some changes can be death toll, to some it is a second chance of living. How our reaction is, it depends. If we loosen our grips, look at it in a different view things might get into positiveness.
I have said earlier that am ready for a new challenge. Hunger for a new wave or wind of change as am done deal with current throne. Little that I know whats coming though. I set out my brave heart to face anything that is coming. When its finally here, why do I feel suffocate ? Why that I feel the walls are closing in that
my heart feels pain.
Is it that I am looking for a good change and good challenge ? or is it I am too long lingering in this comfort zone after I've won the war. I really feel that I want to runaway and create a new path.
It at some point went to stage of denial that I hate to give my heart a heartache. Don't even want to think about it cause it hurt.
Being alive till this age, I dare to say my judgement on person or personality never goes wrong. We have to be fair they say. Don't judge the book by its cover. Leave that for a book, human is not a book. Human does not have cover or skin that shows the bad or good side of it. Believe me when I say, humans character does show up front their faces.
This new wave of change happening now is not a good one. The best part is, I have to be fair and square, unable to show the judgemental side of it. We ourselves do not want to be treated as such, thus have to mean what you say and say what you mean.
Bottom line I hate it ....a brand new day now...still am searching for bowl of courage....
Three Women's right activist share Nobel Peace Prize. Liberian President Ellen Johnson Sirleat, activist Leymah Gbowee of Liberia and right activist Tawakkul Karman of Yemen share this year's Nobel Peace Prize, the Norwegian Nobel Committee announced Friday.
"The Norwegian Nobel Committee said it hopes that the prize will help end suppression of women in many countries and to "realize the great potential for democracy and peace that women can represent."
The award, which includes a cash prize (10 million Swedish kronor, or about U.S. $1.4 million) will be shared in three equal parts among the winners, the committee said."
What is The Nobel Prizes ? Its an annual international awards bestowed by Scandinavian committees in recognition of cultural and scientific advances. Established in 1895 in the will of Swedish chemist Alfred Nobel, the inventor of dynamite. The prizes are in Physics, Chemistry, Physiology or Medicine, Literature and Peace, were first awarded in 1901.
Where is Republic of Liberia ? Wes Africa country, bordered by Sierra Leone on the west, Guinea on the north and Cote d'lvoire on the east.
Plenty to learn from these women. They have lots in common. One thing for sure, education plays a very important role. Higher mentality status of course plus the believeThese women are freedom fighters. They fight to make a difference in this world and of course their own world. It is the believe of doing the right thing. Not an easy path to voice out against dictatorship of 14 years civil war, nonetheless these women did it.
It takes courage and strong believe in what you are doing to achieve this. These women are fearless, they willing to die in what they are fighting for. Leading demonstration, being in and out of jail, fighting of freedom of speech...the list is endless.
I am searching for so bowl of courage.
Reading this article sure make me feels puny. Looking back at my own, whatever wave of changes am going now is minor in comparison. I do love changes, good ones I mean. However, reality speak it is difficult to remain positive when the truth show otherwise.
To some changes can be death toll, to some it is a second chance of living. How our reaction is, it depends. If we loosen our grips, look at it in a different view things might get into positiveness.
I have said earlier that am ready for a new challenge. Hunger for a new wave or wind of change as am done deal with current throne. Little that I know whats coming though. I set out my brave heart to face anything that is coming. When its finally here, why do I feel suffocate ? Why that I feel the walls are closing in that
my heart feels pain.
Is it that I am looking for a good change and good challenge ? or is it I am too long lingering in this comfort zone after I've won the war. I really feel that I want to runaway and create a new path.
It at some point went to stage of denial that I hate to give my heart a heartache. Don't even want to think about it cause it hurt.
Being alive till this age, I dare to say my judgement on person or personality never goes wrong. We have to be fair they say. Don't judge the book by its cover. Leave that for a book, human is not a book. Human does not have cover or skin that shows the bad or good side of it. Believe me when I say, humans character does show up front their faces.
This new wave of change happening now is not a good one. The best part is, I have to be fair and square, unable to show the judgemental side of it. We ourselves do not want to be treated as such, thus have to mean what you say and say what you mean.
Bottom line I hate it ....a brand new day now...still am searching for bowl of courage....
Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly~ Robert F. Kennedy
Samuel Johnson
Courage is the greatest of all the virtues. Because if you haven't courage, you may not have an opportunity to use any of the others.
It is October 2011. Two more months before we wrap up this year. One year ago, I decided to start blogging. Dream came true and now here I am. Standing at a different level of life.
Too many changes and things that had happen along the way. Those makes what I am today.
I am climbing to a new level. Felt more spirit up and lifted to walk this journey with courage. Not that I do not have courage before, its just sitting in my comfort throne. Nothing nudge my slumber. Nothing to complaint about...absolute nothing. Most of my cloths unable to fit me anymore. I have master my cooking. My home is my own sanctuary. What else ? nothing...I just love my life too much. Its a crime at times, cause you knew what have to be done.
At some point when we have achieved something, then it frail away. You are back to where you started before. Tend to take our own sweet time cause after all we have walk that journey. We knew all the curve, agony and pain to get there.
These few days I do feel that I need to take a leap, big leap from what I am doing now. Its the courage that you feel inside, the need to take down your fear of pain and endurance. When all of my dreams are heartbeat away, the answer is all up to me.
Work wise, we just go rewarded. Apart from shift and time, I am doing OK. Still lots of thing to learn and my mental note still weak, not attentive enough. Need to improve my brain power. Again it link back to my comfort zone. Less active I am nowadays. Even so, life is more constructive for sure.
We are going to have a new leader for our team. Let see how it goes, so far our assistance has done a fantastic job. To be honest am kind of done deal at time with this job. Yeah, you read it right. But am not scouting for new thing or new field. Let just stay for a while and venture which level this place going to take me.
“Diligence is the mother of good luck.”
--Benjamin Franklin
Courage is the greatest of all the virtues. Because if you haven't courage, you may not have an opportunity to use any of the others.
It is October 2011. Two more months before we wrap up this year. One year ago, I decided to start blogging. Dream came true and now here I am. Standing at a different level of life.
Too many changes and things that had happen along the way. Those makes what I am today.
I am climbing to a new level. Felt more spirit up and lifted to walk this journey with courage. Not that I do not have courage before, its just sitting in my comfort throne. Nothing nudge my slumber. Nothing to complaint about...absolute nothing. Most of my cloths unable to fit me anymore. I have master my cooking. My home is my own sanctuary. What else ? nothing...I just love my life too much. Its a crime at times, cause you knew what have to be done.
At some point when we have achieved something, then it frail away. You are back to where you started before. Tend to take our own sweet time cause after all we have walk that journey. We knew all the curve, agony and pain to get there.
These few days I do feel that I need to take a leap, big leap from what I am doing now. Its the courage that you feel inside, the need to take down your fear of pain and endurance. When all of my dreams are heartbeat away, the answer is all up to me.
Work wise, we just go rewarded. Apart from shift and time, I am doing OK. Still lots of thing to learn and my mental note still weak, not attentive enough. Need to improve my brain power. Again it link back to my comfort zone. Less active I am nowadays. Even so, life is more constructive for sure.
We are going to have a new leader for our team. Let see how it goes, so far our assistance has done a fantastic job. To be honest am kind of done deal at time with this job. Yeah, you read it right. But am not scouting for new thing or new field. Let just stay for a while and venture which level this place going to take me.
“Diligence is the mother of good luck.”
--Benjamin Franklin
Work, love, life, friends and attitude..
Where to begin ...I always mentioned how time passed like a whirlwind Flew across our faces while we are busy with life. Seems that we are always rushing somewhere and making time for something. By the end of the day still that 24 hours just not enough. A year just end like monthly thing. Imagine how that 24 hours just passed like a snap.
I believe this feeling of 24 hours a day is not sufficient does not apply to everyone. There are still think its a long day to end. It depend on how well you plan your time ahead. To be honest, until end of October 2011, I know where and what am I to do. It helps a lot when you plan you time and days ahead. Keep you focus and it does sharpen ones mind too. My memory often fail me, this is how I train to make sure I do not slip on things or event too often.
Our work schedule are pretty tight this time around. Not enough staff to rotate, thus our off days are just barely enough for us to rest ourselves. No more luxury to have more than 48 hours off days except of one or two occasions per schedule. Am not complaining. Its a team effort after all. Five fingers are not the same, let alone dealing with human which is known at times to have zero tolerance of others. We are trying our level best to balance it up. Help is always around and hope in time to come we are back in our comfort zone of plentiful play time.
My second sister gave birth to beautiful baby girl. Both mom and baby are doing fine. My mother said, this grand daughter of her are very polite and calm. Cried a little, move a little and very gentle in her own way. Unlike my nephew, every time he cried our house get earthquake on certain magnitude. He is after all a boy..I guess that's what boys do. Loud and clear, this one especially. My mother now have to juggle between these two. Taking care of my sister for post natal period. My nephew already 1 year and half, he is more independent and behave. Smart and genius. Kids nowadays are super fast in mind development. Now everyone awaits my turn. Its fun and nice to have my family which came over to visit my second sister. Made me missed home than ever.
Got to plan my holiday leave. Recently I accompanied my friend for USA Visa application interview. Ever since 911, the Americans need to know every detail of who and who entering their soil. Well its their right to do so. To speak, my friend fail the interview..not because he look like Bin Laden..he is Indian by the way. Can't help to laugh and make fun of it...he failed ? I can't believe it either. I do believe he was not being asked fairly. He did go online of US Green Card lottery which like seven years ago..for fun sake. Little that he knew it is all recorded and its in their database. I told him, second round the interview..if they asked you why you failed the last time. Just said because you don't have memory of an elephant.
Its not a big deal for him, but it did made us puzzle and ponder for a while. He kind of reluctant to travel to States this time but still to fail that Visa interview is unexpected. For me, I am reluctant to go yes, but I still want to passed that interview...it kind of ridiculous. Hope he gets in second time round. Its fun teasing him.
Envy him at times, ever since from WDC he flew around the world work wise. Then when I myself taste that work related travelling..me no like. It just tire you at some point. I just hate the waiting hours for flight. Nonetheless now I miss travelling...this time it has to be holiday related.
I do feel like a tabby, who nowadays likes to sit on warm cosy chair..rain or shine.
Woke up late this morning. Late night, spend time cleaning my sanctuary. Then sit around and catch up with movies. I had a good sleep overall.
While having my brunch, said hi to an old friend. Regret I did that. This one still have that love/heart issue which I thought she is now healing herself and moved one. Little that I know it just get worst. Not wanting to waste my time. I just share with her my thought at a minimal tune. She told me that I don't understand her situation..she tried and she just can't get over it. I shook my head in despair.
Laugh to myself a bit,......geez...if I don't understand, how is that possible I can climb up to this level now where Love/Heart is just part of life. How on earth that I now feel that I cannot related any sad love song to myself anymore cause I felt stupid. How did I manage to put myself as priority above all and how in the blue that I love myself so much that I am hunger for greater challenge as this victory throw bore me big time.
She is seeking an answer of why she is rejected while others can live happily with their love one. My eye brow raised....smile and said to myself.. am not gonna waste my time answering this lame question.
I am more worry that I can't give my best to myself that I do feel am not doing enough to nurture this soul of mine. We have only one body and one soul. It is not like there are spare parts sold out there.
At that point of time, I thought enough is enough. You cannot fill a cup which is already full. That's the reason we always have to see our cup half full. So there are room for improvement and room of being silly from time to time. It just balance up.
Be light by checking and changing at the same time. When something goes wrong, check if you are able to find your own weakness in that situation. Also after finding that weakness in yourself, check if you are getting disheartened. If you only check, but do nothing to change yourself you will find yourself becoming heavy. As soon as you find a weakness, make sure you make out a plan for yourself so that you can bring about the necessary changes immediately to overcome that weakness. In this way you will be able to remain light even when you find your weakness.
Watch how many things you do during the day are dependent on how you imagine the other sees you: your husband, your friend, your child, your cousin, your aunt, your boss, the secretary or whoever. You imagine how they are going to look at you and, as a result, you mould yourself accordingly. If you depend on the look of the other, inwardly you will always feel fear. You want to please the other so that they continue to see you as you want. Because of the dependence that we have on the other to appreciate us, value us and not to reject us, we want to please them. If, in spite of doing everything possible, they do not appreciate us or are not happy, how do we feel? Cheated.
After having done everything out of wanting to please them! Inside, you want to please them because you want them to keep on loving you, or you don't want them to sack you from your job, or you are afraid of being different or not being accepted. That kind of dependency takes us away from our true authenticity. If you look at yourself well, in the end, others will look at you well and the one who does not look at you well will perhaps teach you something, but your value and self-esteem do not depend on the look of the other. In this state, you are open because you trust yourself and you have personal security.
Instead of thinking of the situation, think of your own stage. When you find yourself questioning the things that are happening in your life, ask yourself if your own stage is good. The situation might be bad, but check if your own stage is good and if you have the power to face the situation. The reason for losing the stage in a negative situation is because of negative thoughts. In order to finish such negative thoughts, remind yourself that you are learning from the things that are happening so that you can improve your own stage.
It’s extremely rare to find a successful person who whines, complains, and frets about his circumstances. This is despite the fact that he may have overcome great obstacles to achieve his level of success. On the other hand, it’s extremely common for struggling individuals to continually blame their circumstances for their lack of joy and happiness.
The real question is: what came first – the attitude or the success? The answer, in virtually all cases, is that the winning, positive attitude came first, followed by a lifetime of success.
All it takes is a simple decision; the decision to stop yourself from falling into the habit of complaining about your circumstances. At first it may be difficult – even funny – to observe how often you complain.
Habits can be hard to break. But in this case, it’s well worth the effort. As an excuse of complaint comes to mind, gently shoo it away. Don’t worry about it too much. You’ll quickly get used to the nicer feelings that come from a life without complaints.
I believe this feeling of 24 hours a day is not sufficient does not apply to everyone. There are still think its a long day to end. It depend on how well you plan your time ahead. To be honest, until end of October 2011, I know where and what am I to do. It helps a lot when you plan you time and days ahead. Keep you focus and it does sharpen ones mind too. My memory often fail me, this is how I train to make sure I do not slip on things or event too often.
Our work schedule are pretty tight this time around. Not enough staff to rotate, thus our off days are just barely enough for us to rest ourselves. No more luxury to have more than 48 hours off days except of one or two occasions per schedule. Am not complaining. Its a team effort after all. Five fingers are not the same, let alone dealing with human which is known at times to have zero tolerance of others. We are trying our level best to balance it up. Help is always around and hope in time to come we are back in our comfort zone of plentiful play time.
My second sister gave birth to beautiful baby girl. Both mom and baby are doing fine. My mother said, this grand daughter of her are very polite and calm. Cried a little, move a little and very gentle in her own way. Unlike my nephew, every time he cried our house get earthquake on certain magnitude. He is after all a boy..I guess that's what boys do. Loud and clear, this one especially. My mother now have to juggle between these two. Taking care of my sister for post natal period. My nephew already 1 year and half, he is more independent and behave. Smart and genius. Kids nowadays are super fast in mind development. Now everyone awaits my turn. Its fun and nice to have my family which came over to visit my second sister. Made me missed home than ever.
Got to plan my holiday leave. Recently I accompanied my friend for USA Visa application interview. Ever since 911, the Americans need to know every detail of who and who entering their soil. Well its their right to do so. To speak, my friend fail the interview..not because he look like Bin Laden..he is Indian by the way. Can't help to laugh and make fun of it...he failed ? I can't believe it either. I do believe he was not being asked fairly. He did go online of US Green Card lottery which like seven years ago..for fun sake. Little that he knew it is all recorded and its in their database. I told him, second round the interview..if they asked you why you failed the last time. Just said because you don't have memory of an elephant.
Its not a big deal for him, but it did made us puzzle and ponder for a while. He kind of reluctant to travel to States this time but still to fail that Visa interview is unexpected. For me, I am reluctant to go yes, but I still want to passed that interview...it kind of ridiculous. Hope he gets in second time round. Its fun teasing him.
Envy him at times, ever since from WDC he flew around the world work wise. Then when I myself taste that work related travelling..me no like. It just tire you at some point. I just hate the waiting hours for flight. Nonetheless now I miss travelling...this time it has to be holiday related.
I do feel like a tabby, who nowadays likes to sit on warm cosy chair..rain or shine.
Woke up late this morning. Late night, spend time cleaning my sanctuary. Then sit around and catch up with movies. I had a good sleep overall.
While having my brunch, said hi to an old friend. Regret I did that. This one still have that love/heart issue which I thought she is now healing herself and moved one. Little that I know it just get worst. Not wanting to waste my time. I just share with her my thought at a minimal tune. She told me that I don't understand her situation..she tried and she just can't get over it. I shook my head in despair.
Laugh to myself a bit,......geez...if I don't understand, how is that possible I can climb up to this level now where Love/Heart is just part of life. How on earth that I now feel that I cannot related any sad love song to myself anymore cause I felt stupid. How did I manage to put myself as priority above all and how in the blue that I love myself so much that I am hunger for greater challenge as this victory throw bore me big time.
She is seeking an answer of why she is rejected while others can live happily with their love one. My eye brow raised....smile and said to myself.. am not gonna waste my time answering this lame question.
I am more worry that I can't give my best to myself that I do feel am not doing enough to nurture this soul of mine. We have only one body and one soul. It is not like there are spare parts sold out there.
At that point of time, I thought enough is enough. You cannot fill a cup which is already full. That's the reason we always have to see our cup half full. So there are room for improvement and room of being silly from time to time. It just balance up.
Be light by checking and changing at the same time. When something goes wrong, check if you are able to find your own weakness in that situation. Also after finding that weakness in yourself, check if you are getting disheartened. If you only check, but do nothing to change yourself you will find yourself becoming heavy. As soon as you find a weakness, make sure you make out a plan for yourself so that you can bring about the necessary changes immediately to overcome that weakness. In this way you will be able to remain light even when you find your weakness.
Watch how many things you do during the day are dependent on how you imagine the other sees you: your husband, your friend, your child, your cousin, your aunt, your boss, the secretary or whoever. You imagine how they are going to look at you and, as a result, you mould yourself accordingly. If you depend on the look of the other, inwardly you will always feel fear. You want to please the other so that they continue to see you as you want. Because of the dependence that we have on the other to appreciate us, value us and not to reject us, we want to please them. If, in spite of doing everything possible, they do not appreciate us or are not happy, how do we feel? Cheated.
After having done everything out of wanting to please them! Inside, you want to please them because you want them to keep on loving you, or you don't want them to sack you from your job, or you are afraid of being different or not being accepted. That kind of dependency takes us away from our true authenticity. If you look at yourself well, in the end, others will look at you well and the one who does not look at you well will perhaps teach you something, but your value and self-esteem do not depend on the look of the other. In this state, you are open because you trust yourself and you have personal security.
Instead of thinking of the situation, think of your own stage. When you find yourself questioning the things that are happening in your life, ask yourself if your own stage is good. The situation might be bad, but check if your own stage is good and if you have the power to face the situation. The reason for losing the stage in a negative situation is because of negative thoughts. In order to finish such negative thoughts, remind yourself that you are learning from the things that are happening so that you can improve your own stage.
It’s extremely rare to find a successful person who whines, complains, and frets about his circumstances. This is despite the fact that he may have overcome great obstacles to achieve his level of success. On the other hand, it’s extremely common for struggling individuals to continually blame their circumstances for their lack of joy and happiness.
The real question is: what came first – the attitude or the success? The answer, in virtually all cases, is that the winning, positive attitude came first, followed by a lifetime of success.
All it takes is a simple decision; the decision to stop yourself from falling into the habit of complaining about your circumstances. At first it may be difficult – even funny – to observe how often you complain.
Habits can be hard to break. But in this case, it’s well worth the effort. As an excuse of complaint comes to mind, gently shoo it away. Don’t worry about it too much. You’ll quickly get used to the nicer feelings that come from a life without complaints.
The only people who find what they are looking for in life are the fault finders. ~Foster's Law
Second shift. Did not sleep even a minute. I felt that my eyes has two hanging sand bag just keep pulling in down but sadly unable to doze of at all. My fingers still typing and source for information on all cases in hand now. I collected three more cases. In short my two colleagues on day shift (coming in another 4 hours time) will 'die' standing or rather boiled.
13 hours of our shift time is not enough to handle all cases if the volume are high. At times cases are not that much but tedious enough to glue our butt on it through out the day. Especially if we faced or dealt with human that half a brain but posses as though he or she knows everything. There are human in this world who are ignorance enough, shallow knowledge but act as thought as they are Albert Einstein and we are just Frankenstein.
I remember a dialogue from ICE Age 3 - Dawn of Dinosaur. Manny the Mammoth quoted that 'We all should have our brain check once a while'. Which is true.
At this wee hour in the morning, still I received phone call from unrelated matter absolutely. Ever since I dived myself into 'Customer' communication line, I turned into somewhat an alert person. Think twice before I want to dial a number for enquiry. Most of call center nowadays are out sourced services. Meaning to say they hire third party to handle their product. To consumer, they do not know this ..just dial and the one who answer the call must have enough knowledge to be a problem solver.
Ignorantly, still got human who just press any number right away; not even bother to listen to the option provided. Resulting, wrong department. We as the customer service first of all have to apologize to the caller because unable to provide the information and seek permission to transfer the caller to the correct department. If we are lucky, the caller agree at one go...if not..guess what we got scolded because we are wasting his/her time. Come to think about it, you in the first place coconut enough not to listen carefully. Blame on us just because its only voice and not face to face.
If counter service, another story. The person's face behind the counter will either be as fierce as lioness with cubs or sulking face. We the end user have to be at their mercy to get what we want.
Its all about attitude and mentality. Million fish in the ocean, rainbow like or toxic spilled....still is a huge world out there. Gazillion character.
While on the way to work today, I usually took public transport cause its convenient and cheaper. Plus traffic can be horrendous. Being a Malaysian, boarding public transport in Kuala Lumpur can be quiet an 'international' experience. You can either be in Jakarta, Dhaka or Islamabad. Immigrant are flooding everywhere. A friend of mine commented if in NYC how does it go then . I said, thats even major global circulation. You can travel from Rome to Mexico or Dubai.
Now when I look at my surrounding, I felt like Pauline Hanson (google it up if you do not know who she is).
We the locals have to squeeze ourselves among them.
Its 5am and am dam sleepy. Friday will be our company annual dinner. I need to go and get the masquerade.
Dev Anand called me up yesterday morning. He will be leaving to US soon. Better come back and see me Dev san. Who knows if death do us a apart...I see you in Hell next to Michael Jackson. If you can't find me, look for Bob Marley. I should be there...reggae! miahahahahaa
I don't like to commit myself about heaven and hell - you see, I have friends in both places.
Mark Twain
13 hours of our shift time is not enough to handle all cases if the volume are high. At times cases are not that much but tedious enough to glue our butt on it through out the day. Especially if we faced or dealt with human that half a brain but posses as though he or she knows everything. There are human in this world who are ignorance enough, shallow knowledge but act as thought as they are Albert Einstein and we are just Frankenstein.
I remember a dialogue from ICE Age 3 - Dawn of Dinosaur. Manny the Mammoth quoted that 'We all should have our brain check once a while'. Which is true.
At this wee hour in the morning, still I received phone call from unrelated matter absolutely. Ever since I dived myself into 'Customer' communication line, I turned into somewhat an alert person. Think twice before I want to dial a number for enquiry. Most of call center nowadays are out sourced services. Meaning to say they hire third party to handle their product. To consumer, they do not know this ..just dial and the one who answer the call must have enough knowledge to be a problem solver.
Ignorantly, still got human who just press any number right away; not even bother to listen to the option provided. Resulting, wrong department. We as the customer service first of all have to apologize to the caller because unable to provide the information and seek permission to transfer the caller to the correct department. If we are lucky, the caller agree at one go...if not..guess what we got scolded because we are wasting his/her time. Come to think about it, you in the first place coconut enough not to listen carefully. Blame on us just because its only voice and not face to face.
If counter service, another story. The person's face behind the counter will either be as fierce as lioness with cubs or sulking face. We the end user have to be at their mercy to get what we want.
Its all about attitude and mentality. Million fish in the ocean, rainbow like or toxic spilled....still is a huge world out there. Gazillion character.
While on the way to work today, I usually took public transport cause its convenient and cheaper. Plus traffic can be horrendous. Being a Malaysian, boarding public transport in Kuala Lumpur can be quiet an 'international' experience. You can either be in Jakarta, Dhaka or Islamabad. Immigrant are flooding everywhere. A friend of mine commented if in NYC how does it go then . I said, thats even major global circulation. You can travel from Rome to Mexico or Dubai.
Now when I look at my surrounding, I felt like Pauline Hanson (google it up if you do not know who she is).
We the locals have to squeeze ourselves among them.
Its 5am and am dam sleepy. Friday will be our company annual dinner. I need to go and get the masquerade.
Dev Anand called me up yesterday morning. He will be leaving to US soon. Better come back and see me Dev san. Who knows if death do us a apart...I see you in Hell next to Michael Jackson. If you can't find me, look for Bob Marley. I should be there...reggae! miahahahahaa
I don't like to commit myself about heaven and hell - you see, I have friends in both places.
Mark Twain
“One's past is what one is. It is the only way by which people should be judged.” ~ Oscar Wilder
Spent sometimes browsing over Facebook. Peeped into something that I should not even take port about. As a result, it kind of stir my mind a little. I guess that is why they say; leave your past behind. Turn once a while, enough to make it as a reminder not go back there.
Human heart is full of curiosity. Somehow, there is an itch to still take a look at what the other party are doing. The truth is, deep down inside we are seeking for there downfall. Lets face it, often we wish our foes to have rock bottom life or few step lower than where we are now. It sort like a comfort of our own heart. When we learned that they are actually kind of above us or equally stand where we are, that alone create an aching heart.
I felt that aching heart these two days. Can't undo what I did. Still looking for remedy to get on my feet again. I fear nothing. Believe what ever decision that was made during that time is for the best. Result shown enough proof. But the thing that I don't understand is, why there is such a fear in my heart. Fear of something unknown. When I really fear nothing in reality.
On top of that silly thing I did, stumble upon a heartbreaking news of animal cruelty. One local pet shop called PETKNODE. These company take charge of cats for owner who is away with a small fees. Reality speak; they actually abandoned all those cats locked up in the shop for god knows how long. Upon discovered almost 200 cats died out of starvation and dehydration. Volunteers poured in to take shelter of those cats which owners are still abroad. Police report made, two culprit has been arrested. I cried my heart out watching the video of rescue. Many kittens died and some of the cats gulp over waters like they are lost in the desert. Got one of the cat, just lay motionless in the cage, skin and bone..her ribs actually shun out. Nothing much can be done for her anymore, awaits death.
In yesterday's paper finally the government decided to amend the act for tougher law enforcement on animal rights and abuse. Its a good move ; better late then never.
54 years of independence for crying out loud. Malaysia just hit rock bottom. Mentality still barbaric. Though is small percentage, but sooner it will spread. We are developing country this issue is small of course. I remember in one of Oprah show, there was a highlight about mass breeding of dogs. They are fighting to pass the act on tougher law enforcement. Can you imagine, one female dogs produce 17 puppies then being pregnant again and again and again. It gives me a goose bump. How can such cruelty exist in this world.
Let alone, the issue on whale hunting, fur hunting ...the list just go on....
I always believe people who have mercy on animal are nice person. These are really what we call human. I do have friend who hate or fear several species of domestic animals. It hurt at times to hear them just cursing on these helpless animals. To me, we are superior enough to let it be as they do not hold mind and able to think like us. Stay out of their way and do no harm...simple.
My biggest fear is cockroaches. God ! I can die for it. If I bumped into a ghost and a cockroach at the same time..chance are I will faint because of the roaches. I really can turn blue or white with these roaches. But then again, I don't do them any harm. Stay out of my way.
Anyway, hope with the amendment of animal act things will get better
"The greatness of a Nation and its moral progress can be judge by the way its animal are treated" ~ Mahatma Gandhi
Human heart is full of curiosity. Somehow, there is an itch to still take a look at what the other party are doing. The truth is, deep down inside we are seeking for there downfall. Lets face it, often we wish our foes to have rock bottom life or few step lower than where we are now. It sort like a comfort of our own heart. When we learned that they are actually kind of above us or equally stand where we are, that alone create an aching heart.
I felt that aching heart these two days. Can't undo what I did. Still looking for remedy to get on my feet again. I fear nothing. Believe what ever decision that was made during that time is for the best. Result shown enough proof. But the thing that I don't understand is, why there is such a fear in my heart. Fear of something unknown. When I really fear nothing in reality.
On top of that silly thing I did, stumble upon a heartbreaking news of animal cruelty. One local pet shop called PETKNODE. These company take charge of cats for owner who is away with a small fees. Reality speak; they actually abandoned all those cats locked up in the shop for god knows how long. Upon discovered almost 200 cats died out of starvation and dehydration. Volunteers poured in to take shelter of those cats which owners are still abroad. Police report made, two culprit has been arrested. I cried my heart out watching the video of rescue. Many kittens died and some of the cats gulp over waters like they are lost in the desert. Got one of the cat, just lay motionless in the cage, skin and bone..her ribs actually shun out. Nothing much can be done for her anymore, awaits death.
In yesterday's paper finally the government decided to amend the act for tougher law enforcement on animal rights and abuse. Its a good move ; better late then never.
54 years of independence for crying out loud. Malaysia just hit rock bottom. Mentality still barbaric. Though is small percentage, but sooner it will spread. We are developing country this issue is small of course. I remember in one of Oprah show, there was a highlight about mass breeding of dogs. They are fighting to pass the act on tougher law enforcement. Can you imagine, one female dogs produce 17 puppies then being pregnant again and again and again. It gives me a goose bump. How can such cruelty exist in this world.
Let alone, the issue on whale hunting, fur hunting ...the list just go on....
I always believe people who have mercy on animal are nice person. These are really what we call human. I do have friend who hate or fear several species of domestic animals. It hurt at times to hear them just cursing on these helpless animals. To me, we are superior enough to let it be as they do not hold mind and able to think like us. Stay out of their way and do no harm...simple.
My biggest fear is cockroaches. God ! I can die for it. If I bumped into a ghost and a cockroach at the same time..chance are I will faint because of the roaches. I really can turn blue or white with these roaches. But then again, I don't do them any harm. Stay out of my way.
Anyway, hope with the amendment of animal act things will get better
"The greatness of a Nation and its moral progress can be judge by the way its animal are treated" ~ Mahatma Gandhi
Families are like fudge - mostly sweet with a few nuts. ~Author Unknown
Eid came and go. Six days flew like a whirlwind. Resting and enjoying festive season in my parent's den is always wonderful. They say one should have breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like pauper...for me back home with my parent is like King's meal all the way through minus the snack bite in between. Its really a royal treatment. Even so, visitor from relative made it even more wonderful.
I am more being the dish washer after all guess left then being in the front row of welcoming guess to the house. Its fun and tiring at the same time. It really can be seen in my father's eyes, how happy he is.
To have all of us; his daughter with husbands and lover in one house. Its like one big happy family. I felt completed, calm and blessed. Both my brother in law can be categorized into very nice person. I made my mother feel bless enough to say that she is lucky to have only son in law as her children are all daughter.
My nephew has grown into super naughty baby. His mom took him back to KL for two days, smooth journey. He collected quite a packet of Angpau. How nice to be kids again.
Shan is the champion above all. Eat, sleep and laze around maximum. I made him do a bit of things helping around my dad put up wall fan. Keep him busy a bit.
A day before I left to KL, we went to the beach. Had a good time. My father had to go and purchase something thus he can't follow us. He reminded us to be careful and if the wave are high, do not proceed.
By the time we are done with our swimming and playing ; my father show up from no where. It made me wonder how fast did he drive to the shop and then make enough time to come back and observed us playing at the seaside. My mom told me that he is so worry about our safety.
Returning back to KL, I brought back stuff the same load as I came back home. My dad purchased some crabs for me and Shan. Its cheaper than KL definitely because he purchased it from the jetty upon arrival on local fisherman from the sea. Due to long journey for us to travel back to KL, my dad went and buy an ice box ; just to ensure our crabs are fresh and not rotten.
I left my parent with heavy hearts. My second sister left about an hour earlier than me while my third sister left a day early. Its painful to see the house is empty again. Left only them back to their daily routine. We on the other hand also flew back into our own build world here in KL.
I spend the whole day sleeping. Its like I am so tired. My second sister is due for delivery anytime this month. False alarm are scary but well that's what pregnant is all about. Am so excited to welcome this new family member. Everything will go smooth and well for her.
I am more being the dish washer after all guess left then being in the front row of welcoming guess to the house. Its fun and tiring at the same time. It really can be seen in my father's eyes, how happy he is.
To have all of us; his daughter with husbands and lover in one house. Its like one big happy family. I felt completed, calm and blessed. Both my brother in law can be categorized into very nice person. I made my mother feel bless enough to say that she is lucky to have only son in law as her children are all daughter.
My nephew has grown into super naughty baby. His mom took him back to KL for two days, smooth journey. He collected quite a packet of Angpau. How nice to be kids again.
Shan is the champion above all. Eat, sleep and laze around maximum. I made him do a bit of things helping around my dad put up wall fan. Keep him busy a bit.
A day before I left to KL, we went to the beach. Had a good time. My father had to go and purchase something thus he can't follow us. He reminded us to be careful and if the wave are high, do not proceed.
By the time we are done with our swimming and playing ; my father show up from no where. It made me wonder how fast did he drive to the shop and then make enough time to come back and observed us playing at the seaside. My mom told me that he is so worry about our safety.
Returning back to KL, I brought back stuff the same load as I came back home. My dad purchased some crabs for me and Shan. Its cheaper than KL definitely because he purchased it from the jetty upon arrival on local fisherman from the sea. Due to long journey for us to travel back to KL, my dad went and buy an ice box ; just to ensure our crabs are fresh and not rotten.
I left my parent with heavy hearts. My second sister left about an hour earlier than me while my third sister left a day early. Its painful to see the house is empty again. Left only them back to their daily routine. We on the other hand also flew back into our own build world here in KL.
I spend the whole day sleeping. Its like I am so tired. My second sister is due for delivery anytime this month. False alarm are scary but well that's what pregnant is all about. Am so excited to welcome this new family member. Everything will go smooth and well for her.
So I say it in a breath, Hope my dreams will take me there .....
When you wish someone joy, you wish them peace, love, prosperity, happiness…all the good things.
Maya Angelou
Ramadhan is ending, Eid is just few days away. While on the way journey to the office today, I've passed by Jalan TAR. Looking at all those people walking about with shopping bags in their hands, I can imagine how crowded it is going to be this weekend. Have completed my shopping last weekend itself, only left few items to buy.
This year is the first year ever am leaving home on first day of Eid. Its exciting to learned that I can wander around KL city on the eve of Eid which I had never had chance to do so. Been staying in KL for the past 15 years, time do change and opportunity does arise at point we all never knew about it.
The city is getting quiet, even my office is a bit solemn nowadays. With my boss early departure it makes me feel even more quiet. I did not even have chance to say goodbye. I miss him around much these days. Its just empty, though the new AOM is super supportive it take times am sure to adjust. People came and leave.
There are few more that tender in resignation letter, departing for greener pasture. I guess that's life, I myself can't stay that long in one company either. Always seeking for newer ground to play.
Its season of changes in my office now. I find peace here so far, no issue to venture yet for greener pasture. This path is green enough for me at this moment. Until I decide to scout for more adventure. In any field that one work, its all about attitude and right mind set. Five fingers are not the same, we ourselves at time have some inner conflict, let alone dealing with other humans.
To be able to deal with lots of human nature in daily life it has to be someone gifted with the art of tolerance. Not everyone can deal easily with all sort of personality. For me, I don't take it personally its just part of the job. Lesson learned over the years. I do not get involve too deep and keep it at the job level. Those day I often took it personalize until one stage that I can't handle it anymore. Lost almost half of my life because of job.
Above all am always thankful and bless on this journey of mine. Lesson learned, hard way yes, but still am glad of it. The world is small, we will one day came across each other's path again. It is just matter of time. When we meet new person, the old one shouldn't be forgotten ; unless of course keeping them bring harm to your life. Believe me, its better to eliminate those who bring more harm than happiness into your life.
Last night I had dinner with Shan, nowadays he love just to stare at me with that very loving look. Being playful I often teased him off. Deep inside my heart, I am so grateful to have him in my life.
We will not know what it means until we are in that situation or we walked into that journey. Remember the song When A Man Loves a Woman. Each of those words tell exactly what and how it goes when a man really loves a woman. Most important he sees you as a mother to all his unborn children. He picture himself as a father and husband.
I do have a friend who fuss over her lover that never said a word about love to her at all. She seek somewhat assurance in words that this man really loves her. Look beyond my friend. There is no assurance and guarantee about anything in life. Even insurance also have clause of terms. Dealing with heart and soul ; yet seek for assurance...ain't gonna happen girl.
The best is self-guard. Put yourself at some level that Love is just part of life and not the air that you breathe. If one unable to deal with this yet then, its pity cause its petty. If bigger issue like death and illness hit both of you....since the foundation is not there...shattered world and it will just collapse.
I am sure to be devastated if it happen to me, but yet am not gonna die of it that's for sure.
I remember back when I was 10 years old. My neighbour has a beautiful niece. She is simply beautiful, I have to admit that. A boy committed suicide after she rejected his marriage proposal. He drank weed killer (so classic). It was a talk of our small town for many years after that. Then finally she got married. Sadly a week after their marriage, both of this newly wed couple met with accident. Fatal enough to injured her face and one of her leg unable to walk as normal anymore. This beautiful lady has to go numerous surgery to reconstruct her structure again. Husband escape any form on injury.
Again, it become a talk of our small town. Its curse they say, ..oh well whatever. My point is years after that when I was in my teen , heard from my mom that this lady's husband is having an affair and that their marriage is on the rock. Back then, it did not struck my mind much though I do feel it is not fair.
Now, how I look at it there is nothing permanent or guarantee over anything. That's the truth. If anyone wish to have words in guarantee when the truth is...it is just an insecure feeling. The inner feeling is empty...it search for something to soothes and ease in hoping to fill that emptiness.
No matter how, it can't be fill. This kind of soul often very unhappy or just cannot be happy. They are so scared that the happiness won't last. Sorrow will sure come upon it...sure is cause its what their heart talk about all the time. Its a prayer's like.
Even in my recent visit to my parent, mom handed over to me an article about marriage. The article said that husband is only a guest in your life. We treated our guest like how we suppose to be. You cannot guarantee he will stay with you forever. If he decide to leave let him leave, you yourself also find a better life. If none then, don't just lay down and wait for death to come. It is all about confident and positive mind.
The author said that her own husband decided to take a new 'branch'. She allowed it and then the husband demanded that divorce. She said OK, and continue to inform the husband that may I have a new good life with a new person that far more better than this husband. For that the husband pause and decided to let go of this new 'branch'. But things already sour. It will never be the same.
Love your man yes, but don't die for it...in fact don't die for anyone. Live your live for yourself first.
Between me and Shan of course nothing is perfect, flaws are always there but the thing is for me and him we have everything that life could have. Not lavish, but enough. Keep good things to yourself ; evil eyes are watching and heart is cursing.
Watch and curse all they want, I have walked in heaven and walked in hell to get to where I am now. I fear nothing. They say that, don't live life with much expectations then we do have much thing to regret and feel sorry.
Well to me is that, we should set our own expectations and dreams. Set something within our own reach, work on it first then we move to the next level. There is no such thing as express journey into success. Even when we learned it start from basic.
Do you know what it means to come home at night to a woman who'll give you a little love, a little affection, a little tenderness? It means you're in the wrong house, that's what it means.
Henny Youngman
I am very ambitious to explore this blog of mine to the next level. As I said before wanna do something more productive rather than telling about me, my surrounding and my life around the world. Even so, its my blog anyway.
Nothing comes so far to be as interesting for me to share about. Am done with religion and politics. Something will sure pass one way or another. Just keep looking. It should be different from what that has been popular.
02.15AM still wide awake, my one and only night shift for this roaster. I have no idea how it become like this, just one night only. Am flexible, so no issue at all. Soon our team is only consist of six person. Roaster gonna be tough and off days will not be as much as now. Hopefully new batch that comes able to support and work along well. We all do have our differences but at the end of the day its the team work that matters.
Group desire is different than individual desire. With individual desire, it's up to you to feed the fire. With group desire, you get all kinds of people rolling logs on from every direction.
- Vince Pfaff
Maya Angelou
Ramadhan is ending, Eid is just few days away. While on the way journey to the office today, I've passed by Jalan TAR. Looking at all those people walking about with shopping bags in their hands, I can imagine how crowded it is going to be this weekend. Have completed my shopping last weekend itself, only left few items to buy.
This year is the first year ever am leaving home on first day of Eid. Its exciting to learned that I can wander around KL city on the eve of Eid which I had never had chance to do so. Been staying in KL for the past 15 years, time do change and opportunity does arise at point we all never knew about it.
The city is getting quiet, even my office is a bit solemn nowadays. With my boss early departure it makes me feel even more quiet. I did not even have chance to say goodbye. I miss him around much these days. Its just empty, though the new AOM is super supportive it take times am sure to adjust. People came and leave.
There are few more that tender in resignation letter, departing for greener pasture. I guess that's life, I myself can't stay that long in one company either. Always seeking for newer ground to play.
Its season of changes in my office now. I find peace here so far, no issue to venture yet for greener pasture. This path is green enough for me at this moment. Until I decide to scout for more adventure. In any field that one work, its all about attitude and right mind set. Five fingers are not the same, we ourselves at time have some inner conflict, let alone dealing with other humans.
To be able to deal with lots of human nature in daily life it has to be someone gifted with the art of tolerance. Not everyone can deal easily with all sort of personality. For me, I don't take it personally its just part of the job. Lesson learned over the years. I do not get involve too deep and keep it at the job level. Those day I often took it personalize until one stage that I can't handle it anymore. Lost almost half of my life because of job.
Above all am always thankful and bless on this journey of mine. Lesson learned, hard way yes, but still am glad of it. The world is small, we will one day came across each other's path again. It is just matter of time. When we meet new person, the old one shouldn't be forgotten ; unless of course keeping them bring harm to your life. Believe me, its better to eliminate those who bring more harm than happiness into your life.
Last night I had dinner with Shan, nowadays he love just to stare at me with that very loving look. Being playful I often teased him off. Deep inside my heart, I am so grateful to have him in my life.
We will not know what it means until we are in that situation or we walked into that journey. Remember the song When A Man Loves a Woman. Each of those words tell exactly what and how it goes when a man really loves a woman. Most important he sees you as a mother to all his unborn children. He picture himself as a father and husband.
I do have a friend who fuss over her lover that never said a word about love to her at all. She seek somewhat assurance in words that this man really loves her. Look beyond my friend. There is no assurance and guarantee about anything in life. Even insurance also have clause of terms. Dealing with heart and soul ; yet seek for assurance...ain't gonna happen girl.
The best is self-guard. Put yourself at some level that Love is just part of life and not the air that you breathe. If one unable to deal with this yet then, its pity cause its petty. If bigger issue like death and illness hit both of you....since the foundation is not there...shattered world and it will just collapse.
I am sure to be devastated if it happen to me, but yet am not gonna die of it that's for sure.
I remember back when I was 10 years old. My neighbour has a beautiful niece. She is simply beautiful, I have to admit that. A boy committed suicide after she rejected his marriage proposal. He drank weed killer (so classic). It was a talk of our small town for many years after that. Then finally she got married. Sadly a week after their marriage, both of this newly wed couple met with accident. Fatal enough to injured her face and one of her leg unable to walk as normal anymore. This beautiful lady has to go numerous surgery to reconstruct her structure again. Husband escape any form on injury.
Again, it become a talk of our small town. Its curse they say, ..oh well whatever. My point is years after that when I was in my teen , heard from my mom that this lady's husband is having an affair and that their marriage is on the rock. Back then, it did not struck my mind much though I do feel it is not fair.
Now, how I look at it there is nothing permanent or guarantee over anything. That's the truth. If anyone wish to have words in guarantee when the truth is...it is just an insecure feeling. The inner feeling is empty...it search for something to soothes and ease in hoping to fill that emptiness.
No matter how, it can't be fill. This kind of soul often very unhappy or just cannot be happy. They are so scared that the happiness won't last. Sorrow will sure come upon it...sure is cause its what their heart talk about all the time. Its a prayer's like.
Even in my recent visit to my parent, mom handed over to me an article about marriage. The article said that husband is only a guest in your life. We treated our guest like how we suppose to be. You cannot guarantee he will stay with you forever. If he decide to leave let him leave, you yourself also find a better life. If none then, don't just lay down and wait for death to come. It is all about confident and positive mind.
The author said that her own husband decided to take a new 'branch'. She allowed it and then the husband demanded that divorce. She said OK, and continue to inform the husband that may I have a new good life with a new person that far more better than this husband. For that the husband pause and decided to let go of this new 'branch'. But things already sour. It will never be the same.
Love your man yes, but don't die for it...in fact don't die for anyone. Live your live for yourself first.
Between me and Shan of course nothing is perfect, flaws are always there but the thing is for me and him we have everything that life could have. Not lavish, but enough. Keep good things to yourself ; evil eyes are watching and heart is cursing.
Watch and curse all they want, I have walked in heaven and walked in hell to get to where I am now. I fear nothing. They say that, don't live life with much expectations then we do have much thing to regret and feel sorry.
Well to me is that, we should set our own expectations and dreams. Set something within our own reach, work on it first then we move to the next level. There is no such thing as express journey into success. Even when we learned it start from basic.
Do you know what it means to come home at night to a woman who'll give you a little love, a little affection, a little tenderness? It means you're in the wrong house, that's what it means.
Henny Youngman
I am very ambitious to explore this blog of mine to the next level. As I said before wanna do something more productive rather than telling about me, my surrounding and my life around the world. Even so, its my blog anyway.
Nothing comes so far to be as interesting for me to share about. Am done with religion and politics. Something will sure pass one way or another. Just keep looking. It should be different from what that has been popular.
02.15AM still wide awake, my one and only night shift for this roaster. I have no idea how it become like this, just one night only. Am flexible, so no issue at all. Soon our team is only consist of six person. Roaster gonna be tough and off days will not be as much as now. Hopefully new batch that comes able to support and work along well. We all do have our differences but at the end of the day its the team work that matters.
Group desire is different than individual desire. With individual desire, it's up to you to feed the fire. With group desire, you get all kinds of people rolling logs on from every direction.
- Vince Pfaff
Laughter is the best medicine.. :)
600 Story Hotel
Tom, Dick and Harry went to a party. After the party they returned to the hotel. The hotel was 600 stories high.
Unfortunately for them, the elevator was not working. They made a plan for the first 200 stories, Tom will crack jokes.
The second 200 stories Dick will tell a happy story and lastly Harry will tell a sad story.They then started up the steps
After 2 hours it was Harry's turn. He turned to the other two and said "Ok guys, here's my sad story. I forgot the keys downstairs.
Sloth vs Turtles
A sloth calls the police to report that he was attacked and robbed by a gang of turtles. When the police ask him to describe the attack, he replies:
"I.....Doooon't.....knoooow...
It... all... happened..... soooooo ... fasssst....."
Tiger's Snack
A tiger was walking through the jungle one day and saw two men relaxing under a tree. One was reading a newspaper, and the other was working feverishly on a manual typewriter.
The tiger leapt on the man with the newspaper, and ate him up. The tiger did not bother the other man at all. That's because any predator knows that readers digest but writers cramp.
Presidents
George Washington, Abraham Lincoln, and George Bush are in a plane.
The pilot says that the passengers must lighten their load. so the three presidents decide to drop one item
George Washington drops a quarter
Abe Lincoln drops a penny
George Bush drops a grenade
When the presidents land, they find someone holding their head and cursing.
George Washington asks the man what's wrong.
"i was walking down the street when a quarter falls from the sky and hits my head!"
So the presidents continue down the road and find someone hopping on one foot, holding the other, cursing. Abe Lincoln asks "What happened?"
"i was standing on my porch barefoot when a penny falls from the sky and hits it!"
The presidents continue once more and find a young boy laughing hysterically.
George Bush asks "What's so funny?"
The boy replies "i farted and my house exploded!!!"
Capital of America
Two kindergarten kids are talking while having a lunch break.
Girl: What is the capital of America?
Boy: Washington D. C.
Girl: No! "A" is the capital of America. You already forgot our lesson: capitalize proper nouns!
Celebrating Life - Part 2
If you woke up this morning
with more health than illness,
you are more blessed than the
million who won't survive the week.
If you have never experienced
the danger of battle,
the loneliness of imprisonment,
the agony of torture or
the pangs of starvation,
you are ahead of 20 million people
around the world.
If you attend a prayer
without fear of harassment,
arrest, torture, or death,
you are more blessed than almost
three billion people in the world.
If you have food in your refrigerator,
clothes on your back, a roof over
your head and a place to sleep,
you are richer than 75% of this world.
If you have money in the bank,
in your wallet, and spare change
in a dish someplace, you are among
the top 8% of the world's wealthy.
If your parents are still married and alive,
you are very rare,
especially in the United States.
If you hold up your head with a smile
on your face and are truly thankful,
you are blessed because the majority can,
but most do not.
If you can hold someone's hand, hug them
or even touch them on the shoulder,
you are blessed because you can
offer God's healing touch.
If you can read this message,
you are more blessed than over
two billion people in the world
that cannot read anything at all.
You are so blessed in many ways
that you may never even know.
with more health than illness,
you are more blessed than the
million who won't survive the week.
If you have never experienced
the danger of battle,
the loneliness of imprisonment,
the agony of torture or
the pangs of starvation,
you are ahead of 20 million people
around the world.
If you attend a prayer
without fear of harassment,
arrest, torture, or death,
you are more blessed than almost
three billion people in the world.
If you have food in your refrigerator,
clothes on your back, a roof over
your head and a place to sleep,
you are richer than 75% of this world.
If you have money in the bank,
in your wallet, and spare change
in a dish someplace, you are among
the top 8% of the world's wealthy.
If your parents are still married and alive,
you are very rare,
especially in the United States.
If you hold up your head with a smile
on your face and are truly thankful,
you are blessed because the majority can,
but most do not.
If you can hold someone's hand, hug them
or even touch them on the shoulder,
you are blessed because you can
offer God's healing touch.
If you can read this message,
you are more blessed than over
two billion people in the world
that cannot read anything at all.
You are so blessed in many ways
that you may never even know.
Celebrating Life..... =)
Today is my friend's Birthday... :) He is a Leo...
Me on the other hand are born between these two...Gemini & Cancer.. :)
AND
My lover .....Shan
Me on the other hand are born between these two...Gemini & Cancer.. :)
AND
My lover .....Shan
part two...
A man in a hot air balloon realized he was lost. He reduced altitude and
spotted a woman below. He descended a bit more and shouted, "Excuse me,
can you help me? I promised a friend I would meet him an hour ago, but I
don't know where I am."
The woman below replied, "You're in a hot air balloon hovering
approximately 30 feet above the ground. You're between 40 and 41 degrees
north latitude and between 59 and 60 degrees west longitude."
"You must be an engineer," said the balloonist. "I am," replied the woman,
"How did you know?"
"Well," answered the balloonist, "everything you told me is, technically
correct, but I've no idea what to make of your information, and the fact
is I'm still lost. Frankly, you've not been much help at all. If anything,
you've delayed my trip."
The woman below responded, "You must be in Management." "I am," replied
the balloonist, "but how did you know?"
"Well," said the woman, "you don't know where you are or where you're
going. You have risen to where you are due to a large quantity of hot air.
You made a promise which you've no idea how to keep, and you expect people
beneath you to solve your problems. The fact is you are in exactly the same
position you were in before we met, but now, somehow, it's my fault."
____________________________________________________________________________
A sales rep, an administration clerk and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp. They rub it and a Genie comes out in a puff of smoke. The Genie says, "I usually only grant three wishes,
so I'll give each of you one wish each."
"Me first! Me first!" says the admin clerk. "I want to be in the Bahamas, driving a speedboat, without a care in the world."
Poof! She's gone.
In astonishment, "Me next! Me next!" says the sales rep. "I want to be in Hawaii, relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an endless supply of Pina Coladas and the love of my life."
Poof! He's gone. "OK, you're up," the Genie says to the manager.
The manager says, "I want those two back in the office after lunch."
Moral of the story:
Always let your boss have the first say.
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This joke is from 2001 when Nortel stock was near its all time low
If you had purchased $1,000 of Nortel stock one year ago, it would be worth $67.37 today. If you would have taken that same $1,000 and purchased Budweiser (the beer, not the stock), drank all the beer and redeemed each bottle for the nickel deposit, you would have $78.95.
The moral of the story..... Drink heavily and recycle
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A man brought a very limp dog into the veterinary clinic. As he laid the dog on the table, the doctor pulled out his stethoscope, placing the receptor on the dog's chest. After a moment or two, the vet shook his head sadly and said, "I'm sorry, but your dog has passed away." "What?" screamed the man. "How can you tell? You haven't done any testing on him or anything. I want another opinion!" With that, the vet turned and left the room.
In a few moments, he returned with a Labrador retriever. The Retriever went right to work, sniffing and prodding, checking the poor dead dog out thoroughly. After a considerable amount of sniffing, the Retriever sadly shook his head and said, "Bark".
The veterinarian then took the Labrador out and returned in a few moments with a cat, which also checked out the poor dog on the table. As had his predecessors, the cat sadly shook his head and said, "Meow." He then jumped off the table and ran out of the room. The veterinarian handed the man a bill for $600. The dog's owner went berserk. "$600! Just to tell me my dog is dead? This is outrageous!"
The vet shook his head sadly and explained. "If you had taken my word for it, it would have been $50, but with the Lab work and the cat scan....
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The American and the Japanese corporate offices for a large multi-national corporation decided to engage in a competitive boat race. Both teams practiced hard and long to reach their peak performance.
On the big day they felt ready. The Japanese team won by a mile. Afterward, the American team was discouraged by the loss. Morale sagged. Corporate management decided that the reason for the crushing defeat had to be found, so a consulting firm was hired to investigate the problem and recommended corrective action.
The consultant's finding: The Japanese team had eight people rowing and one person steering; the American team had one person rowing and eight people steering.
After a year of study and millions spent analyzing the problem, the firm concluded that too many people were steering and not enough were rowing on the American team.
So, as race day neared again the following year, the American team's management structure was completely reorganized. The new structure: four
steering managers, three area steering managers and a new performance review system for the person rowing the boat to provide work incentive.
The next year, the Japanese won by two miles. Humiliated, the American office laid-off the rower for poor performance and gave the managers a bonus for discovering the problem.
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This guy gets a parrot but it's got a bad attitude and foul vocabulary. He tries everything to change the bird's attitude and clean up its talk but nothing works. Finally, in a moment of desperation, he puts the parrot in the freezer. For a few moments he hears the bird squawking, kicking and screaming and then, suddenly, all is quiet. He opens the freezer door. The parrot steps out and says, "I'm sorry that I offended you with my language and actions. I ask for your forgiveness. The guy's astounded at the bird's change in attitude and was about to ask what changed him when the parrot continued, "By the way, may I ask - what did the chicken do?"
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Start with a cage containing five monkeys. Inside the cage, hang a banana on a string and place a set of stairs under it. Before long, a monkey will go to the stairs and start to climb towards the banana. As soon as he touches the stairs, spray all of the other monkeys with cold water. After a while, another monkey makes an attempt with the same result - all the other monkeys are sprayed with cold water. Pretty soon, when another monkey tries to climb the stairs, the other monkeys will try to prevent it.
Now, put away the cold water. Remove one monkey from the cage and replace it with a new one. The new monkey sees the banana and wants to climb the stairs. To his surprise and horror, all of the other monkeys attack him. After another attempt and attack, he knows that if he tries to climb the stairs, he will be assaulted.
Next, remove another of the original five monkeys and replace it with a new one. The newcomer goes to the stairs and is attacked. The previous newcomer takes part in the punishment with enthusiasm! Likewise, replace a third original monkey with a new one, then a fourth, then the fifth. Every time the newest monkey takes to the stairs, he is attacked. Most of the monkeys that are beating him have no idea why they were not permitted to climb the stairs or why they are participating in the beating of the newest monkey.
After replacing all the original monkeys, none of the remaining monkeys have ever been sprayed with cold water. Nevertheless, no monkey ever again approaches the stairs to try for the banana.
Why not?
Because as far as they know that's the way it's always been done around here.
And that, my friends, is how company policy begins.
spotted a woman below. He descended a bit more and shouted, "Excuse me,
can you help me? I promised a friend I would meet him an hour ago, but I
don't know where I am."
The woman below replied, "You're in a hot air balloon hovering
approximately 30 feet above the ground. You're between 40 and 41 degrees
north latitude and between 59 and 60 degrees west longitude."
"You must be an engineer," said the balloonist. "I am," replied the woman,
"How did you know?"
"Well," answered the balloonist, "everything you told me is, technically
correct, but I've no idea what to make of your information, and the fact
is I'm still lost. Frankly, you've not been much help at all. If anything,
you've delayed my trip."
The woman below responded, "You must be in Management." "I am," replied
the balloonist, "but how did you know?"
"Well," said the woman, "you don't know where you are or where you're
going. You have risen to where you are due to a large quantity of hot air.
You made a promise which you've no idea how to keep, and you expect people
beneath you to solve your problems. The fact is you are in exactly the same
position you were in before we met, but now, somehow, it's my fault."
____________________________________________________________________________
A sales rep, an administration clerk and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp. They rub it and a Genie comes out in a puff of smoke. The Genie says, "I usually only grant three wishes,
so I'll give each of you one wish each."
"Me first! Me first!" says the admin clerk. "I want to be in the Bahamas, driving a speedboat, without a care in the world."
Poof! She's gone.
In astonishment, "Me next! Me next!" says the sales rep. "I want to be in Hawaii, relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an endless supply of Pina Coladas and the love of my life."
Poof! He's gone. "OK, you're up," the Genie says to the manager.
The manager says, "I want those two back in the office after lunch."
Moral of the story:
Always let your boss have the first say.
______________________________________________________________________________
This joke is from 2001 when Nortel stock was near its all time low
If you had purchased $1,000 of Nortel stock one year ago, it would be worth $67.37 today. If you would have taken that same $1,000 and purchased Budweiser (the beer, not the stock), drank all the beer and redeemed each bottle for the nickel deposit, you would have $78.95.
The moral of the story..... Drink heavily and recycle
_____________________________________________________________________________
A man brought a very limp dog into the veterinary clinic. As he laid the dog on the table, the doctor pulled out his stethoscope, placing the receptor on the dog's chest. After a moment or two, the vet shook his head sadly and said, "I'm sorry, but your dog has passed away." "What?" screamed the man. "How can you tell? You haven't done any testing on him or anything. I want another opinion!" With that, the vet turned and left the room.
In a few moments, he returned with a Labrador retriever. The Retriever went right to work, sniffing and prodding, checking the poor dead dog out thoroughly. After a considerable amount of sniffing, the Retriever sadly shook his head and said, "Bark".
The veterinarian then took the Labrador out and returned in a few moments with a cat, which also checked out the poor dog on the table. As had his predecessors, the cat sadly shook his head and said, "Meow." He then jumped off the table and ran out of the room. The veterinarian handed the man a bill for $600. The dog's owner went berserk. "$600! Just to tell me my dog is dead? This is outrageous!"
The vet shook his head sadly and explained. "If you had taken my word for it, it would have been $50, but with the Lab work and the cat scan....
________________________________________________________________________________
The American and the Japanese corporate offices for a large multi-national corporation decided to engage in a competitive boat race. Both teams practiced hard and long to reach their peak performance.
On the big day they felt ready. The Japanese team won by a mile. Afterward, the American team was discouraged by the loss. Morale sagged. Corporate management decided that the reason for the crushing defeat had to be found, so a consulting firm was hired to investigate the problem and recommended corrective action.
The consultant's finding: The Japanese team had eight people rowing and one person steering; the American team had one person rowing and eight people steering.
After a year of study and millions spent analyzing the problem, the firm concluded that too many people were steering and not enough were rowing on the American team.
So, as race day neared again the following year, the American team's management structure was completely reorganized. The new structure: four
steering managers, three area steering managers and a new performance review system for the person rowing the boat to provide work incentive.
The next year, the Japanese won by two miles. Humiliated, the American office laid-off the rower for poor performance and gave the managers a bonus for discovering the problem.
______________________________________________________________________________
This guy gets a parrot but it's got a bad attitude and foul vocabulary. He tries everything to change the bird's attitude and clean up its talk but nothing works. Finally, in a moment of desperation, he puts the parrot in the freezer. For a few moments he hears the bird squawking, kicking and screaming and then, suddenly, all is quiet. He opens the freezer door. The parrot steps out and says, "I'm sorry that I offended you with my language and actions. I ask for your forgiveness. The guy's astounded at the bird's change in attitude and was about to ask what changed him when the parrot continued, "By the way, may I ask - what did the chicken do?"
_______________________________________________________________________________
Start with a cage containing five monkeys. Inside the cage, hang a banana on a string and place a set of stairs under it. Before long, a monkey will go to the stairs and start to climb towards the banana. As soon as he touches the stairs, spray all of the other monkeys with cold water. After a while, another monkey makes an attempt with the same result - all the other monkeys are sprayed with cold water. Pretty soon, when another monkey tries to climb the stairs, the other monkeys will try to prevent it.
Now, put away the cold water. Remove one monkey from the cage and replace it with a new one. The new monkey sees the banana and wants to climb the stairs. To his surprise and horror, all of the other monkeys attack him. After another attempt and attack, he knows that if he tries to climb the stairs, he will be assaulted.
Next, remove another of the original five monkeys and replace it with a new one. The newcomer goes to the stairs and is attacked. The previous newcomer takes part in the punishment with enthusiasm! Likewise, replace a third original monkey with a new one, then a fourth, then the fifth. Every time the newest monkey takes to the stairs, he is attacked. Most of the monkeys that are beating him have no idea why they were not permitted to climb the stairs or why they are participating in the beating of the newest monkey.
After replacing all the original monkeys, none of the remaining monkeys have ever been sprayed with cold water. Nevertheless, no monkey ever again approaches the stairs to try for the banana.
Why not?
Because as far as they know that's the way it's always been done around here.
And that, my friends, is how company policy begins.
I got even with all the bad management I had by being a good manager ~ Victoria Principal
Shared by a friend :-
Lesson 1:
A crow was sitting on a tree, doing nothing all day. A small rabbit saw the crow, and asked him, "Can I also sit like you and do nothing all day long?" The crow answered: "Sure, why not." So the rabbit sat on the ground below the crow, and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.
Management Lesson: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.
Lesson 2:
A turkey was chatting with a bull.
"I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree," sighed the turkey, "but I haven't got the energy."
"Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?" replied the bull. "They're packed with nutrients."
The turkey pecked at a lump of dung and found that it actually gave him enough strength to reach the first branch of the tree.
The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally, after a forenight, there he was proudly perched at the top of the tree. Soon he was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot the turkey out of the tree.
Management Lesson: Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.
Lesson 3:
A little bird was flying South for the winter. It was so cold, the bird froze and fell to the ground in a large field. While it was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on it. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of dung, it began to realize how warm it was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy and soon began to sing for joy.
A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung and promptly dug him out and ate him!
Management Lessons:
1) Not everyone who drops shit on you is your enemy.
2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
3) And when you're in deep shit, keep your mouth shut.
Lesson 1:
A crow was sitting on a tree, doing nothing all day. A small rabbit saw the crow, and asked him, "Can I also sit like you and do nothing all day long?" The crow answered: "Sure, why not." So the rabbit sat on the ground below the crow, and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.
Management Lesson: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.
Lesson 2:
A turkey was chatting with a bull.
"I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree," sighed the turkey, "but I haven't got the energy."
"Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?" replied the bull. "They're packed with nutrients."
The turkey pecked at a lump of dung and found that it actually gave him enough strength to reach the first branch of the tree.
The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally, after a forenight, there he was proudly perched at the top of the tree. Soon he was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot the turkey out of the tree.
Management Lesson: Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.
Lesson 3:
A little bird was flying South for the winter. It was so cold, the bird froze and fell to the ground in a large field. While it was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on it. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of dung, it began to realize how warm it was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy and soon began to sing for joy.
A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung and promptly dug him out and ate him!
Management Lessons:
1) Not everyone who drops shit on you is your enemy.
2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
3) And when you're in deep shit, keep your mouth shut.
We gotta hold on ready or not,You live for the fight when it's all that you've got - Bon Jovi
If you always put limit on everything you do, physical or anything else. It will spread into your work and into your life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there, you must go beyond them.
~ Bruce Lee
Woke up yesterday fresh and bright. My housemate came back after almost a year of disappear, some work issue to settle in central region. He gained weight like every minutes and claimed that I've lost some kilos, gee! that bad huh fasting month ; vision seems blurish. I have to jump like kangaroo to get into my jeans nowadays and am losing weight he said. I've got new jeans - for the record.
Anyway after my laze around then I've re-arrange the furniture again, since he is gonna be around for a while, might as well expand the space a little. Satisfied with what I've done today, the rest of afternoon spend relax and unwind. Updated some shopping list for upcoming Eid.
What really catches my attention today was, while watching NTV7 - The Breakfast show, their studio guest. It leave me feeling rather amaze and shameful in a way. The guest was Mr Leonard Chua - http://leonardchua.blogspot.com/
One in a million man. Often I look over into another continent to find an inspirational story to motivate our daily life. Failed to look at our own yard, or it is because too few recognition. At times its not easy to come into the lime light seeking support or charity wise, fund raising. The red tape is one issue, the other common issue I believe is that somebody, someone or some species has to benefit of it. No such thing as free lunch.
No such thing as its just to do a right thing. Let alone believe in moral and values.
As loud as the so call progressing/developing country; so does the lacking of lots of thing. Progress they say, will take a while to make it especially when attitude is concern. That's the reason probably I always fail to look at our own yard. Its easier to see over the other continent ; the star shine so bright that it glares up to my eyes.
So there he was with him supportive mother, sharing what had happen to him. Seeing the achievement of what he has go through over six years is amazing. But the truth is, ordeal to really be in that situation only he knows. Repeatedly he said, family is everything. What he is today is because of family.
He also send out a powerful message. Be responsible of your own self. Be alert enough to take care of yourself. A split second can transformed our life and its not only that he said, what ever we did ignorance the impact is not on us alone but the entire people around you. When one's life is change like a flip of switch, to stand strong as family is definitely a challenge. But they manage nonetheless.
Don't drink and drive, have just enough for you to enjoy. He said, when it comes to alcohol do we really know what enough means ? Its very individual. Bottom line, as he said earlier be responsible for yourself. Think a million time before we do anything especially when there is an impact involve. As long as we do our due diligence, anything comes along there after is already beyond our control.
Although saying is easier than doing it, I guess its all about the lesson learned along the way.
Lately I've come to notice that this blog of mine is more towards my heart and soul...my own. Reading through other's blog life they seems to become a good commenter about things or news that's happening around.
I do sincerely felt that am avoiding to indulge into what the society is up too. Watching and reading whats on tv or newspaper nowadays often leads to heart wrenching. Its fair to say that I do left whats in the news as it is. Don't mind to watch all the positive deal that's happening around even its a small news but to me it create sort a happy feeling, the least there are human in this world nowadays still able to make a different.
I stop reading tabloid for a while already. Some newspaper are very bias, political wise even tv station does that as well. Often I felt like to puke...these politician really think that we are that stupid are we ? Venturing into world news ..that gives you a different impact. Stirring country specially the middle east nowadays, blood bath. Not enough with war issue, greatest issue of all time is famine.
Strongly believe it is actually a crime to let famine without aid. Do we really believe that it can't be handle ?
Ignorance, attitude and politics...these are three major contributor to what famine is.
it gives me that heart ache to see how the rich and famous can spend millions of dollar for wedding, parties and all those social events while the truth is there are human in this millennium still malnourished or rather NO FOOD. Can you believe it ? While we are lavishly having a plate of briyani..there are human in other part of the world who only able to dream of it.
Hands that tried to make a difference is too few comparing to the one asking for help. What is my contribution towards all these. Well enough to make a difference I would say to my surroundings. Positive support to all that make the difference as well.
Just log on to http://www.cnn.com/. Tell me after the first 5 minutes...aren't you disturbed by those headlines ? I sure am. How about taking a peep into our own backyard..let see....still the same crap. Literally saying WE ARE DOOMED with different slang that's all...
Lets face it, how many of us care enough not to throw rubbish around or at least out of your own car ? Or when it says NO SMOKING...how many even care about that ? Don't let that politic blood sprang too much, after all it is filthy.
People say, there is always hope. Oh yeah of course there are. Few but its better than nothing.
My own office colleague's son was robbed in broad day light, her son was only 13 years old I think. While waiting for his friend and also counting his money. Two man approached, demand his for the cash which he refuse. They took knife out to scare him, still he refuse. These two morons then kick that boy in the stomach, not enough with that bashed him up. Guess what the money is only RM50. Resulting, my friend's son bruised all over, five stitches and of course fear.
Gasp your breath upon this, but this is one of those thing that is so like happening nowadays. Its amusing at times to think why is so hard to live or lead your life is a good way. Having to say this, am not surprise HE will put me into it just to let me taste it. Well thank you very much but no thank you. I have come this far
on the throne of victory.
Am not a person who do bad to others, issues between me and YOU religiously.. that's separate matter. As far as I am concern, I don't deserve to be at the rock bottom again, I've learned my lesson already.,.don't you dare ! Challenged me to rise above ..I shall take it with pride. I mean this to my very core...don't you dare ! I don't deserve that...and am not gonna give up and accept because it faith. We create our of journey and faith. Amen !
Off days again, going to shopping spree tomorrow. My next shift is Sunday, then Wed next week. Plenty of time of my own. Shall do something productive for sure.
After all, am ready for bigger challenge....there is no limits if you believe in what you are doing. Arrogance and attitude is two different thing yeah...remember.
~ Bruce Lee
Woke up yesterday fresh and bright. My housemate came back after almost a year of disappear, some work issue to settle in central region. He gained weight like every minutes and claimed that I've lost some kilos, gee! that bad huh fasting month ; vision seems blurish. I have to jump like kangaroo to get into my jeans nowadays and am losing weight he said. I've got new jeans - for the record.
Anyway after my laze around then I've re-arrange the furniture again, since he is gonna be around for a while, might as well expand the space a little. Satisfied with what I've done today, the rest of afternoon spend relax and unwind. Updated some shopping list for upcoming Eid.
What really catches my attention today was, while watching NTV7 - The Breakfast show, their studio guest. It leave me feeling rather amaze and shameful in a way. The guest was Mr Leonard Chua - http://leonardchua.blogspot.com/
One in a million man. Often I look over into another continent to find an inspirational story to motivate our daily life. Failed to look at our own yard, or it is because too few recognition. At times its not easy to come into the lime light seeking support or charity wise, fund raising. The red tape is one issue, the other common issue I believe is that somebody, someone or some species has to benefit of it. No such thing as free lunch.
No such thing as its just to do a right thing. Let alone believe in moral and values.
As loud as the so call progressing/developing country; so does the lacking of lots of thing. Progress they say, will take a while to make it especially when attitude is concern. That's the reason probably I always fail to look at our own yard. Its easier to see over the other continent ; the star shine so bright that it glares up to my eyes.
So there he was with him supportive mother, sharing what had happen to him. Seeing the achievement of what he has go through over six years is amazing. But the truth is, ordeal to really be in that situation only he knows. Repeatedly he said, family is everything. What he is today is because of family.
He also send out a powerful message. Be responsible of your own self. Be alert enough to take care of yourself. A split second can transformed our life and its not only that he said, what ever we did ignorance the impact is not on us alone but the entire people around you. When one's life is change like a flip of switch, to stand strong as family is definitely a challenge. But they manage nonetheless.
Don't drink and drive, have just enough for you to enjoy. He said, when it comes to alcohol do we really know what enough means ? Its very individual. Bottom line, as he said earlier be responsible for yourself. Think a million time before we do anything especially when there is an impact involve. As long as we do our due diligence, anything comes along there after is already beyond our control.
Although saying is easier than doing it, I guess its all about the lesson learned along the way.
Lately I've come to notice that this blog of mine is more towards my heart and soul...my own. Reading through other's blog life they seems to become a good commenter about things or news that's happening around.
I do sincerely felt that am avoiding to indulge into what the society is up too. Watching and reading whats on tv or newspaper nowadays often leads to heart wrenching. Its fair to say that I do left whats in the news as it is. Don't mind to watch all the positive deal that's happening around even its a small news but to me it create sort a happy feeling, the least there are human in this world nowadays still able to make a different.
I stop reading tabloid for a while already. Some newspaper are very bias, political wise even tv station does that as well. Often I felt like to puke...these politician really think that we are that stupid are we ? Venturing into world news ..that gives you a different impact. Stirring country specially the middle east nowadays, blood bath. Not enough with war issue, greatest issue of all time is famine.
Strongly believe it is actually a crime to let famine without aid. Do we really believe that it can't be handle ?
Ignorance, attitude and politics...these are three major contributor to what famine is.
it gives me that heart ache to see how the rich and famous can spend millions of dollar for wedding, parties and all those social events while the truth is there are human in this millennium still malnourished or rather NO FOOD. Can you believe it ? While we are lavishly having a plate of briyani..there are human in other part of the world who only able to dream of it.
Hands that tried to make a difference is too few comparing to the one asking for help. What is my contribution towards all these. Well enough to make a difference I would say to my surroundings. Positive support to all that make the difference as well.
Just log on to http://www.cnn.com/. Tell me after the first 5 minutes...aren't you disturbed by those headlines ? I sure am. How about taking a peep into our own backyard..let see....still the same crap. Literally saying WE ARE DOOMED with different slang that's all...
Lets face it, how many of us care enough not to throw rubbish around or at least out of your own car ? Or when it says NO SMOKING...how many even care about that ? Don't let that politic blood sprang too much, after all it is filthy.
People say, there is always hope. Oh yeah of course there are. Few but its better than nothing.
My own office colleague's son was robbed in broad day light, her son was only 13 years old I think. While waiting for his friend and also counting his money. Two man approached, demand his for the cash which he refuse. They took knife out to scare him, still he refuse. These two morons then kick that boy in the stomach, not enough with that bashed him up. Guess what the money is only RM50. Resulting, my friend's son bruised all over, five stitches and of course fear.
Gasp your breath upon this, but this is one of those thing that is so like happening nowadays. Its amusing at times to think why is so hard to live or lead your life is a good way. Having to say this, am not surprise HE will put me into it just to let me taste it. Well thank you very much but no thank you. I have come this far
on the throne of victory.
Am not a person who do bad to others, issues between me and YOU religiously.. that's separate matter. As far as I am concern, I don't deserve to be at the rock bottom again, I've learned my lesson already.,.don't you dare ! Challenged me to rise above ..I shall take it with pride. I mean this to my very core...don't you dare ! I don't deserve that...and am not gonna give up and accept because it faith. We create our of journey and faith. Amen !
Off days again, going to shopping spree tomorrow. My next shift is Sunday, then Wed next week. Plenty of time of my own. Shall do something productive for sure.
After all, am ready for bigger challenge....there is no limits if you believe in what you are doing. Arrogance and attitude is two different thing yeah...remember.
Learn to live with the pricks in your life
Night shift again, my first for this month, another seven nights more to go. Looking back at the new schedule for the next 15 days, I can clearly say that I m home most of the time. It sort of balance in a way. Got to get my lazy butt to do something more challenging.
One of my buddy is in trouble again. This is one stubborn person, still I have not give up hope yet. But for sure the recent shoulder to cry on is the last one from me. Done deal, am not being ignorant or care less, its just there is a limit to everything.
My words are final. Am actually trying my level best, refrain myself to look down at these small petty thing call love affairs. Love to me is just part of living lives of human, it is not the air that keep us alive. Its already a secondary issue for me or rather for us which is now seating on victory throne.
Out of respect and care, I still offer words of advise. Big punch of words that's for sure. If she manage, success will be for her...if not..its elimination time. I have no time to babysit anyone who refuse to
wake up from their day dreaming.
Refusal to accept the truth and facts of life will not get you anywhere. When we say lesson learned, we meant it to the very core. When we say we love our self, we meant it well.
I told her, its a long healing process. Years passed and aged catching up, you have missed so many things in your life. Let alone to prioritize whats important. Financial still an issue, job wise and of course other things. Too much time spend on nursing a broken heart, can make us far behind. Everyday is a new day but when we are busy with a same thing everyday, life has no meaning.
Well, so much so...too much breathing space also make me drown. But that's another story. I m hungry for bigger challenge...am bored of this victory throne already.
She questioned my ability of how can I develop to such level of at time being ignorant and somewhat cocky.
My answer is simple, when you learned how to love yourself...protect your hearth and soul...be defensive of hurting your heart...you will sure to understand where this cockiness of mine come from.
I asked her to name me one sad love song that she like, which she did. To me I said, every words of this crying in mourning of being left by loves one is whole full of crap. Or if the songs words of being rejected by love cause he or she is not good enough...GO TO HELL. If he does not want me...it is his lost, why should I waste my time finding whats wrong with me ? They are millions of fish in the sea anyway. If none suits me..that's fine, I still have the entire ocean to roam. Its free anyway.
Learned how to live with me, myself and I....amen !
This fasting month run smooth as well. I can't wait to do my Eid Shopping. Its sort of meaningful event this year. I have ample breathing space. It does make a different when one truly lives in within their means.
I make a promise to myself that am not crawling into that tight pocket anymore all because of my sill spending habits. Lives within what you earn and don't waste.
Even my meals nowadays I choose to eat for my tummy rather than for my eyes. If I don't feel like eating or rather do not know what to consume, let it be. Am not going to die of it. Fill our tummy just enough for the living. Have a feast once a while. Trust me, am very clever on choosing what to feast...evidence shows specially those who know me in person.
There are several personnel in my office leaving for greener pasture. Being positive well wisher, I do hope they success in which ever field they are venturing into. People come and go, career build and success claimed. Last night they had a huge farewell for both my boss Brian and our senior exec Zilah. Unfortunately I can't tag along, night shift duty. I could have change the time table with one of my colleague but then again, I have lots to do as well. Do not wish to jumble up these 15 days time table un-necessarily.
When I enter into office at about 6pm yesterday, both me and Brian screaming at each other cause we have not met like two weeks. Its so girlish and we giggled like kids. Off they went thereafter I log in. 30 minutes after midnight, Joanna came into the office with two of my colleague...tipsy. Brian has totally knocked out ; wonder who carry him home then. Both of my colleague just rest for while and went home. I smile to myself and remember my own glory (silly) days. Joanna told me its 5 bottles of vodka minus beers. I told Shan that, if I am still in this loop, you would have to roll me like carpet to the car considering am too heavy to be carried. Well, am glad I quit it for good. Its all left with memory and fame of such silliness. I quit majorly because I don't find its benefit me in anyway. Bad hangover that's all I can remember, no fun..no joy...well that's me then.
I received RM150 worth of book voucher from office as reward. Then I purchase another RM150 from one of my colleague. Run like hurricane to MPH bookstore, got myself Doctor In The House - Memoirs of Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad and two other books.
Pleasure and passion of reading. Quarter more to go for the Memoirs. Its fun to read another side of this Premium leader. He is one hell of a man. I was so indulge in it until time passed so quickly. Then I put a stop for a while, dig myself into another set of motivational book. My friend Dev Anand told me to get Lee Kuan Yew's ( Dr M said that with SIN is always a civil relationship; never was a friendship) Grin ! for that suggestion am rewarding him part of the voucher ( don't say a word Dev Anand as I have to make it look good here..ok... = )
its after 2am. Calm and quiet in this quiet room. Let it remain this way till my shift end at 8.30am.
Fable of the porcupine
It was the coldest winter ever. Many animals died because of the cold. The porcupines, realizing the situation, decided to group together to keep warm. This way they covered and protected themselves; but the quills of each one wounded their closest companions. After awhile, they decided to distance themselves one from the other and they began to die, alone and frozen. So they had to make a choice: either accept the quills of their companions or disappear from the Earth. Wisely, they decided to go back to being together. They learned to live with the little wounds caused by the close relationship with their companions in order to receive the warmth that came from the others. This way they were able to survive.
Moral of the story:
The best relationship is not the one that brings together perfect people, but when each individual learns to live with the imperfections of others and can admire the other person's good qualities.
The real moral of the story......
LEARN TO LIVE WITH THE PRICKS IN YOUR LIFE !!!!
One of my buddy is in trouble again. This is one stubborn person, still I have not give up hope yet. But for sure the recent shoulder to cry on is the last one from me. Done deal, am not being ignorant or care less, its just there is a limit to everything.
My words are final. Am actually trying my level best, refrain myself to look down at these small petty thing call love affairs. Love to me is just part of living lives of human, it is not the air that keep us alive. Its already a secondary issue for me or rather for us which is now seating on victory throne.
Out of respect and care, I still offer words of advise. Big punch of words that's for sure. If she manage, success will be for her...if not..its elimination time. I have no time to babysit anyone who refuse to
wake up from their day dreaming.
Refusal to accept the truth and facts of life will not get you anywhere. When we say lesson learned, we meant it to the very core. When we say we love our self, we meant it well.
I told her, its a long healing process. Years passed and aged catching up, you have missed so many things in your life. Let alone to prioritize whats important. Financial still an issue, job wise and of course other things. Too much time spend on nursing a broken heart, can make us far behind. Everyday is a new day but when we are busy with a same thing everyday, life has no meaning.
Well, so much so...too much breathing space also make me drown. But that's another story. I m hungry for bigger challenge...am bored of this victory throne already.
She questioned my ability of how can I develop to such level of at time being ignorant and somewhat cocky.
My answer is simple, when you learned how to love yourself...protect your hearth and soul...be defensive of hurting your heart...you will sure to understand where this cockiness of mine come from.
I asked her to name me one sad love song that she like, which she did. To me I said, every words of this crying in mourning of being left by loves one is whole full of crap. Or if the songs words of being rejected by love cause he or she is not good enough...GO TO HELL. If he does not want me...it is his lost, why should I waste my time finding whats wrong with me ? They are millions of fish in the sea anyway. If none suits me..that's fine, I still have the entire ocean to roam. Its free anyway.
Learned how to live with me, myself and I....amen !
This fasting month run smooth as well. I can't wait to do my Eid Shopping. Its sort of meaningful event this year. I have ample breathing space. It does make a different when one truly lives in within their means.
I make a promise to myself that am not crawling into that tight pocket anymore all because of my sill spending habits. Lives within what you earn and don't waste.
Even my meals nowadays I choose to eat for my tummy rather than for my eyes. If I don't feel like eating or rather do not know what to consume, let it be. Am not going to die of it. Fill our tummy just enough for the living. Have a feast once a while. Trust me, am very clever on choosing what to feast...evidence shows specially those who know me in person.
There are several personnel in my office leaving for greener pasture. Being positive well wisher, I do hope they success in which ever field they are venturing into. People come and go, career build and success claimed. Last night they had a huge farewell for both my boss Brian and our senior exec Zilah. Unfortunately I can't tag along, night shift duty. I could have change the time table with one of my colleague but then again, I have lots to do as well. Do not wish to jumble up these 15 days time table un-necessarily.
When I enter into office at about 6pm yesterday, both me and Brian screaming at each other cause we have not met like two weeks. Its so girlish and we giggled like kids. Off they went thereafter I log in. 30 minutes after midnight, Joanna came into the office with two of my colleague...tipsy. Brian has totally knocked out ; wonder who carry him home then. Both of my colleague just rest for while and went home. I smile to myself and remember my own glory (silly) days. Joanna told me its 5 bottles of vodka minus beers. I told Shan that, if I am still in this loop, you would have to roll me like carpet to the car considering am too heavy to be carried. Well, am glad I quit it for good. Its all left with memory and fame of such silliness. I quit majorly because I don't find its benefit me in anyway. Bad hangover that's all I can remember, no fun..no joy...well that's me then.
The fun I missed... :)
Pleasure and passion of reading. Quarter more to go for the Memoirs. Its fun to read another side of this Premium leader. He is one hell of a man. I was so indulge in it until time passed so quickly. Then I put a stop for a while, dig myself into another set of motivational book. My friend Dev Anand told me to get Lee Kuan Yew's ( Dr M said that with SIN is always a civil relationship; never was a friendship) Grin ! for that suggestion am rewarding him part of the voucher ( don't say a word Dev Anand as I have to make it look good here..ok... = )
its after 2am. Calm and quiet in this quiet room. Let it remain this way till my shift end at 8.30am.
Fable of the porcupine
It was the coldest winter ever. Many animals died because of the cold. The porcupines, realizing the situation, decided to group together to keep warm. This way they covered and protected themselves; but the quills of each one wounded their closest companions. After awhile, they decided to distance themselves one from the other and they began to die, alone and frozen. So they had to make a choice: either accept the quills of their companions or disappear from the Earth. Wisely, they decided to go back to being together. They learned to live with the little wounds caused by the close relationship with their companions in order to receive the warmth that came from the others. This way they were able to survive.
Moral of the story:
The best relationship is not the one that brings together perfect people, but when each individual learns to live with the imperfections of others and can admire the other person's good qualities.
The real moral of the story......
LEARN TO LIVE WITH THE PRICKS IN YOUR LIFE !!!!
''Smooth seas do not make skillful sailors.''
1) My parent
- greatest gift I have in life is to be born out of this genetic of family. We are not Nobility, settled at being Baroness. Classy enough, we have our own par and standard. Am the first born...always gonna sit on top of their head. Come what may..Shan told me that first born always sit on top of parent's head, while the last one sit in parent's heart. Hmmm..I don't like that statement..LOL..
2) My siblings
- yes, we have our differences, but blood is always thicker than water. My home still a sanctuary for my sisters.
No matter what our issues are, I love my sisters so much. Nothing come close to this.. :)
3) Friends a.k.a Guardian Angel
- The list are short...don't even crossed more than 10 person. These are people able to keep up with me. Humans with soul of gold and pureness..nope we don't see each other often ..the bond is there..trust me. Its just a phone call away or just say I NEED YOU..someone will be there.
Among this handful list that I have, all sort of character that I have to put up with. Some with the same problem over and over again, I give silent treatment for a while. Wait for them to come and approach...come and dig your grave with me. I shall give it right smack at your face. Because of this boldness that we have, we still can remain in each other good book. I was given left right front center also ...still this circle has not break.
Dev Anand, 12 years ..thats how long it is yaar...
Among these also I did remove several names, cause their heart has turn into envy and jealousy. Its a rude wake up call....my second sister's statement give a tight slap to my face.
She said, be who you are born to be. What's your blood ? We are not commoners...the blood is red yes, am not asking about the color...am asking from where your flood flows..you are born on one par standard above the commoners...be who you are. We don't have to low down ourselves to be commoners. Be friend, that's all...don't be them.
Sound cocky right..but that's the fact of life.
Then slowly, I make sense...I am angry at myself by then..till today trust me...not able to put off that fire yet....I don't have many people that I hate ...but once I do, no turning back.
Whatever it is to me, I don't look down on anyone. My heart is pure and sincere enough to be friend with those who want to be friend with me. Lesson learned...I shall be careful not to be taken advantage anymore...
Looking at some characters around be nowadays, able to make me laugh. Funny at times...its better to watch in silent. After all empty vases make more noise. If one person spoke too much of things than you knew already by then if he or she is just another empty vase...its so empty that makes the sound so loud...
Me can be very protective too...don't you hurt my friend..don't judge..
and...
I enjoy pampering. Recently I found one ..or rather she found me...we work in the same office...such a darling. Its fun to pamper you Joanna Oh...can be handful at times, trust me you are..gets me dizzy.
Above all, don't do things that you do not want others to do to you..simple.
4) My lover
- he is the person who I dare to say God send. Someone who just can give me that soft look that say loud and clear...I Love you so much. Trust me..am damm gifted to be able to have this silent words. He is not a man of words, but his action spoke loud enough. Its like Dolby or THX..surround system...am deaf and drowned at time cause its just flowing.
I m amaze how attentive he can be at times. Its not about the big thing like birthdays...its the small thing...even he is the one who keep my daily life up to date...have I top up my touch n go card, its time to change my tooth brush, is my shopping list done for this month, have I do up my monthly budget, have I called home. He never failed to thanked me every time I cook for lunch or dinner...
I've asked him what make he fall for me. He said, its the way I carry myself. Fearless, bold and brave. Great family and of course precious friends...he has never come across this kind of girl before. Its totally a new experience for him and there shall be no other person can come close to my standard.
Its very comforting, but hey I am more than just a pretty face.
People say...its best to keep good thing to yourself as envy eyes can destroy it. Its true but what the heck...if anyone have problem with my happiness or things that I said, come and deal with me face to face...I fear nothing...
Got mouth ..sealed that lips, got ears...listen and got eyes...watch. If they step on my tail...bite it ..don't kill it..just bite off..then its a fair fight..
- greatest gift I have in life is to be born out of this genetic of family. We are not Nobility, settled at being Baroness. Classy enough, we have our own par and standard. Am the first born...always gonna sit on top of their head. Come what may..Shan told me that first born always sit on top of parent's head, while the last one sit in parent's heart. Hmmm..I don't like that statement..LOL..
2) My siblings
- yes, we have our differences, but blood is always thicker than water. My home still a sanctuary for my sisters.
No matter what our issues are, I love my sisters so much. Nothing come close to this.. :)
3) Friends a.k.a Guardian Angel
- The list are short...don't even crossed more than 10 person. These are people able to keep up with me. Humans with soul of gold and pureness..nope we don't see each other often ..the bond is there..trust me. Its just a phone call away or just say I NEED YOU..someone will be there.
Among this handful list that I have, all sort of character that I have to put up with. Some with the same problem over and over again, I give silent treatment for a while. Wait for them to come and approach...come and dig your grave with me. I shall give it right smack at your face. Because of this boldness that we have, we still can remain in each other good book. I was given left right front center also ...still this circle has not break.
Dev Anand, 12 years ..thats how long it is yaar...
Among these also I did remove several names, cause their heart has turn into envy and jealousy. Its a rude wake up call....my second sister's statement give a tight slap to my face.
She said, be who you are born to be. What's your blood ? We are not commoners...the blood is red yes, am not asking about the color...am asking from where your flood flows..you are born on one par standard above the commoners...be who you are. We don't have to low down ourselves to be commoners. Be friend, that's all...don't be them.
Sound cocky right..but that's the fact of life.
Then slowly, I make sense...I am angry at myself by then..till today trust me...not able to put off that fire yet....I don't have many people that I hate ...but once I do, no turning back.
Whatever it is to me, I don't look down on anyone. My heart is pure and sincere enough to be friend with those who want to be friend with me. Lesson learned...I shall be careful not to be taken advantage anymore...
Looking at some characters around be nowadays, able to make me laugh. Funny at times...its better to watch in silent. After all empty vases make more noise. If one person spoke too much of things than you knew already by then if he or she is just another empty vase...its so empty that makes the sound so loud...
Me can be very protective too...don't you hurt my friend..don't judge..
and...
I enjoy pampering. Recently I found one ..or rather she found me...we work in the same office...such a darling. Its fun to pamper you Joanna Oh...can be handful at times, trust me you are..gets me dizzy.
Above all, don't do things that you do not want others to do to you..simple.
4) My lover
- he is the person who I dare to say God send. Someone who just can give me that soft look that say loud and clear...I Love you so much. Trust me..am damm gifted to be able to have this silent words. He is not a man of words, but his action spoke loud enough. Its like Dolby or THX..surround system...am deaf and drowned at time cause its just flowing.
I m amaze how attentive he can be at times. Its not about the big thing like birthdays...its the small thing...even he is the one who keep my daily life up to date...have I top up my touch n go card, its time to change my tooth brush, is my shopping list done for this month, have I do up my monthly budget, have I called home. He never failed to thanked me every time I cook for lunch or dinner...
I've asked him what make he fall for me. He said, its the way I carry myself. Fearless, bold and brave. Great family and of course precious friends...he has never come across this kind of girl before. Its totally a new experience for him and there shall be no other person can come close to my standard.
Its very comforting, but hey I am more than just a pretty face.
People say...its best to keep good thing to yourself as envy eyes can destroy it. Its true but what the heck...if anyone have problem with my happiness or things that I said, come and deal with me face to face...I fear nothing...
Got mouth ..sealed that lips, got ears...listen and got eyes...watch. If they step on my tail...bite it ..don't kill it..just bite off..then its a fair fight..
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